Video blog post: I thank god that life has been a struggle for me, because if everything was easy for me --- maybe in that event I wouldn't even go to church or pray or "wait upon the lord".........................

Video blog post: I thank god that life has been a struggle for me, because if everything was easy for me --- maybe in that event I wouldn't even go to church or pray or "wait upon the lord".
  If you are in my boat in life 1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:" You may be like me, hated to wazuuu God is mighty, and His word is true all it, including 1 Peter 5:6!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   Your "day" may not be here yet, but if you just hang on and stay humble I do believe it's coming!!!!!!!!!

 This here in my song choice for this blog post, I'm in a mary poppins mood at the moment (which some people might judge me over, probably the same people that literally want people to sadistically burn in the everlasting flames of hell forever.........😏that's the one eyebrow cocked in the air emojii cause I think that is real bad if you want people to burn horrendously in the eternal flames of hell forever even your worst worstest worstest's enemy ever if you want that to happen to them I think that's real bad Tim).
  
  I don't believe there's no "turning of shadow" with god though naw. Bible's true all of it! James 1:17
"Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning." From my earth perspective, people burning in hell some them in pain agony, crying to god for help forever, and yes god's mercy never ends it's true. For even hell to happen in my mind, that's not good!
  I don't think like god..............Isaiah 55:8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord." I clearly do not think like god because in my mind hell is 100% a bad idea, instead there should be nice jail complexes, with some sort of town for the "reformed" to go to that maybe isn't heaven cause they could never be holy enough to be in god's presence, I imagine like a pretty nice town.
  Lucifer ya I totally want him to win armageddon 100% (Jesus is lord, christ savior who came to save us all, I have no problems with jesus ----------- I just don't want him to win armageddon no way, lucifer needs to win 😀).

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

It should still be ok to be pretty, my problems with this label of "jezebel spirit' that appears to be put upon most pretty women, girls, ladies out there (by some people).........................

It should still be ok to be pretty, my problems with this label of "jezebel spirit' that appears to be put upon most pretty women, girls, ladies out there (by some people). It's dangerous to put people in labels like that. Bible says you will know them by "their fruit" not whether they are wearing makeup or not, or jewelry or not Matthew 7:20 "Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them." --- talking to you to apostolic christian church of america "commandment of men" wedding ring banned church attenders (you can't be a member of their church and have a wedding ring on I tried, and even henna wasn't allowed cause the elder said it's a "tattoo" even though henna isn't a tattoo, henna washes off in 2 weeks).
  This "jezebel spirit" um doctrine that is out there, to me it really feels like a full out attack against women, it really does. Do I believe the jezebel spirit exists, ya I do...............................I may of even experienced it a touch impersonating marilyn monroe getting "a bit to into the character" and by character I don't mean marilyn monroe the person, I am instead meaning "Marilyn Monroe" the character SHE WAS OFTEN PORTRAYING to the public. I may of had a moment where I was like "whoa this isn't even me right now".
   The bible it does say....................Luke 9:25 "For what is a man advantaged, if he gain the whole world, and lose himself, or be cast away?" It is possible to put on some "character" and """""""gain the whole world""""" being in that character (maybe "lose yourself" in the process, but then again maybe not, I don't believe marilyn monroe lost herself at all.........................I believe she was a good person who made some bad choices in life...................and I wish her life could've been better).
   The "lure" of the world, it is real, let's none of us pretend it isn't. And I believe it is enticing. How many of us - be honest right now - how many of us haven't viewed that tv show "lifestyles of the rich and the famous" in the 80's-90's (or home tours on you tube) all those mansions and fancy cars and sat there and thought to ourselves "mannnnnnnnnnnnnnnn that would be nice to have all of that"???????????? -------------- WE PRY ALL HAVE! 
   There is a real "tempation" out there, not just to women, to men as well (I think it drives at least some of the men in bodybuilding - probably on a subconscious level and not even a conscious level) if I just have enough muscles, if I'm just a bit thinner..........................I to then can have all of that.
   (I don't want to sit here and say ------ hey earth don't have 0 ambition none of you) Cause I understand, wanting to have nice things in life I sure do! I understand wanting to better yourself which health could be a part of that, looks could be a part of that cause this culture is looks obsessed.....................looking a little better could feasibly make it easier to get the job one wants (I can't say for certain.................but what I can say is the idea of making makeup and jewelry "evil" it just isn't going to work out Titus 1:15 you will have a diminished life potentially if you don't "keep up some") And jesus came that we not be homely losers John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."
  My advice instead is to try and not make a god, of your looks, or your muscle like in your mind right, in your heart..............
Deuteronomy 6:14 "Ye shall not go after other gods, of the gods of the people which are round about you;"

   I haven't tried as hard as I could impersonating marilyn monroe, and so.................I'm probably never going to get a gig ever. It's fine, cause I don't want to "go after other gods" 

and I'm not saying marilyn monroe is a god

I'm saying there is this glam idea right

that may very well be a god

🎞📽Hollywood📽🎞

This blog post was inspired after watching this you tube video that I could COMPLETELY 1 BILLION PERCENT RELATE TO......................................

