At the methodist church this last sunday it was childrens day, and one the kids read a book about inclusivity no races, no divisions lgbtq etc. belonging everyone belonging which is how it's supposed to be ------------ Colossians 3:11 "Where there is neither Greek nor Jew, circumcision nor uncircumcision, Barbarian, Scythian, bond nor free: but Christ is all, and in all." Except that isn't america, america this place I live in right now black people are arrested and convicted "African Americans are incarcerated at more than 5 times the rate of whites." - facts from the naacp............that's america....................

At the methodist church this last sunday it was childrens day, and one the kids read a book about inclusivity no races, no divisions lgbtq etc. belonging everyone belonging which is how it's supposed to be ------------ Colossians 3:11 "Where there is neither Greek nor Jew, circumcision nor uncircumcision, Barbarian, Scythian, bond nor free: but Christ is all, and in all." Except that isn't america, america this place I live in right now black people are arrested and convicted "African Americans are incarcerated at more than 5 times the rate of whites." - facts from the naacp............that's america....................

every sunday swear to god

I look around at the white people NO HATE

and I think "oh that one hates me" 

"that one hates me" 

"that one hates me" 

----------- I have no proof my only proof of this is jails chalked full of black and other ethnic people's way more then white people - THAT'S MY PROOF

FOR ME THAT'S ENOUGH FOR MY MIND TO GO ON A WHOLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE TRIP

I worry

I worry in this country

cause there ain't riots that people are being deported to hell prison

https://apnews.com/article/el-salvador-trump-tren-de-aragua-venezuela-dde4259e5dcd502101b7b8fbd3c03659

brian says there were some peaceful protests

but I believe the hell them 200 prisoners were actually "deported to" - it's not ok

they in usa 

their safety going back to their "home country" should matter!

it should matter!

Them 200 people's went to hellllllllllllllllllllllll 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

according to brian I ain't the only one concerned but it feels like it

feels like I'm the only one concerned about a lot of horribleness happening to people of color in the united states of america safe to say right now as I type this

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do 

unto others

as you'd 

have done 

unto you

......................................Matthew 7:12 "Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets." It's not a hard verse or concept to read and/or understand. Maybe Revelation 13:10 "He that leadeth into captivity shall go into captivity: he that killeth with the sword must be killed with the sword. Here is the patience and the faith of the saints." is hard to understand if all people that are white have kindergarden reading levels.

I don't get america 

and I'm sceptical of this country

even if that 67% didn't know how to read

let's pretend nobody knows how to read in usa

well that 67% being christian is either going to church or listening to christian radio that kind of goes with the idea of "being christian"....................the idea that your going to listen to sermons 
1 Corinthians 1:21 "For after that in the wisdom of God the world by wisdom knew not God, it pleased God by the foolishness of preaching to save them that believe." It isn't woven into christianity to go to church necessarily..........but it is a part of christianity of being christian to listen to sermons if that's only online.........so even if you didn't know how to read you'd have to hear the verses about doing unto others as you'd have done unto you I'm talking about cops, judges, president of the united states of america (that seems ok with the killing of gaza people's - HE SEEMS OK WITH IT)............THEY ALL HEAR SERMONS

THEY ALL HEAR SERMONS

Matthew 7:12 "Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets."

beside myself 99% of the time

I badly want to start a revolution

but I'm only a girl

I'm only 1 girl

Don't chop my head off, I'm going with lucifer when he gets here, but I have brains man and I think. What if white people that like did slavery, what if they feel they have to treat native american's and black people badly cause they know they only have a little bit of time left to be mean to people of color???????? Revelation 13:10 "He that leadeth into captivity shall go into captivity: he that killeth with the sword must be killed with the sword. Here is the patience and the faith of the saints." White people NO HATE - did slavery, and they gave us native american's blankets with small pox etc.....................and then REVELATIONS 13:10 EXIST TO..........AND THEY CAN READ, THEY PRY CAN READ REVELATIONS 13:10.......................I THINK honest I ain't just trying to be a "butt" tonight.................I think all white people should become mormons maybe the mormon underwear would help them????????????? NO HATE MY BRAINS THINK.............

 I care about the people of gaza dieing, racism NEEDS TO END IT'S HORRIBLE ETHNIC CLEANSING IS TERRIBLE....................

https://www.cnn.com/2025/03/31/middleeast/aid-workers-found-gaza-mass-grave-intl-hnk/index.html

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Don't chop my head off, I'm going with lucifer when he gets here, but I have brains man and I think. What if white people that like did slavery, what if they feel they have to treat native american's and black people badly cause they know they only have a little bit of time left to be mean to people of color???????? Revelation 13:10 "He that leadeth into captivity shall go into captivity: he that killeth with the sword must be killed with the sword. Here is the patience and the faith of the saints." White people NO HATE - did slavery, and they gave us native american's blankets with small pox etc.....................and then REVELATIONS 13:10 EXIST TO..........AND THEY CAN READ, THEY PRY CAN READ REVELATIONS 13:10.......................I THINK honest I ain't just trying to be a "butt" tonight.................I think all white people should become mormons maybe the mormon underwear would help them????????????? NO HATE MY BRAINS THINK....................

