I have decided not to live in fear.

I have decided not to live in fear. I will admit, I think I have e-mailed 4 apostolic christian church of america members (a bit out of fear of them). Funny thing is I don't even know what I was afraid of??????????????? Not to say I might not go ahead and e-mail them occasionally still. But not out of fear........to try and save their souls, cause I really do believe that they do have "commandments of men" and that they are very very bad.
  They feel like bullies to me, bullies they like to induce fear. It's a bully thing to tell me that I can't become a member of your church, if I wear mascara on my eyelashes and a wedding ring (which is what I was told). I once was a bully myself, so I understand how bullies work I understand their logic. They induce fear in people around them in order to feel "powerful". The truth about bullies though is in reality they have very little power if any, pry none. Cause people see through that stuffs...............if you are literally not being nice to people THEY SEE THAT. And maybe you are being nice to some people, yes, bullies can be nice sometimes. I was a bully, I know the full "bully game".
   But back to my determination to not live in fear. There's more then ever things for us all to be afraid of I believe. There is the already installed in some places (hawaii I heard) 5g. GMO foods, we don't even know what we are eating anymore! The biggest threat in america right now........is something being sprayed on foods you all ought to know........................
https://www.snopes.com/fact-check/trump-reverses-insecticide-ban-dow-chemicals/
   I quote snopes "Chlorpyrifos, an insecticide with alleged origins in Nazi Germany, was set to be banned by the EPA over health and environmental safety concerns; but President Trump reversed this decision after Dow Chemicals, a manufacturer of the chemical, donated one million dollars to his inauguration fund."
  But don't live in fear (besides just do what I do, occasionally put a bit of bentonite clay in a thing of water and drink that). 

Psalm 91 

1 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.

2 I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.

3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.

4 He shall cover thee with his feathers, and under his wings shalt thou trust: his truth shall be thy shield and buckler.

5 Thou shalt not be afraid for the terror by night; nor for the arrow that flieth by day;

6 Nor for the pestilence that walketh in darkness; nor for the destruction that wasteth at noonday.

7 A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee.

8 Only with thine eyes shalt thou behold and see the reward of the wicked.

9 Because thou hast made the Lord, which is my refuge, even the most High, thy habitation;

10 There shall no evil befall thee, neither shall any plague come nigh thy dwelling.

11 For he shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.

   Not even plagues, plagues aren't even a thing to fear. Though some you all that are senior citizens, or even with terminal illnesses ----------- it very well could be your time to go be with the lord (that is something completely different, if it is your time to go be with the lord, then it is your time to go be with the lord).
   I've even feared people judging me in the past, feared that greately. Be yourself that's my advice, if that's christian goth that is a christian jew.......(aka myself) BE THAT!

   Fear is no good for anybody. We all pry have enough to deal with all the things life throws our way as it is, without having to battle "fear" on top of things. 

  Coincidentally, there are a lot of bible verses about fear, god knows we struggle with that (fearing from time to time)..................

Exodus 14:13 "And Moses said unto the people, Fear ye not, stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord, which he will shew to you to day: for the Egyptians whom ye have seen to day, ye shall see them again no more for ever."

God/Jesus can be trusted!

Back of our dollar bills in America say "In God we Trust"

AMEN THE DOLLAR BILL!

True story..................once I was fearful of the pyramid pictured on the back of the dollar bill with the "all seeing eye" above it. Not anymore, naw. 

  The word of god is true, you put your trust in god " A thousand shall fall at thy side, and ten thousand at thy right hand; but it shall not come nigh thee."

  Have a great week earth!

LOVE

AND

SHABBAT SHALOM

Plot twist the catholics appear to agree that there is no need to pray to anybody but jesus Hebrews 7:25 "Wherefore he is able also to save them to the uttermost that come unto God by him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them."

Plot twist, the catholics appear to agree that there is no need to pray to anybody but jesus Hebrews 7:25 "Wherefore he is able also to save them to the uttermost that come unto God by him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them."

   ps..........................while I am blogging...........................................and since how I don't pray to saints...........

  My knee's could use some prayer, the arthritis isn't as bad in them anymore, but --------- sigh (I've been dealing with some arthritic pain in both knee's past like 3 days........it's been ruff............especially when I need to go to the bathroom, I know that's TMI but for reals my knee's cry out in pain whenever I sit on the toilet seat..................I might look into a tall toilet................I think I need a tall toilet) Does lowe's sell tall toilets???????????? 

  Tall toilets must be a thing because toilets are pretty tall at like the mall n'stuff. (but like some restaurants do have low to the ground toilets.......................but the mall toilets are always a pretty nice height). 

  Prayer requests are a normal part of christian life, can we all agree? We most of us go to bible studies "lifegroups" and what do we do we share our prayer requests for the week.......................

James 5:16 "Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much." 