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yS8YcqeTg_Y

   Ps.............back to just my normal hair, cause my fake hair, apparently I am hell on fake hair, and it looks like roadkill by now my fake hair does. Didn't even take long, maybe a month. RIP fake hair. 

  Suffering in the flesh............................it is supposed to be hard, you know it is called suffering!!!!!!!!

2 Corinthians 1:7 "And our hope of you is stedfast, knowing, that as ye are partakers of the sufferings, so shall ye be also of the consolation."

  What does my flesh want, what does probably a lot of our fleshes want, oh lets not be in denial.............................sing it ashlie tisdale who I love 💖💖💖💖💖💖 (my blog isn't about hating or bashing on anybody............not even the apostolic christian church of americanians naw..................I just trying to wake the apostolic christian church of america up, that they've been suckered into keeping a "commandment of men" with that their MEN BANNED AKA commandment of men wedding rings are forbidden thing)

 Have a great week earth!

LOVE

   

Dear rest of the body of christ, public service announcement, love all gays and lesbians please, some them and nobody could know which ones really are INTERSEX................this happens out there...................

Dear rest of the body of christ, public service announcement, love all gays and lesbians please, some them and nobody could know which ones really are INTERSEX................this happens out there...................
  Sometimes we could think we are looking at a girl right............but in god's eye's that might potentially be a boy (it happens).
  I myself am fully a girl, fully a girl right, but I've sat and scratched my head real good (not on steroids NEVER, never, and my voice drops as if I am on steroids --- it happens pretty often, and I continually have a slew of muscle on me that would usually only happen on a girl shooting up the steroids, and I never have taken 000000000000000 steroids). I'd like to make it very clear, I've given birth to 2 daugthers, I am a girl. But......................

 on both of my hands my ring finger is significantly longer then my index finger, which means in the womb I was exposed to more testosterone then estrogen. 

  I for sure have more of a "male personality" well no wonder apparently little baby me was just swimming in testosterone! I like though girly stuff, I like shopping for clothes girly clothing, and natural "marilyn monroe" makeup I'm well into, love marilyn monroe 💖💖💖💖💖💖

This photo was taken today, my biceps flexed are always 

rock solid - no fat in the above photo that is TONS OF MUSCLE

at the moment cause I ain't been working out past 2 weeks or so at all, 15 inches unflexed 

(but usually I'm at 17 inches)

well I bestest not admit to how large my biceps have actually gotten so............

  My legs are also unusually buff like all the time!!!!!!! Anyways, I making a real point right now, I don't recommend judging any gays or lesbians bible says........................

1 Corinthians 4:5 "Therefore judge nothing before the time, until the Lord come, who both will bring to light the hidden things of darkness, and will make manifest the counsels of the hearts: and then shall every man have praise of God."

  It's fine that pastors really preach out there! And the bible does say Leviticus 18:22 "Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination."

   Also............

1 Corinthians 6:8-10 "Nay, ye do wrong, and defraud, and that your brethren. Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind, Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God."

   Please just love gays and lesbians and don't judge them.......cause there are "grey" areas out there that some people are very much in. 

   Intersex people are a very small % of the population, but they do exist. There are indeed times you could think your looking at a guy, and you are actually looking at a girl..............this phenomia exists out there. 

   And then....................there are people that have problems with "gender identity" and it ain't even their faults really. Sometimes it's clean the environment they are in that might make them feel the need to identify as a girl or a boy.............sometimes their "intersex" and dealing with gender identity issues over that. 

  I watched a you tube video recently about people coming back around to their real sex identity, sometimes people need to work through all these feelings they have. (that's the bestest I going to explain that)

   LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE

Proverbs 10:12 "Hatred stirreth up strifes: but love covereth all sins."

Have a great week earth!

I love this song so much, has actually 0% to do with this blog post but I apparently think like a man, sooooooooooo I love this song..............

ya I do completely love this song......................

  

  

All races of people that aren't jews - God I assure you doesn't want to leave you behind either...............