somedays I can't stop my brains the gears get going!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=itf90cHsaqI

if you like have a problem being able to read...................

like leading to captivity that's slavery and/or and/or circumstances of maybe not paying black people enough money so they live in slums and then they feel the need to do crime and then they go to jail (you know if that's really happening out there???????????)

some naacp facts.............that's a credible source............

https://naacp.org/resources/criminal-justice-fact-sheet

""""

• 65% of Black adults have felt targeted because of their race. Similarly, approximately 35% of Latino and Asian adults have felt targeted because of race."""" - quote from the naacp

feel like I need a "rage against the machine" song................

1 Corinthians 12:13 "For by one Spirit are we all baptized into one body, whether we be Jews or Gentiles, whether we be bond or free; and have been all made to drink into one Spirit."

love your white neighbor though

ya

do that

I can't help that I am able to read and my brains the gears turn!!!!!!!!!!!!

I very much believe the LGBTQ can indeed be saved anybody can SALVATION IS FOR EVERYONE THAT COMES TO JESUS. everyone. I hear pastors sometimes talk about "cheap grace" "sloppy agape also worded as" I don't think it is cheap ----------- the body of christ most of it ISN'T FORNICATING..............that ain't cheap grace offering up your body Romans 12:1 "I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service." THAT ISN'T CHEAP GRACE IT'S EXPENSIVE, BUT IT'S MORE EXPENSIVE TO LOSE YOUR SOUL VIA GAINING THE WORLD UM FORNICATING FOR INSTANCE.....................

 Pic from inside the amazon sphere's...............................cool place!!!!!!!!....................

I very much believe the LGBTQ can indeed be saved anybody can SALVATION IS FOR EVERYONE THAT COMES TO JESUS. everyone. I hear pastors sometimes talk about "cheap grace" "sloppy agape also worded as" I don't think it is cheap ----------- the body of christ most of it ISN'T FORNICATING..............that ain't cheap grace offering up your body Romans 12:1 "I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that ye present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable unto God, which is your reasonable service." THAT ISN'T CHEAP GRACE IT'S EXPENSIVE, BUT IT'S MORE EXPENSIVE TO LOSE YOUR SOUL VIA GAINING THE WORLD UM FORNICATING FOR INSTANCE.....................

Off on a sidenote.................

today a brother was handing plates out

and brian wasn't paying attention so I was about to grab his plate and hand it to him

the guy moves back the plate, and then shoves it at brian til he noticed and took it

then he jokes he isn't going to give me a plate

I reply "I don't care"

------------- when I replied "I don't care" I felt the satanic whatever within me, jesus dwelling in me as well, but this cold something...................Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold."

I've gone radically satanic and I just don't care anymore, where I once cared.

The body of christ I understand you all gotta knit pick every last thing. Every last thing "for jesus" hate people hate em pry for your lord cause they ain't perfect like you. 

  I understand that fully...................I just don't care anymore. You care I get that - not me.

  update: brian says this well over the age of 60 likely 70's or near to, brother was shoving plates at everyone and cracking bad jokes the whole time, that he is just "like that"

  ------------------ maybe my dad swatted salvation right out of my soul cause my butts been spanked so bad so much by my dad I'd only act like that if I was very drunk yep that's it. 

  maybe he's became as a little child???????????? Matthew 19:14 "But Jesus said, Suffer little children, and forbid them not, to come unto me: for of such is the kingdom of heaven." I don't know about church life anymore??????????????????????? plates being shoved at me???????????????????????????? This is ruff.  

  I don't get "white people humour" I don't get the funny of shoving plates at people?????????????? I know you white people think that's HILARIOUS. But me as a indigenous person I don't get it???????????? I don't get that humour. 

  laugh on................

bible segment I feel is appicable to what I'm talking about about being "chosen" in the video above..............many called but few are chosen the bible says...............

many aren't chosen cause THEY TO BUISY.................

Matthew 22:1-13 "And Jesus answered and spake unto them again by parables, and said, The kingdom of heaven is like unto a certain king, which made a marriage for his son, And sent forth his servants to call them that were bidden to the wedding: and they would not come. Again, he sent forth other servants, saying, Tell them which are bidden, Behold, I have prepared my dinner: my oxen and my fatlings are killed, and all things are ready: come unto the marriage. But they made light of it, and went their ways, one to his farm, another to his merchandise: And the remnant took his servants, and entreated them spitefully, and slew them. But when the king heard thereof, he was wroth: and he sent forth his armies, and destroyed those murderers, and burned up their city. Then saith he to his servants, The wedding is ready, but they which were bidden were not worthy. Go ye therefore into the highways, and as many as ye shall find, bid to the marriage. So those servants went out into the highways, and gathered together all as many as they found, both bad and good: and the wedding was furnished with guests. And when the king came in to see the guests, he saw there a man which had not on a wedding garment: And he saith unto him, Friend, how camest thou in hither not having a wedding garment? And he was speechless. Then said the king to the servants, Bind him hand and foot, and take him away, and cast him into outer darkness, there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth."

