As much hated as I probably am since how I'm only "secret loved" or rebuked that's it, that's all I experience on earth pretty well Proverbs 27:5 "Open rebuke is better than secret love." And brian's decided his body works again but he don't kiss me on the lips - that's ruff, I might be kissed on the lips by him 2 times a year. Cause he wants to be like everyone else I think - and hate me. But that's me getting sidetracked. I know I will co-rule this earth it's very likely (I believe I WILL co-rule this earth when Jesus Christ the Lord get's here as well - I FULLY BELIEVE THAT), I don't even feel qualified to be myself much like moses I RELATE TO MOSES AND I LOOK LIKE A "POPULAR CHICK".................

 As much hated as I probably am since how I'm only "secret loved" or rebuked that's it, that's all I experience on earth pretty well Proverbs 27:5 "Open rebuke is better than secret love." And brian's decided his body works again but he don't kiss me on the lips - that's ruff, I might be kissed on the lips by him 2 times a year. Cause he wants to be like everyone else I think - and hate me. But that's me getting sidetracked. I know I will co-rule this earth it's very likely (I believe I WILL co-rule this earth when Jesus Christ the Lord get's here as well - I FULLY BELIEVE THAT), I don't even feel qualified to be myself much like moses I RELATE TO MOSES AND I LOOK LIKE A "POPULAR CHICK".................

"The mentality" must be """ok this lady loves satan, lets not love her...........CHUCK THAT ONE OUT" - in society towards me in general 

but the bible doesn't have this "condition" you all have put on me

it says...................

John 15:2 "Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit."

I do not want to blog today

but I'm supposed to blog at least every now and then pry

for some that's instragram

or tiktok

or you tube

that I LOVE PEOPLE THAT I BEAR FRUIT

AND NOT JUST IN WORD

BUT WORD COUNTS TO

(God ain't laid nothing that I know of "on my heart" lately) so this is like the crowd clapping so I'm giving you another blog post basically.....................

claps being traffic though traffic to my blog porbably wants me dead..............

since all I am is attacked on the internet

"rebuked"

if all my "memories" I had of being in heaven before coming to this earth are false

and I'm merely talking to lucifer, satan the devil 24/7 for years as I do 😁💓💓💓💓

#teacherspet

I got meekness about me

I don't feel "able" to be myself

even right now

BRIAN DON'T KISS ME ON THE LIPS BUT TWICE A YEAR IF THAT HE DEEMS ME SUCH A WORTHLESS LOSER 

BUT STILL HOT

Matthew 5:5 "Blessed are the meek: for they shall inherit the earth."

MOSES IN THE BIBLE WASN'T NO "ACCIDENT" god saw someone He could work with with moses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A lot of people trash tele-evangelists...............but often they have some meekness some humility about them I do believe. GOD IS ABLE TO USE PEOPLE THAT DON'T FEEL "ABLE" that's perfect that's perfect for god

in my brains

how am I going to be able to be that popular in the future????????

how am I going to even be able to be that???????????????????????

shaking hands galore

wishing people well galore

etc. 

etc. 

seems to exhausting and NOT LIKE ME

THIS BLOG POST IS "PUTTING ME OUT TO" just to type it

so tiring

aren't we so many of us tired??????????

tired of working working working getting nowhere?????????

tired of dieting maybe and getting nowhere some of us (I went years with the scale not really moving - I'd diet and loose 10 lbs and then just gain it right back in day or two..................that's tiring.............sad thing I got so excited when I lost that 10lbs EVERYTIME SO EXCITED only for that scale to zip right back up days later) 

I have to ice bath most days these days.................to zap energy back into myself

when you get that "soul tired" 

which is what I have

it's hard doing life anymore

just so weary of waiting for this "breakthrough" from god 

so many pastors speak of having "breakthroughs" 

but years go by nothing

years go by and USUALLY THINGS JUST GET WORSE IF I'M THE NORM

and I'm tired

and I've been tired FOR A REALLY LONG TIME