Update 12/23/2024 my look today : ) weared my pink flamingo christmas sweater which really goes well with my pink hair : )................and brian bought me a larger drink container 2 wall insulated - so now I cold brew my green tea which does enable me to add more flavouring to it (when you all boiling tea on a tea kettle - it gets harder the adding flavouring). I nowdays drinking 1 of that full of green tea + bonus flavouring a day now. I think I ain't going to get off metformin, just keep doing metformin and green tea cause the green tea is working I am loosing weight...............

All races of people that aren't jews - God I assure you doesn't want to leave you behind either...............
Page that wasn't talked about last night at bible study (I was actually all ready to say something last night).............
   At the baptist church down the street my family and I go to on sundays and I go to bible study at, this bible study is "she reads truth" is the company of the book ""Joy to the world advent 2017"" is the title (page 28 is the page that was skipped, or well to be exact the person leading the bible study last night had the page open to 28, but she was talking about something other then what was written on page 28 and then just flipped that page over to the next page which is detailing "prophesies of jesus's birth" ------------ I'm not going to say it was outright skipped, maybe accidentally skipped? - or just a page to uncomfortable that's my going theory for the non-jews of my church to read). And it says on one of the 1st pages that it uses mostly the "christian standard bible".
  ps.............ya advent is something I don't do...................for me lighting in the menorah in a christian way, hanukkah is the holiday involving lighting candles that has meaning to me (advent they do light 1 candle, but I'm not sure what that 1 candle even means...............though I guess it means the light jesus brought to the earth...............................plug your ears messianic jew about to say it -- why don't you all just light a menorah?)
  Anyways the christian standard bible translation of Jeremiah 23:4 "I will raise up shepherds over them who will tend them. They will no longer be afraid or discouraged, nor will any be missing.” This is the Lord’s declaration."
   To say I love that translation of that verse is a ridiculous understatement. "They will no longer be afraid or discouraged, nor will any be missing" Many days I feel like I'm on the biggest milk carton of eternity right, my face everywhere ------------- and yet I'm "missing". I'm saying I often don't feel a part of things really.
   Take hope non-jew people's..........................
2 Peter 3:9 "The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance." 2 Peter 3:9 is for everybody that verse is. I know it's the stable "gentile" bible verse, that most everyone quotes.............what can I do???????????? It's is also my "go to" quote that to the non-jews bible verse just like it is the main "go to" for a lot of the non-jews themselves 2 Peter 3:9 is. A verse quoted often, but still god's heart in the matter 2 Peter 3:9 is. I'll alot it isn't a fancy awesome promise from god that none of you will go missing such as what is writing in Jeremiah 23:4 the "christian standard bible" version but even kings james translation is AWESOME Jeremiah 23:4 "And I will set up shepherds over them which shall feed them: and they shall fear no more, nor be dismayed, neither shall they be lacking, saith the Lord." ---- if you are "missing" that's about the same as lacking, if you don't have so much fellowship for instance.......cause you know your missing (your walking around everyone see's you --------- whilst on the largest milk carton of eternity...................................)

   Right now the fullness of Jeremiah 23:4 hasn't happened yet......................getting there - definatly heading in that direction. But at the moment, I could be "lacking" I feel I often am, many days I have to struggle so much to even draw near to god...............I don't think it should be THAT large of a struggle. But what can I do???????? 

  In a time where sermons are probably watered down (I ain't flat out saying most sermons are watered down just - probably) when your left lacking some potentially. Jeremiah 23:4 "And I will set up shepherds over them which shall feed them:.........." I believe when your really fed, you won't be lacking, aka the fullness of jewemiah 23:4 "And I will set up shepherds over them which shall feed them: and they shall fear no more, nor be dismayed, neither shall they be lacking, saith the Lord."

   Marilyn Monroe said 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗:

(love, love, love marilyn monroe)

"Give a girl the right shoes, and she'll conquer the world" 

   How many of us are really equipped out there? Did you know god wants us to have armor on????????????? Ephesians 6:13 "Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand." The "evil day" is coming are you ready?

  It's time to get "armed up" with the word of god, it's time that pastors really preach REALLY PREACH. 

 Jeremiah 23

1 Woe be unto the pastors that destroy and scatter the sheep of my pasture! saith the Lord.

2 Therefore thus saith the Lord God of Israel against the pastors that feed my people; Ye have scattered my flock, and driven them away, and have not visited them: behold, I will visit upon you the evil of your doings, saith the Lord.

3 And I will gather the remnant of my flock out of all countries whither I have driven them, and will bring them again to their folds; and they shall be fruitful and increase.

4 And I will set up shepherds over them which shall feed them: and they shall fear no more, nor be dismayed, neither shall they be lacking, saith the Lord.