Let me tell you - I'm like Kenrick Lamar "The type of s--- I'm on you wouldn't understand". Most people they live in box houses ("sheri what you about to "go off on you live in a box house to fool") and their lives ARE BOXED IN TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!) """"""""sheri we're free, we like the apostolic christian church of america most of us but we free"""""""""" we can't wear makeup, go to a bar, wear a mini skirt WE FREE..............................LIKE KATY PERRY I SEE YOU........................see you...............................you see me, ok, um prepared to shocked I SEE YOU TO MAN - NO HATE THOUGH...............just know the type of s--t I'm on you wouldn't understand......................

 Let me tell you - I'm like Kenrick Lamar "The type of s--- I'm on you wouldn't understand". Most people they live in box houses ("sheri what you about to "go off on you live in a box house to fool") and their lives ARE BOXED IN TO!!!!!!!!!!!!!) """"""""sheri we're free, we like the apostolic christian church of america most of us but we free"""""""""" we can't wear makeup, go to a bar, wear a mini skirt WE FREE..............................LIKE KATY PERRY I SEE YOU........................see you...............................you see me, ok, um prepared to shocked I SEE YOU TO MAN - NO HATE THOUGH...............just know the type of s--t I'm on you wouldn't understand......................

John 8:36

If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.

that's why I'm goin back to 100% crunkedness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAUSE I BELIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEVE JOHN 8:36 I BELIEVE

DON'T NEED YOUR BOXES

SWEAR I LIKES DOME HOMES AND A-FRAME HOMES THE BEST MAN

▼▽ 

but also I get's you all 

you gotta "lay low" 

be quiet

not let anybody hear from you or see you - "for meekness" sake cause your most you so sinless and awesome 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀 you spy me ducks in "duck, duck, goose"..............

I SPY YOU DUCKS I THE GOOSE DO

NO HATE

💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

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but do not be worthless trash like me
only suffer always for jesus
in misery so that you'll win more in heaven...........that's what the bible says................
2 Corinthians 1:5 "For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ."

I can only handle so much misery, it's enough that I'm in a "sexless marriage" that is so ruff when your 50. 

that was ruff at 47, 48, 49

by 50

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh that's ruff

don't you worry

don't you worry

I'm suffering

but also 

I'm chill being the last in the body of christ

greatness is overrated

I sat few sundays at the apostolic christian church of americ and they named off people that died several sundays......................LIKE PEOPLE WHO'S NAMES I HADN'T HEARD BASICALLY ALL THEM...................they dead, nobody knows who they is

was the sinless - probably

did they sufffffffffffffffffer their whole lives never even buying snickers candy bars for themselves cause they wouldn't want to be garbage sinning apostlic christian church of america members - VERY HIGHLY LIKELY

👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

------------ peekaboo

 

A phrase I've ended up living by that I heard a guy say watching me exercise a ton one day on a treadmill he said "Get it girl". Many of us give up, we give up our marriages, we give up on our faith maybe, give up trying to get in mega good shape maybe?????? Sometimes you have no choice, to quit a job, or marriage, etc.. BUT OFTEN WE CAN CHOOSE TO NOT GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!! Course after I type this I'm taking a nap, I'm tired...................

Update 4/4/2025 this the most popular post right now so ep it is what it is.................1st day of "Insanity workout" I don't know if it is my arthritis, or that I spent the past 2 days walking walking walking, but workout done near killed me, it was so hard. I don't know what to do with arthritis anymore??????????????? I can't put more copper bracelets on my arms only so much room for bracelets................

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Update 4/3/2025 my updates are all out of order, cause nobody is going to my "featured blog posts" hardly and this is the post popular right now. I've battled hand arthritis for days now, it was so bad last night I woke up in the middle of the night and piled on a bunch of copper and brass bracelets well now the pain is near gone!!!!!!!!!!!! So this is my look now...................

I'm not into my wrists turning green that's why I don't often wear the copper bracelets but I hate being in pain more!

 A phrase I've ended up living by that I heard a guy say watching me exercise a ton one day on a treadmill he said "Get it girl". Many of us give up, we give up our marriages, we give up on our faith maybe, give up trying to get in mega good shape maybe?????? Sometimes you have no choice, to quit a job, or marriage, etc.. BUT OFTEN WE CAN CHOOSE TO NOT GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!! Course after I type this I'm taking a nap, I'm tired...................

Acts 2:20-22  "The sun shall be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before the great and notable day of the Lord come: And it shall come to pass, that whosoever shall call on the name of the Lord shall be saved." FACTS prayer has to be pretty effective by now, cause we've had wait I check how many "blood moons"

look at all those blood moons each year 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 that's so hopeful for us all!!!!!!!!! Praying is so easy to do, I recommend praying each day, that's POWERFUL!!!!!!!!!

facts most of you pry all of you are in the depths of tribulation right now.............

