The bible says in the last days there will be a falling away, that iniquity will abound my advice stick it out at your church (less it's a total cult, that isn't biblical) cause there'll be a few people pry worth sticking around for......................

The bible says in the last days there will be a falling away, that iniquity will abound my advice stick it out at your church (less it's a total cult, that isn't biblical) cause there'll be a few people pry worth sticking around for.
   A few weeks ago the pastor at the baptist church my family attends, said bad days will happen. (this is a blog post I had as a draft and have decided, it's actually a really good post)
  And he said something that I really believe a lot, he said if a church is low on the people literally at it.........that instead of bemoaning your like life or whatever, to instead be happy, be thankful for the people actually at your church! AMEN!
   There's still good people like everywhere. Somedays I've battled nearly having my entire thoughts right shaded jet black, over things a few people very few have said to me.....................and they ain't allllllllllllll there is out there.
  I have been told that everyone likes me.............and I admit I do believe I am a bit liked in "a way" a whole lot, by maybe the entire planet. But I am not often in people's queue besides you know going to my blog WHICH IS PLENTY, THAT'S GOOD! It's often just a matter of people are buisy..............
all of us
pry have a lot of people that wish they had time to be in our lives (and vice versa)
  God wants you to pray and go to church if you can and get up in HIS QUEUE!!!!!!!!!!!! 
#queueing it up
  Admitedly in the past I've gotten so worked up about churches and people not paying attention to me, or the attention I thought they should pay to me................due to pride. ONCE YOU LOOSE THAT PRIDE --- IT IS FANTASTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Romans 12:5 "So we, being many, are one body in Christ, and every one members one of another."  I also very much believe in the common family that is mankind these days.
  What does all this mean...........it means even when you don't feel valuable, you pry are, safe to say..................not only by god..............pretty safe to say by other people as well. Nobody should commit suicide basically - somebodies gonna miss you!

It's ok to just be a part of things

I no longer feel that I need to be "the greatest ever"

I was a long distance runner for years in arizona, and was actually pretty famous back then, a few times interviewed by news stations at the end of races, it got to be a common enough occurance that towards the end of a race, I was making sure my ponytail was perfect (ahhhhhhhh the things I have admitted to on my blog) 

So I've always been severely competitive

a perfectionist like Micheal Jackson 👄

but it's great to just be here

none of us are always going to "win" in life --- probably not

Matthew 24:13 "But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved." Today's sermon at church was super helpful for me, I got a lot out of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Have a great week!

LOVE

ps though I happen to be "winning" in life right now though. But not just do to my earning around $30-40 a hour (depends on how fast I complete my "routes")........but I'm winning more then anything right now due to my "mindset" my outlook at the moment. 

   Proverbs 23:7 "For as he thinketh in his heart, so is he: Eat and drink, saith he to thee; but his heart is not with thee." I find the better you think about like everybody in your heart, the better life gets.

  

sidenote:
this post isn't always where "my head is at" --------- my mom is sure that my little super model sister and brother do not read my e-mails (well it's hard to have a good "headspace" then ----- and not even being able to mention my families 1st names on my blog been told by my mom to not do that - that don't help my headspace either)
and I'm convinced, I'm discounted often in life potentially cause I'm a touch fat............https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eoV_wkgMdcI
 I ain't saying hated, or disliked.........instead I'm saying "discounted in life" And I don't enjoy that...........well who would enjoy that?
   Who sits there and honest says to themselves
ahhhhhhhhhhhh another day I can go on instagram and look at all those perfect model bodies all over the place and all their likes and outpouring of love towards them all................................just warms my heart. 
  Of course I'm fat I must pay the price for that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Oh I want lucifer to win armaggedon do I --------- oooooooh more of a price tag paid then myself!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU'VE DONE IT NOW MYSELF! 
   

I am set apart

not merely fat

I wish that was all that is going on

I'm set apart as well

I'll just sit here and be

rather miserable right now

but I'll just sit and be

and wait

wait for what's going to happen

""""""""for better or for worse""""""""

the phoenix and the dragon