  One of my best friends....................................................talked to me for over 2 hours, sure that if I went to the catholic church anymore that the catholic church would lead my soul directly to hell (she is sure that catholics are all idol worshippers heading straight to the pits of hell). 

  I juuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuust wanted a break from all protestant churches, small break..........................small break === going to the catholic church. 

  My husband says don't listen to my best friend, that many churches out there have near holy war with each other over just 1% differences and that it is stupid.
Ephesians 4 

4 I therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called,

2 With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in love;

3 Endeavouring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace.

4 There is one body, and one Spirit, even as ye are called in one hope of your calling;

5 One Lord, one faith, one baptism,

6 One God and Father of all, who is above all, and through all, and in you all.

  Ya amen paul that's right paul. Tell all the whole body of christ how it is, the catholic ones and the protestant ones, tell em paul!

  I think all this division has been horrible in the boyd of christ. I can't be like yahoo about the baptist's "once saved always saved" stance I just don't believe that at all!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

   And I ain't going to pray to mary, or none of the saints, praying to jesus is enough. 

  Wait I'm near loosing my point....................................the apostolic christian church of america troubles me......................................cause they do not appear to be "forbearing one another in love" with me. 

  That the church the body of christ is so divided right now, that all I can hope for is to find one niche whether big or small, that I can adequately thumbs up all their various translations of the bible whether true or false................

the pickings are slim I'm saying out there right now

the catholic church doesn't look bad to me at all

I ain't saying I want to pray to any saints, 

just jesus 

jesus all any of us need to pray to..............

Hebrews 7:25 "Wherefore he is able also to save them to the uttermost that come unto God by him, seeing he ever liveth to make intercession for them."

  My friend tried to even slander the catholic church by saying they support gay marriage, but then what ended the phone conversation is I finally went to my computer typed in "does the catholic church support gay marriage" and the 1st website that came up said basically heck no the catholic church don't support gay marriage, and I told my friend what I just read with my own eyeballs on the computer screen, then she was finally done trying to smack talk the catholic church for the day. 

  https://religionnews.com/2018/01/23/in-germany-catholic-church-grapples-with-blessings-for-gay-marriage/

Why all the war between churches?

Do you not know the lords will for us 

that we dwell together in unity?

John 17:22 "And the glory which thou gavest me I have given them; that they may be one, even as we are one:"

 BAMN!

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH one fresh attender of mass needs to calm down common sheri. 

   Have a great week!

LOVE

Bible says to speak to one another in hymns, I'm big believer in that so....................Ephesians 5:19 "Speaking to yourselves in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord;"

  The real body of christ is going to rock your body. 

 Your body will be rocked. Like a lot. Just like this sweet sweet Justin Timberlake song. 

  I might be a bad picker of songs sometimes but the bible says to speak to one another in hymns that's what it says. I've been listening to this song like a lot lately. That jesus christ real body of christ boogey, of rock your body by Justin Timberlake, that you might all think "that doesn't even exist sheri" uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm ya if you want to think so. 

  

isn't it enough reason to show mercy just to love people? I think it actually is!...................

isn't it enough reason to show mercy just to love people? I think it actually is! Tonight I'm watching this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jpv18nmoNvA
  Above video mentions this bit of the bible.............
Hosea 4:1-3 "Hear the word of the Lord, ye children of Israel: for the Lord hath a controversy with the inhabitants of the land, because there is no truth, nor mercy, nor knowledge of God in the land. By swearing, and lying, and killing, and stealing, and committing adultery, they break out, and blood toucheth blood. Therefore shall the land mourn, and every one that dwelleth therein shall languish, with the beasts of the field, and with the fowls of heaven; yea, the fishes of the sea also shall be taken away."

  God desires for all of us to show mercy!

  I trying right now to get a few pieces of art into the building somewhere of one of the apostolic christian churches of america ----------- knock on wood they'll take the art I want to give them (it's nice art). Mercy could be many things..................could be seeking peace, seeking to love your enemies. 

  Mercy could be letting some issue you have with some people go. Really mercy could and pry should be a whole combo of things truelly. I think it happens in steps for some of us, isn't bamn right away, it don't need to be really........................if you were hurt real mega bad, mercy might take some time and that is ok. Just know god wants us to show mercy! 

   Luke 6:36 "Be ye therefore merciful, as your Father also is merciful." I recommend being merciful even to those who don't ask for any mercy. God is merciful he wants us to be merciful. 

Matthew 5:7 "Blessed are the merciful: for they shall obtain mercy." Which one of us could not ever use some mercy, I believe Matthew 5:7 was in jesus mind when he told the pharisee's John 8:7 "So when they continued asking him, he lifted up himself, and said unto them, He that is without sin among you, let him first cast a stone at her." None of those pharisee's threw a stone, they all dropped the stones and walked away.

  ------------ update with my husband going to counseling, he made a appt. with the counselor................it'll be good for our marriage him going to counseling. And I have "recovered" with the help of 4 entire cloves of garlic....................YIKES! 