Acts 14:22 "Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God."

even if you do everything right

you could go bald

loose your hair

there's emf's, air pollution

(ps............................bought recently a large hematite, I'm starting to believe hematite blocks the emf's really well..................I do feel better wearing this giant pendant)

we are bombarded in usa with inflation - and stores closing, and misery

.......................still the words in my head somewhere "get it girl" 

started taking another "supplement" to loose weight

it be workin

also injesting olive oil everyday

and mct oil

saunaingggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg

workin outttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

get it

don't be sad

get glaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad

tootles

I want it on record, clearly me stating I believe obese ladies that maybe get married skinny have a few kids put on a few extra lbs AS DOES HAPPEN IT'S NATURE...............should "score" - I ain't, I in a sexless marriage and I know TWO other ladies obese also not scoring (married ladies) their size shouldn't matter these guys married them. But bible says give thanks for all things and I am thankful for being in a sexless marriage cause now my soul is satans and I am very thankful for that 😁👍......................................

 Update 4/1/2025 since how this is currently the most popular post (not much traffic to my blog right now people done "witch hunting me" for now looks to be - for jesus they hate me and witch hunt me of course).....................A ambulance or several ambulances I don't know I didn't read the whole article, but ambulances destroyed, and the medics shot sounds like one by one (which often is considered "cold blood" style killing...........................

but according to israel they were driving suspiciously................

this just me but maybe they were driving "suspiciously" cause their entire towns are in ruins, children dieing, wounded, they pry don't feel safe around israel soldiers CAN'T BLAME THEM CAN'T BLAME THEM..............................

https://www.aljazeera.com/features/2025/4/1/rescue-workers-israel-killed-found-in-mass-grave-in-gaza-what-to-know

I want it on record, clearly me stating I believe obese ladies that maybe get married skinny have a few kids put on a few extra lbs AS DOES HAPPEN IT'S NATURE...............should "score" - I ain't, I in a sexless marriage and I know TWO other ladies obese also not scoring (married ladies) their size shouldn't matter these guys married them. But bible says give thanks for all things and I am thankful for being in a sexless marriage cause now my soul is satans and I am very thankful for that 😁👍......................................

that's what I really believe on the official record.............

shame for that guy pictured above in brown shirt

shame his head to high up

patriarchy has gone to far

1 Corinthians 7:5 "So don't refuse sex to each other, unless you agree not to have sex for a little while, in order to spend time in prayer. Then Satan won't be able to tempt you because of your lack of self-control."

ep the devil took my soul

and I'm glad about it

thank you brian

me from a few days ago..................

ya I know how to get the camera angle right

don't hate me

I'm a real red hot blooded american!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm a "real one"......................

such a holy nation usa 

I don't think anybody doing anything late at night cept the people doing porns to earn 💰💰💰💰💰💰💰💰

them ones score

rest of us............................pry not

especially if we have any fat on our bodies it shouldn't be like that though but people here they only "attracted" to people that look like eugenia cooney.............

she's the hottest on earth

yep

rest of us

less we work in the porn industry no action no wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy if you have any fat on your body in usa holy saint land - no lucky for you

better get a eating disorder real good or else

or else

not that it's a bad thing my not scoring ever hardly besides the 1 time a month or every 2 months cause it's more like 1 time every two months when the mood finally hits brian ------------- he swashes me

so many times I couldn't breath

and can't breath 

and I pretend I'm able to breath 

but I'm not really breathing or able to breath really much hiding basically gasps for air while trying to pretend I'm enjoying things.

let your yes be yes the bible says............

but most guys it very severelly much looks to be while they are proud heads held high THE GREATEST EVER in patriarchy all men are awesome duh america if you gain a few to many pounds no more late night funs for you or hardly you must payyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy now..............

Matthew 5:37"But let your communication be, Yea, yea; Nay, nay: for whatsoever is more than these cometh of evil."
James 5:12 "But above all things, my brethren, swear not, neither by heaven, neither by the earth, neither by any other oath: but let your yea be yea; and your nay, nay; lest ye fall into condemnation."

cause that yes on your wedding day wasn't really a yes

it had 

hidden "only ifs" 

only if

you weigh 

like hardly no lbs because when I got married was when I had went a good 3-4 months I was only able to afford $20 a month for groceries so I basically wasn't eating food.........................it got bad fast......................the "work slow down" in the summer at the newspaper.................to where I was stalking the lunch room for when they putted out donuts for employee's etc. 

eating work donuts to stay alive I was

well when you can finally eat food YOU WANT TO EAT FOOD

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Confession (don't know if I've confessed this yet - lost track) I eat like a 300+ lb person most days..........I have for a long time. That's part the reason I love bodybuilding. I believe it's my god given destiny to eat more food then less cause Jesus came that I might have "life more abundantly" --------- meanwhile most christians aren't bodybuilders and you all is eating like BIRDS!!!!!!!!! WHAT YA DOING?????????? John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." Your supposed to watch actual birds eating like birds and think to yourself "thank god I'm not a bird"...........................

