If you hate me cause I plan on going with lucifer once he gets here CAUSE I'M NOT SUICIDAL. Fine hate away man, hate away. Everything comes with a price, I will pay this.....................

 If you hate me cause I plan on going with lucifer once he gets here CAUSE I'M NOT SUICIDAL. Fine hate away man, hate away. Everything comes with a price, I will pay this.....................

I believe in the "quality" of Lucifer

do I also believe in the "quality" of jesus christ - yes

different both thems different styles of "quality" 

I believe in BOTH

lucifer the guy everyone wants to talk smack about lives a life of service!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mark 8:33 "But when he had turned about and looked on his disciples, he rebuked Peter, saying, Get thee behind me, Satan: for thou savourest not the things that be of God, but the things that be of men." - """but sheri he's supposed to be serving god"""""""" - he still is living a life of service. 

some of lucifer's people HAVE VALUE

they live lifes of service some of them do - I've tried to say that say hey wait love people!

they work in our banks

grocery stores

etc. and help us all out everyday

Matthew 5:13-14 "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men.Ye are the light of the world. A city that is set on an hill cannot be hid."

but us christians

or those of us that think we is christians

WE NEED TO HAVE A LIGHT OUT THERE

"A CITY THAT IS SET ON AN HILL CANNOT BE HID" 

THAT'S MORE THEN BEING NICE TO PEOPLE AT THE GROCERY STORE AND BAGGING THEIR GROCERIES ETC. FOR LUCIFER'S PEOPLE ALSO DO THAT!

We are supposed to be different

really a light 

the light of the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"ye are the light of the world" 

that's more then just bagging groceries and being nice to people at the grocery store!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am tired though

tired of being attacked, tired of seemingly not gaining nothing by trying to follow jesus besides jesus living in me (but sometimes I do fear i have some fake jesus living in me some satanic jesus).........................drawing back ain't it for me......................

Hebrews 10:38-39 "Now the just shall live by faith: but if any man draw back, my soul shall have no pleasure in him. But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul." - you won't see "the dream life" on this earth or not often. MUCH TRIBULATION happens following jesus MUCH TRIBULATION......................

Acts 14:22

Confirming the souls of the disciples, and exhorting them to continue in the faith, and that we must through much tribulation enter into the kingdom of God.

Oregon Food Bank

https://www.paypal.com/US/fundraiser/charity/1427607

YOU TIRED KEEP GOING

I'm tired to!!!!!!!!!!!!

You been attacked destroyed online by other christians like I have KEEP GOING

And I have to donate this post cause I'm saying something right now that we are supposed to be "the light of the world" 

well the light of the world 

CARES REALLY DOES CARE ABOUT THE HOMELESS

NOT JUST IN WORD

IN DEED AND TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 John 3:18 "My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth."

THAT'S WHAT THE LIGHT OF THE WORLD DOES I'M TELLING YOU CAUSE I LIVE THIS

WE LOVE NOT MERELY IN WORD

IN DEED AND IN TRUTH!

I going with lucifer.........................I am a villian

I pay this price tag!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Besides the idea that I'm not suicidal

it's to expensive for me not to be myself

I'm that annoying chick - that enjoys sitting on a pool floaty in the pool all day THAT'S ME 

I've had a sportscar proper, and my car that was stolen but we recovered it with a nascar engine in it ------------- I'm more wanting a jeep these days

but I likes sportscars

I like mansions

I like pools

hot tubs

I like going from hot tub to pool, then pool to hot tub, back and forth is what I really like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

TRIBULATION STINKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT STINKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT I KEEP GOING

AND I'M TIRED OUT

AND I NEED A VACATION BAD

BUT my bonus point is it's to expensive for me to not be myself

it's expensive being myself

but I will pay that pricetag

and keep paying that

yep

I am the loser of the earth

the forgotten

the forsaken

👍👍👍👍👍👍

I am lowly in the dirt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love shiny jewelry that is lowly abominational um buisiness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am the lowly

the dirt of the earth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Luke 14:11

For whosoever exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted.

