People always say friends and family is the most important stuffs in ones life. I gonna get boo'd --------- But peace is so important, so much more important then money, then even having friends or family! And peace is something that I think most people value secretely, shhhhhhhhh it's a big secret, and they SEEK FOR PEACE......................if only vacations to the beach even like really combative people I suspect they at least go on beach vacations to find peace........................me getting really native american for a second (I am well over 1/4th native american) nature a place god made VERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY PEACEFUL GOD KNOWS HIS CREATION NEEDS PEACEFULNESS....................god made nature relaxing for us.........................

FOR 1 just for 1

I don't think my parents are anything but abusive to me

how is my mom telling me to shut up that she's tired of my bs - her being loving or nice to me at all???????

and it ain't bs - it's what grandpa told me AND PHOTO'S I SAW WITH MY OWN EYEBALLS THAT POINTED GREATELY TO GRANDPA NOT BEING A LIAR

grandpa who bible studied with me OFTEN AND THIS MAN PRAYED AT ALL THE FAMILY GET TOGETHERS..............after he died many of his daughters accused him of being a child molestor

but in my husbands family the family child molester isn't allowed at the family get togethers cause he's not trusted to be around children

yet supposedly according to my family it was plenty ok for a child molesting lieing grandpa to lie to me in 8th grade they didn't say it was a lie for YEARS

and for grandpa to be at every family get together and bible study with me 

and pray at all the family get togethers 

and nobody called him a child molester until after he died

 I have to add this into this blog post my mom is calling me a liar and I am no liar, well actually both my parents are calling me a liar. Not only when I called my grandpa on the telephone in jr. high did he tell me that Jack Ruby the assinator of the assinator of JFK is my great uncle THAT'S ONE GREAT! He told me Marilyn Monroe is a distant relative, who visited with my great grandpa often EVEN AFTER SHE WAS FAMOUS. And that my great grandpa married a native american lady that was grandpa told me, the main medicine man of the biggest tribe in the USA's DAUGHTER. 

  Well then I saw in like high school, in grandpa's hallway pics of my great grandpa wearing native american HEADDRESS WHICH WHY WOULD HIS JEW BUTT BEING WEARING NATIVE AMERICAN HEADDRESS UNLESS HE WAS MARRIED TO A NATIVE AMERICAN LADY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And there were pics of great grandma on grandpa's wall a very severelly native american looking lady!!!!!!!!! but my parents say this is all lies that my dad is mostly brittish and a white man!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  So I went online to find "proof"...........cause my grandpa is no freakin liar or so I thought and NEITHER AM I IF I SAW PICS ON THE WALLS HELP ME JESUS I SAW PICS ON THE WALLS OF A JEW WEARING CHIEF HEADPIECES GREAT GRANDPA AND A NATIVE AMERICAN GREAT GRANDMA!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM NO LIAR I SAW WHAT I SAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LULA MAE RUBY 

 HOW MANY WHITE PEOPLE ARE CALLED LULA???????

SOUNDS LIKE A PRETTY NATIVE AMERICAN NAME TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the 1940 Census calls him white

but that could've meant he was checking off "white" the "white" box you all know what I'm saying right now?????????

these pics of my mom and dad..............my dad is a white man in all these pictures and I've been lied to by my grandpa in the 8th grade and nobody corrected him for years and years not even over the being related to jack ruby and marilyn monroe stuffs!!!!!!! that's why I called him to see if Jack ruby was realted to me in jr. high...............AND MY PARENTS KNEW THAT WAS WHY I WAS ON THE PHONE TO GRANDPA!!!!!!!!

MY MOM SAYS MY DAD IS 100% BASICALLY A BRITTISH MAN PROBABLY RELATED TO KING CHARLES CAUSE HE'S SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO BRITTISH AND WHITE!