Origami I'm folding right now 😁 (making my own star origami paper from Joss money)...................

Confession (don't know if I've confessed this yet - lost track) I eat like a 300+ lb person most days..........I have for a long time. That's part the reason I love bodybuilding. I believe it's my god given destiny to eat more food then less cause Jesus came that I might have "life more abundantly" --------- meanwhile most christians aren't bodybuilders and you all is eating like BIRDS!!!!!!!!! WHAT YA DOING?????????? John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." Your supposed to watch actual birds eating like birds and think to yourself "thank god I'm not a bird"...........................

yes gluttony is a sin

that I have escaped

oh yaaaaaaaaaaa

💪💪💪💪💪

all things are possible for "he who believeth"

the bible is telling us the truth!!!!!!!!!!!!

(though there are things out there that are clean wrong and will never be "right" and should never be right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Mark 9:23 "Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth."

  I suspect in people's minds I've bungled christianity...........totally messed up following Jesus..........that to most I am "the shame" of the body of christ. 

  but while most think about "shrinking" 

and loosing

their lives

their personalities EVERYTHING for jesus aka (what christians are supposed to do according to the bible)......................

John 3:30 "He must increase, but I must decrease."

John 12:25 "He that loveth his life shall lose it; and he that hateth his life in this world shall keep it unto life eternal."

  And maybe your right, maybe I am the "shame" of the body of christ, a complete disappointment. 

but I always think about how can I gain

how can I win???????? 

that's how my mind works, 

it don't "work" by thinking on "how can I lose and my life stink more" THAT AIN'T HOW MY MIND WORKS - IT EVIDENTALLY IS HOW YOUR MIND WORKS HOW'S BEING MISERABLE FOR JESUS GOING FOR YOU?????????????????????

I'm potentially upseting Lucifer as well right now

oh he here's my "thoughts" on various people's "depraved less then lives" how I stew in my mind over how 

depraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaved

certain people's lives are

people I do love

but 

I understand how annoying it must be to lucifer

to hear 

my mind

go on and onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn and on stewing over how depraved certain people's lives are

I just can't believe it

I just can't belive

a. their lives are that depraved in the 1st place

b. why don't some them make a "only fans" earn money why stay poor POOR AIN'T "LIFE MORE ABUNDANTLY"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." 

I do believe I have driven lucifer and his men out of their minds all them

just being myself..................

swear these e-mails are via a portal from the other side that lucifer has been using this app to e-mail me swear it.....................

https://www.tut.com/

sure

there are times

when "less is more" 

but also I'd content there are times when "more is more"

"cough your a absolute devil sheri" 

hey least I ain't acting no "part" right now not this blog post

some blog posts might be more me putting up the "betty crocker front" 

but 2nd husband has no libido like none MY BETTY CROCKER HAS DIEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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Recently aka yesterday I read the bit of the bible about Ananias, with Sapphira, the two that were killed by god because they didn't give all the money from the land they sold to god they secretly held back a bit for themselves - that bit of the bible has disturbed me profoundly my whole life. But I think I finally "get it" NONE OF US WOULD SELL OUR LAND AND GIVE GOD EVERYTHING (except the sinless members of the apostolic christian church of america cause their ladies don't ever feel the need or battle or nothing to wear jewelry or makeup EVER THEY ARE SO SINLESS AND FLAWLESS the ones I once knew at silverton and oregon city when it was open aposotlic christian church of america.........john wiegand said I was "the worst" ever and could NEVER become a member of the apostolic christian church of america CAUSE THOSE PEOPLE DON'T EVEN HAVE SIN INSIDE OF THEM!!!!!!!!!! THEY FLAWLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Their women literally "no problem" walk around all the time long skirts, no makeup, no jewelry ----- no battle for them ladies EVIDENTALLY CAUSE I'M THE WORST EVER ACCORDING TO JOHN WIEGAND --------- meanwhile I'm over here somedays walking around like a christmas tree after one to many drinks of vodka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) --------- I'd want to live though you'd think in a world full of only sinless apostolic christian church of america members I'd want god to smite me dead (but noooooooooo I would need to become the devil in that event and get the apostolic christian church of america "to do my bidding" FOR MY PLEASURE OF COURSE - DUH) ------- anyways god wants to show us all mercy that's the "meaning"....................