  I hope mercy does spread in the world, 

I hope god's will be done on earth as in heaven

and god's will is that we be merciful toward one another. 

Have mercy on my heart!

LOVE
Update: Elder of the church e-mailed me says they do not "We As a general practice, we don't have art on the walls in our churches"

  The elder of the church also said I quote: "people do want good outcomes for you"

  He didn't specify that he himself wants, "good outcomes" for me, just that he hoped "Perhaps your family can help you understand that people do want good outcomes for you..............."

  He says he don't know how to even talk to me without me viewing him as attacking me and putting me down greately basically. So he's decided not speaking to me is the best option. Near word for word what he said. Must be why aunt connie also doesn't talk to me or his wife, or pastor of the apostolic christian church of america in portland I also e-mail. 

  They all appears to be have chose to go silent cause they don't know how to be nice to me.........that's what it looks like. That whole if you don't have anything nice to say don't say nothing at all idea. 

  My husband is going to see about getting a tree planted (that's usually something you do for someone dead in their memorial) but that's what my husband is going to try and do................

RIP myself

I hope the tree we plant at the apostolic christian church of america gets a memorial plaque with my name on it, to commemorate my unloved dead corpse.

  I feel like a "goner" most of the time, I believe the apostolic christian church of america should love me, and that I should even know they love me. People need to be loved. And love. Both. 

  You can't make people love you, I realize that. 

I'm not calling them pharisee's at all, but I do recommend allowing people to love on you as much as possible I do (if not for your sake.........for their sake, cause you don't know if that'll be the determining factor of them being saved or not) MATTHEW 23:13 EXISTS Matthew 23:13 "But woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven against men: for ye neither go in yourselves, neither suffer ye them that are entering to go in." ---------- In my estimation they would only benefit from having art in their churches. Cause art is welcoming. Right now their churches feel like, morgues, maybe morgues, I don't know, I think morgues have art in them..........so what is worse then a morgue??????? Hospitals have art in them...............art is everywhere...................but the apostolic christian church of america there is no art there they don't allow it.
   I theorize, that the apostolic christian church of america..............has to keep all these tiny traditions and rules, to feel powerful.............cause they aren't the catholic church, and they know they aren't the catholic church. I'm saying because they don't have much "church authority" (I'm not saying spiritual authority right now, which is something any christian can have) they need lots of rules lots of regulations to feel "powerful"
  I believe these rules and regulations right, aren't there because they hate people. Instead I believe they are there because they know the catholic church has pretty much all of the "church authority" in the world.
  They need to "compensate" for their lack of "church authority" I do believe. And I further believe I had a problem with heeding their "commandments of men" not only because I knew oh not wearing bangs, is a "commandment of men" etc. but because they didn't have much of any "church authority" to begin with. They just aren't the catholic church basically.
  Like I get it. I get that they are insecure. I get why they are insecure, they have extreme reasons to be very very very insecure.
  Love for all 👄

Ladies 1 Corinthians 11:15 "But if a woman have long hair, it is a glory to her:..........." the hair cut way of the world isn't as glorious as some nice long hair......................

1 Corinthians 11:15 "But if a woman have long hair, it is a glory to her: for her hair is given her for a covering." - amen!

 I've been boggled, bible says..............2 Corinthians 4:8 "We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair;" over all the people in my life (women most of them cause it's women in my life I'll talk about headcoverings and hair with) will say their "hair is their covering" but 1 corninthians 11:15 specifically says "long hair" it doesn't say the cute short bob haircut you got at great clips last week!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  I am sooooooooooooooooooooooo billions puzzled by allllllllllll these christian women around me, and yes they are christian, that have short hair and keep getting it cut. (some might be in my situation where it's hard to grow out.............or a dork who has kept hoping maybe I'll finally get a marilyn monroe impersonating gig "nope myself you just don't look enough like marilyn apparently..................or your not popular enough it's just not in the cards right now") But then what glory is it then to wear it in a bob style ever????????? For does not 1 corinthians 11:15 mention the glory being in having "long hair"???????????????????????????????? 1 corinthians 11:15 isn't saying short hair is a "glory to her"
.............bible says it's a shame to have cutted hair................................
1 Corinthians 11:6 "For if the woman be not covered, let her also be shorn: but if it be a shame for a woman to be shorn or shaven, let her be covered." And even if you wanted to debate the current integrity of 1 corithians 11:6 and say short hair was only a shame back way back then..............still 1 corinthians 11:15 holds true...........................long hair is a glory and a covering. 

  1 Corinthians 11:15 isn't saying that about "short hair" ------------ 1 Corinthians 11:15 is not saying short hair is a adequate covering. 

(the hair in this photo is the hair I wear these days with tube scarf headcovering.........it's halo hair...............but isn't it """"""""glorious""""""""""""??? I think it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Have a great day!

LOVE