   There are pastors that clean on purpose "destroy and scatter the sheep of my pasture" verse 2 of Jeremiah 23 "and driven them away, and have not visited them"...............................how many of us have had pastors come to our homes out there????

  I've never had a pastor come to my house ever.  - SHOULD THEY?

  Jeremiah 23 verse 2...........potentially points to the fact that pastors maybe should be going to the homes of their congregation members, and caring that much. 

   The bible does point to the care and the love that a shepherd is supposed to have.......................(not saying pastors don't have that, but they pry should step things up though, that god might not be happy with their current "effort level" and Jeremiah 23 verses 1-2 is pointing to the fact that there are indeed many pastors out there that god is very upset with!!!!!!!! FACTS Jeremiah 23 verse 1-2 exists)

Luke 13:34 "O Jerusalem, Jerusalem, which killest the prophets, and stonest them that are sent unto thee; how often would I have gathered thy children together, as a hen doth gather her brood under her wings, and ye would not!" Luke 13:34 is indicative of the love that is supposed to exist in a shepherd...................this loving desire god has to gather Jerusalem gather us together, under His wings, and not only protect us but GREATELY LOVE US! 

 Luke 15:4 "What man of you, having an hundred sheep, if he lose one of them, doth not leave the ninety and nine in the wilderness, and go after that which is lost, until he find it?" Again Luke 15:4 indicates great care a sheperd is supposed to ideally have for his flock. 

  Whether your jew or gentile, the WISH OF GOD IS STILL THE SAME........basically............that none would perish! He is the ultimate sheperd god is in my mind, sheperds love

sheperds care deeply

or THEY DO IF THEY IS GOD!

(Some you pastors out there needs to step it up - I ain't naming names ok, only god knows which one's of you needs to step it up - but for sure some of you very much do)

Have a great week earth!

LOVE

one of my favorite "Just Dance 2018" songs......love dancing to this one.......💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

The American Palestinian Relief Association

https://www.paypal.com/US/fundraiser/charity/5185761

Hanukkah miracle - that taught me that god/jesus is enough even in dark times when light seems to be scarce..................................

Hanukkah miracle - that taught me that god/jesus is enough even in dark times when light seems to be scarce..................................

Jesus is the Meaning Behind the Menorah from Fast Track Bible www.fasttrackbible.com................

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ggZfDaMUWhE

  And bible verse I referenced in the above video............

Matthew 25:1-9 "Then shall the kingdom of heaven be likened unto ten virgins, which took their lamps, and went forth to meet the bridegroom. And five of them were wise, and five were foolish. They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them: But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps.While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept. And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him. Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps. And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us of your oil; for our lamps are gone out. But the wise answered, saying, Not so; lest there be not enough for us and you: but go ye rather to them that sell, and buy for yourselves."

   I'm maybe a weirdo I don't know? But I for a long time worried about Matthew 25:9 cause it don't sound like the 5 wise virgins HAVE THAT MUCH OIL FOR THEIR LAMPS. And surely if you look around the entire landscape of the body of christ, how many people are just on fire just brimming with fire to live for jesus 24/7 always....................pry not many. That have like extreme huge gobs of oil for their lamp - maybe none that fit that description (or if they do appear to have gobs of oil for their lamp, it's I imagine just a momentary thing a bit of "revival" they are going through). 

  But like the candles the were lighted in the 2nd main temple in isreal a long time ago by the macabee's........................god is able to make our oil LAST!  

  Also there is another bible bit about oil as well...........

1 Kings 17:14-16 "For thus saith the Lord God of Israel, The barrel of meal shall not waste, neither shall the cruse of oil fail, until the day that the Lord sendeth rain upon the earth. And she went and did according to the saying of Elijah: and she, and he, and her house, did eat many days. And the barrel of meal wasted not, neither did the cruse of oil fail, according to the word of the Lord, which he spake by Elijah."

   I believe the miracle of hannukah and the other oil miracle of 1 Kings 17:14-16 is ONE PURPOSE.........for a point! God will make sure our oil is enough, that it will last! The first hanukkah was a very dark time, it was dark, and it's dark these days.................when things seem hopeless God is able!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

   This is me going off topic a bit, but angels doing a miracle in my life should be very believed because the bible says...............1 Corinthians 6:3 "Know ye not that we shall judge angels? how much more things that pertain to this life?" How are any of us about to judge the angels if we never had nothing to do with 0 angels all our lives long????????????? So it would be silly if angels never had 0 to do with us. 

   But how angels work in various people's lives varies of course, maybe few will experience the hanukkah miracle I have this year. Maybe some angels let people know for instance that their loved ones that passed away are at peace ------ for example. 

Have a great week earth!

LOVE