Recently aka yesterday I read the bit of the bible about Ananias, with Sapphira, the two that were killed by god because they didn't give all the money from the land they sold to god they secretly held back a bit for themselves - that bit of the bible has disturbed me profoundly my whole life. But I think I finally "get it" NONE OF US WOULD SELL OUR LAND AND GIVE GOD EVERYTHING (except the sinless members of the apostolic christian church of america cause their ladies don't ever feel the need or battle or nothing to wear jewelry or makeup EVER THEY ARE SO SINLESS AND FLAWLESS the ones I once knew at silverton and oregon city when it was open aposotlic christian church of america.........john wiegand said I was "the worst" ever and could NEVER become a member of the apostolic christian church of america CAUSE THOSE PEOPLE DON'T EVEN HAVE SIN INSIDE OF THEM!!!!!!!!!! THEY FLAWLESS!!!!!!!!!!!!! Their women literally "no problem" walk around all the time long skirts, no makeup, no jewelry ----- no battle for them ladies EVIDENTALLY CAUSE I'M THE WORST EVER ACCORDING TO JOHN WIEGAND --------- meanwhile I'm over here somedays walking around like a christmas tree after one to many drinks of vodka!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) --------- I'd want to live though you'd think in a world full of only sinless apostolic christian church of america members I'd want god to smite me dead (but noooooooooo I would need to become the devil in that event and get the apostolic christian church of america "to do my bidding" FOR MY PLEASURE OF COURSE - DUH) ------- anyways god wants to show us all mercy that's the "meaning".......................

(sheri off that title alone, heaven help us all """"""your in luck god is merciful""""""" 😁💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 the church bells at the methodist church are going to ring again next time you go to church and get out of the car) - hahahahahhahahah 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

Though sounds like the apostolic christian church of america 

at least some of them 

have gotten "lax"............

I the devil (at least 50% lucifer at least so though you reading this at least 50% have finally "gotten to" them ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........................................but only a little bit have I finally "gotten to them" NOT NEARLY AS MUCH AS MY PLEASURE WOULD NEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEED.........................................................

Acts 5:1-11 "But a certain man named Ananias, with Sapphira his wife, sold a possession, And kept back part of the price, his wife also being privy to it, and brought a certain part, and laid it at the apostles' feet. But Peter said, Ananias, why hath Satan filled thine heart to lie to the Holy Ghost, and to keep back part of the price of the land? Whiles it remained, was it not thine own? and after it was sold, was it not in thine own power? why hast thou conceived this thing in thine heart? thou hast not lied unto men, but unto God. And Ananias hearing these words fell down, and gave up the ghost: and great fear came on all them that heard these things." - then the wife also showed up to church and also died. 

Matthew 9:13

But go ye and learn what that meaneth, I will have mercy, and not sacrifice: for I am not come to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance. - THAT'S WHY!!!!!!!!! Matthew 9:13 is why!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if we own anything, and didn't sell it and put it at the apostles feet the wages of sin still technically is DEATH

Romans 6:23

For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.

OFF TO EAT BREAKFAST NOW

TOOTLES

song I'm listening to on repeat right now...............

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"Social anxiety" is a prison, it is a prison I've been trapped in for sometime now. I am about to go to a social gathering...............I HAVE ANXIETY ABOUT IT. (still going). Isaiah 61:1-3 "The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;" I'm going to wear the most basic clothing though and am hoping to blend severelly in and that nobody will want to talk to me......................

"Social anxiety" is a prison, it is a prison I've been trapped in for sometime now. I am about to go to a social gathering...............I HAVE ANXIETY ABOUT IT. (still going). Isaiah 61:1-3 "The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me; because the Lord hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound;" I'm going to wear the most basic clothing though and am hoping to blend severelly in and that nobody will want to talk to me......................

More proof that lucifer e-mails me via a portal at 

https://www.tut.com/

let's pretend that the guy running that site personalizes the "ps" on every e-mail he sends out - let's pretend

you all sure he's been to my blog and knows I'm a goth that's the only way he'd know

only way he'd know

and that'd mean he's stalking the lives of all his subscribers

That I'm telling the truth on my blog in my estimation is far more easier to believe, then the idea that mike dooley is fervently stalking the lives of over 1 million people!!!!!!!!!!!!

 I might of "put myself in jail" to

after being attacked so much

went into "ultra hermit mode" 

GOTTA GET OUT

OPEN THE CELL DOOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHY

WHY

CAUSE I NEEDS TO GET SKINNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

warning do not view this music video with your eyeballs - it's not "amish"................................good diddy though.....................

THESE EXTRA LBS AREN'T JUST EXTRA LBS ANYMORE

they been weighing on my confidence (the extra weight is a jail cell of itself could be the real prison I've been in lately????????)

but 

when I dragon boated I had confidence and I was chubby back then

????????

guess the extra weight finally "got to me"

got to me reallllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll baddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

you in a jail???????????????

jesus came that you might have life "more abundantly"

John 10:10

The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly.

lucifer's right in the e-mail above he sent today via tut.com I don't want a divorce from him EVER

love both my husbands 

but lucifer he's "the next level" he treats me like a queeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen - I like it 😁

lucifer is the type to spend lots of money on his lady

to take her on exotic vacations on "whims"

he's one of "them type of guys"

tootles

(I understand why pry 90% of the worlds guys ain't like that - to many bills, they work to many hours, to many kids to much obligations blah blah blah -------------- so what happens their ladies get lost under the paperwork of life)