MY MOM THINKS I LOST MY MIND

THAT I'M ONLY A LITTLE BIT NATIVE AMERICAN 

O% JEW

FORGET OUR HONK9IN JEW NOSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOP00000000000000000J

SHE SAYS I'M MOSTLY BRITTISH AND IF I DARE TO THINK OTHERWISE

I'VE LOST MY MIND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

People always say friends and family is the most important stuffs in ones life. I gonna get boo'd --------- But peace is so important, so much more important then money, then even having friends or family! And peace is something that I think most people value secretely, shhhhhhhhh it's a big secret, and they SEEK FOR PEACE......................if only vacations to the beach even like really combative people I suspect they at least go on beach vacations to find peace........................me getting really native american for a second (I am well over 1/4th native american) nature a place god made VERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRY PEACEFUL GOD KNOWS HIS CREATION NEEDS PEACEFULNESS....................god made nature relaxing for us.........................

  Deuteronomy 23:5-7 "Nevertheless the Lord thy God would not hearken unto Balaam; but the Lord thy God turned the curse into a blessing unto thee, because the Lord thy God loved thee. Thou shalt not seek their peace nor their prosperity all thy days for ever. Thou shalt not abhor an Edomite; for he is thy brother: thou shalt not abhor an Egyptian; because thou wast a stranger in his land." ------ The world has a "peace" and they have a "prosperity" BOTH!!!!!!!!! 

  verse 17 here stands out to me

and if there EVER was a reason to not wear makeup this is it

but I think makeup a little can definately be ok nobody could convince me otherwise especially if your wearing goth makeup and aren't even trying to look nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Deuteronomy 23:17 "There shall be no whore of the daughters of Israel, nor a sodomite of the sons of Israel." I ain't saying gays are going to hell, they might could be saved if they never "in the butthole"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (or maybe they repent of "in the butthole")

IT'S GOOD TO HAVE HOPE FOR ALL PEOPLE!!!!!!!!

AND LOVE ALL PEOPLE!!!!!!!!

AND CHARITY.........................IT HOPES........................

1 Corinthians 13:7 "Beareth all things, believeth all things, hopeth all things, endureth all things.

John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid."

  Native American warrior chief man me............if I was a guy 😁💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓.....................

 

@hocuspocus42069

Male native american me is really serious!!! (ps....I'm over 1/4th native american my moms side of the family, and then on my dads side of the family, my great grandma is a full blooded native american)

♬ Electric powwow - yt girl w/ text over her head

 There is "back story" to this blog post..............................I have one child about to do their last year of college this year. And one child about to go off to college and that is going to be a lot of money..................................so all this money........................has me stressed. Well did you know stress can make it so you just have nightmares every night!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - OH YA. 

   Well I went days and days nightmare's every night - I ended up praying a slew about it - ended up looking online which many white christians IT'S THE WHITE CHRISTIANS MOSTLY they'd be mad to hear that I looked online to see which stone could help one sleep

and the internet said amethyst so I put some amethyst in the necklace above

prayed a ton to....................

slept finallly mega well last night 😍

granted my good night sleep happened cause I prayed

bible says pray without ceasing!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 Thessalonians 5:17 "Pray without ceasing."

I have a important message I'm leading up to here.........

if you are having trouble sleeping like I was

IT COULD BE LIKELY THAT YOUR STRESSED OUT BAD!!!!!!!

Isaiah 57:20-21

King James Version

20 But the wicked are like the troubled sea, when it cannot rest, whose waters cast up mire and dirt.

21 There is no peace, saith my God, to the wicked.

You could probably are just like I was very super stressed out. 

The stress is still there in my life

but prayer works

it works 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

(I feel my buffalo bone jewelry helps me relax as well though, I find buffalo beads to calm me down a ton, I really do) - maybe it's a mental thing, me thinking about buffalo's roaming around the USA?????? Thinking about fellow native american's having a good time doing pow wows. 

but I attribute my being able to sleep last night to prayer

IT WAS A MIRACLE THAT I FINALLY SLEPT PEACEFULLY NO NIGHTMARES

SLEPT SOUNDLY

off to eat some mexican street corn 👍👍👍👍👍