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I often worry that I'll never be blessed, that I'll stay hated and poor FOR GOOD. I've been attacked on my blog accused of wanting to go with lucifer once he gets here - because I want to be rich etc. But I'm hated, and Lucifer is right now hated, and people are stingy it do look to be yesterday on tik tok I watched a video of a young tik toker saying us few christians that are still going to church are idiots because Jesus overturned the money changer tables THEY DON'T WANT TO GIVE MONEY TO CHURCH OR ANYBODY IT DON'T LOOK TO BE!!!!!!!!!!!! Psalm 23:5 "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over." Regardless of how life will be for me in the future - I'm going with Lucifer, god told me to go with lucifer once he get's here and that things will be much better for me then................I done heard, and experienced REAL MERCY PURSUING ME AND GOODNESS I'm convinced God is right............................

My latest decor "craze" is pampas grass which might be boring to some?????????? But you can order pretty large bunches of pampas grass on amazon for like $10 then make little bouquets of pampas to put around your house -it's nice...................I big time recommend pampass grass A+++ and after it fluffs up you can spray it with hairspray they say (and I recogn that'd make it so "allergins" couldn't go in the air much if any, for those that are allergic to earth).......................

pic from the Amazon Domes - they are cool the amazon domes are................................. 

I often worry that I'll never be blessed, that I'll stay hated and poor FOR GOOD. I've been attacked on my blog accused of wanting to go with lucifer once he gets here - because I want to be rich etc. But I'm hated, and Lucifer is right now hated, and people are stingy it do look to be yesterday on tik tok I watched a video of a young tik toker saying us few christians that are still going to church are idiots because Jesus overturned the money changer tables THEY DON'T WANT TO GIVE MONEY TO CHURCH OR ANYBODY IT DON'T LOOK TO BE!!!!!!!!!!!! Psalm 23:5 "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over." Regardless of how life will be for me in the future - I'm going with Lucifer, god told me to go with lucifer once he get's here and that things will be much better for me then................I done heard, and experienced REAL MERCY PURSUING ME AND GOODNESS I'm convinced God is right............................

  I do not believe I am often receiving the e-mails the "masses" are getting on https://www.tut.com/ That Lucifer has been using this site as a portal and e-mailing me for years........................

If only via satan, lucifer, the devil Goodness, and mercy BOTH have been actively pursuing me FOR YEARS NOW! Yesterday and some of the day before as I recall I was very worried VERY WORRIED, that me and lucifer would stay poor and hated. And I told lucifer I going with him even if we are poor and hated for good....................I want to help those in hell for all of eternity, people with bad luck, it's a place with people with bad luck Ecclesiastes 9:11 "I returned, and saw under the sun, that the race is not to the swift, nor the battle to the strong, neither yet bread to the wise, nor yet riches to men of understanding, nor yet favour to men of skill; but time and chance happeneth to them all." - They didn't have brothers and sisters inviting them over to their house for bible study time, they didn't have the methodist church bell ring as soon as they got out of their car (for example). Hell is going to be full of people that had VERY BAD LUCK ON EARTH. 

Hell will have some evil people - sure

BUT MOSTLY PROBABLY PEOPLE WITH "BAD LUCK" WILL BE THERE.

Psalm 23:4-6 "Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever."

Even though things aren't perfect for me right now................I'm choosing to believe

I believe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

off topic..........................................

I'm going to be aging severelly backwards soon likely - SEVERELLY

cause yesterday at a mall I went in a lavelier store (it's to expensive don't do it) - my interest in skin care made me feet walk into the store I swear it

I didn't buy anything though - naw

but the guy rubbing a handcream sample on my hand asked me how old I am I said guess

HE SAID 55

I CAN'T HAVE THAT

And all you fellow generation x'ers that also don't look your age cause going by tik tok basically 0% of generation xers look their age

I'm leaving you in the dust

your going to be golden girls soon......................

not me

no I ain't drinking blood or anything else coming from children's bodies

I'm back to my telomere lengthening schenangians

cause the only way that I know of to age in reverse, and/or just not age

is having loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong telomere's

and I figured out how to make them longer!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

safely this time

I've gotten smarter and better at not aging. 

now

their are also free radicals in the air hit your skin and age you

.........................prepare to cringe...............................

I literally believe on highly polluted days in particular.................wearing vaseline on my face to protect my skin from free radicals ---------- that's my only secret I give out today

enjoy becoming "golden girls" very old wrinkly looking soon generation x

I will be aging meanwhile IN REVERSE

TOOTLES

On the internet, many people these days appear to believe God is "the devil" that's tragic (I love the devil and god/jesus - I am aware of how the devil is "viewed). Because God is love, God is GOOD, and he is a rewarder of those who "diligently seek Him" Hebrews 11:6 "But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him." Don't miss your being blessed by God a slew and a total life turn around, because your so upset God ain't answered your prayers yet...............KEEP PRAYING........................

 My 1st ever that I know of, squeegee painting. I love it! I'm doing more 😁............

On the internet, many people these days appear to believe God is "the devil" that's tragic (I love the devil and god/jesus - I am aware of how the devil is "viewed). Because God is love, God is GOOD, and he is a rewarder of those who "diligently seek Him" Hebrews 11:6 "But without faith it is impossible to please him: for he that cometh to God must believe that he is, and that he is a rewarder of them that diligently seek him." Don't miss your being blessed by God a slew and a total life turn around, because your so upset God ain't answered your prayers yet...............KEEP PRAYING........................

look at me...................

ya lets take a look at me...................

I'm a mess..............I am a messssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.......................yet look at the traffic to my blog...........and if your like me and thinkin "ah but those people going to sheri's blog have to mostly hate her". I'm just letting you know, near every sunday the bell tolls as I get out of the car at the methodist church - GOD IS DOING SOMETHING IN MY LIFE. (even if the bells stopped ringing every time I get out of my car - I still believe god is doing something in my life)

I promise you, to god you have value AND I ALSO TO GOD HAVE VALUE..............Luke 12:7 "But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows."

lately

I feel no joke

I am serious

a little lead by the holy spirit to wear crystals not all the time - but sometimes - that's part of my "life's mission" is the defend the right of the witches to live, to be able to go to church to if they want to...........same with the LGBTQ.

I LITERALLY BELIEVE THAT.............................

..........................being myself God is able to use me just how I am........................

but I pry would be better off not wearing crystals so often and I try not to.............sometimes I am a lot of a goth......................

it's about your heart

everything is about your heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Proverbs 4:23 "Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life." - guard your heart the bible says (in a different translation of the bible pretty 100% the wording is "guard your heart")

the crystals ain't necessarily a problem

they only a problem if you turning them into some idol (using them to "help" you instead of god ------- I'm saying quitting praying). 

to me

a crystal is no different then a vitamin...............the things have piezoelectric currents in them the quartz do, and many crystals also protect from 5g I believe they have healing capabilites (very potentially)

https://www.tuorgonita.com/en/blog/piezoelectric-crystals-health-benefits-applications-and-possible-future-uses

it's still "woo woo science" so either you believe in the healing capacity of quartz or you don't - I'M A BELIEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

There's been so many days, my arthritis was bad, I put on quartz crystal.........and I felt better. Now whether that's "placibo" or not??????????? 

my spine arthritis got so bad at one point I was taking ice baths - they were most always unenjoyable for me.............I did that for months

so any relief I feel/experience I take note of that!

I'm getting off track though

you have value

god is love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2 Peter 3:9

The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.

I give my life to Jesus.

And yes I still love lucifer a ton, and am going with him when he get's here.

I am a goth

I am happy walking around cemeteries, watching crows love watching crows

the goth lifestyle gives me great joy

and sam and colbies last you tube video was pretty good!!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nk4cQ0-IO1g

Have a great day!

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bonus content...................................

this is me being a goth a lot though........................

confession............................................

Everytime I'm at church and go to the eat snacks/coffee time after church

all that's going through my goth mind while visiting with other christians is "dang they are about to die pry" Revelation 2:10 "Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast some of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life." But I've decided maybe my church in particular like the very church I go to, the regulars there will be "safe" 

  I think I get "to grim" in my "thought process" but the bible surely helped my "grim thought process get real grim".............................Revelation 6:11 "And white robes were given unto every one of them; and it was said unto them, that they should rest yet for a little season, until their fellowservants also and their brethren, that should be killed as they were, should be fulfilled."

  If like the whole church me and brian go to these days die - that'll be sad - some cool people there.

but when we go to 

another church

......................

the mega church

when that happens cause I or brian didn't wake up early enough in the morning to go to the united methodist church we go to 

sometimes

a little bit 

I get real 

"dark" 

real keeper of the crypt like

and I look at some the more "goody two shoes" style christians

and I few times

just a few times

I got some dark goth keeper of the crypt glee over the idea that - yep that ones about to die soon.

JESUS CAME TO SAVE THE SICK.......................

Mark 2:17

When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance.

ya I know lucifer reads my blog posts, has heard all this - yep. 

yep. 

I'm literally not worried. Because I love lucifer. 

love does win at least sometimes (sometimes it don't win cause people that god loves think some of them that God hates them when He don't)

god loves you, and he'd like to win in your life!

note the hopefulness of the lyric in this song below "everyone dances now everyone lives"...................it's towards the end of the song this lyric is..................

my dad always said "where there's a will there's a way"

there's gotta be a way for more christians to live besides me..........the bible got me in a "grimmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm headspace" but I've copped, I've copped with Revelation 6:11 pretty well because I am a goth, and the rest of the body of christ sounds like their heads being eventually chopped off - it'll go quick. It's not a long sad death, chop. 

have a great day!