I am the dirt

there is a idea that you have to be apostolic christian church of america members to enter heaven and not wear jewelry or makeup

but my bible says 

THE GREATEST IN HEAVEN WILL BE THE LEAST AND THE SERVANT OF ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mark 9:35

And he sat down, and called the twelve, and saith unto them, If any man desire to be first, the same shall be last of all, and servant of all.

the last could very well enjoy wearing makeup and jewelry!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that is lowliness

I AM THE LOWEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE FILTH YOU MUST CANCEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT THAT IS THE PRICE I PAY - CAUSE IT'S TO EXPENSIVE FOR ME TO NOT BE MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S TO EXPENSIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BEING MYSELF I CAN AFFORD THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

..............oh i can afford some shiny jewelry (it don't need to be real) and to hop from hot tub to swimming pool, swimming pool to hot tub, back and forth

or many summer days lounging in my pool is what usually happens laying on a floatee

I CAN AFFORD THAT

I CAN ALSO AFFORD DONATING TO CHARITY

BUT BEING MYSELF THAT'S THE POINT

THAT'S WHAT I CAN AFFORD!

never

never

will I be a sinless looking perfect kirk cameron style christian never (no hate for 99% of christianity) 

I think there is something to learn from Jesus's actually dieing. I think Jesus went to far choosing a donkey to ride, when you choose to lowly to lowly of a "thing" - there's a fine line in the public eye between a person being humble and being a "teachers pet show off" (what about the palm tree's and all the hoopla that happened to jesus that day riding that donkey) well it couldn't off been "that real" cause few days later pretty sure it was everyone was like CRUCIFY HIM. They all for Barabbas being released from jail - well barabbas didn't select a donkey to ride...........he was just killing people........................

 I think there is something to learn from Jesus's actually dieing. I think Jesus went to far choosing a donkey to ride, when you choose to lowly to lowly of a "thing" - there's a fine line in the public eye between a person being humble and being a "teachers pet show off" (what about the palm tree's and all the hoopla that happened to jesus that day riding that donkey) well it couldn't off been "that real" cause few days later pretty sure it was everyone was like CRUCIFY HIM. They all for Barabbas being released from jail - well barabbas didn't select a donkey to ride...........he was just killing people........................

right now it seems the Republicans the ones of them that are mega conservative are winning - those aren't donkey riders at all from my viewpoint

which even makes me point more 

that people don't like "show offs"

  Is "humility showing off" a thing - well jesus didn't live. 

Mark 11:6-10 "But the ones spoke to them just as Jesus spoke, and they permitted them. And they bring the colt to Jesus. And they throw their cloaks on it, and He sat on it. And many spread their cloaks on the road. And others spread leafy-branches, having cut them from the fields. And the ones going ahead and the ones following were crying-out “Hosanna! Blessed is the One coming in the name of the Lord.  Blessed is the coming kingdom of our father David. Hosanna in the highest [heavens]!”
 Matthew 27:18 "For he knew that they[k] handed Him over because of envy." ---------- why would they "envy" him but because in a very religious (and I mean religion and not christianity) world still the world we live in to be "humble" is something AWESOME. 

• Proverbs 22:4: Humility and the fear of the Lord are rewarded with riches, honor, and life. 
• proverbs 22:4 is OLD TESTIMENT

  Probably greater then what pharisee's can manage - humility is...................

Luke 18:11-14 "The Pharisee stood and prayed thus with himself, God, I thank thee, that I am not as other men are, extortioners, unjust, adulterers, or even as this publican. I fast twice in the week, I give tithes of all that I possess. And the publican, standing afar off, would not lift up so much as his eyes unto heaven, but smote upon his breast, saying, God be merciful to me a sinner. I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted."

  Jesus I think was humble his whole ministry, and most of his ministry the pharisee's were "on his butt" 

  But he was finnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnne up to the point of the "donkey selection" 

I tell you all 

I'd rather have a few mansions

fancy cars

I am not a donkey selector

does that make me hated - sure sure

sure

sure does

I'm supposed to want to 

give everything to the poor 

I've so disappointed you all

perfect then

cause I tell you what

barabbas lived

Matthew 27:21

The governor answered and said unto them, Whether of the twain will ye that I release unto you? They said, Barabbas.

"sheri this is a satanic blog post" - ok

barabbas still lived a guy who probably wouldn't select a donkey to ride he'd safe to say select back then a fast horse (the equivalent to a nice car today)

BARABBAS LIVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1 Peter 2:17

Honour all men. Love the brotherhood. Fear God. Honour the king.

Pastors sermon did nothing for me today (pry a good sermon, pleased all the sheeps at church today - me though I'm a dragon I DIDN'T HATE IT I NO COMPLAIN FACT I UNCOMPLAIN) He said "be bold" that's surely a sermon for the "sheeps" my bible says whether abased or abounding be content, damn if I didn't have some good book reading today 💓💓💓 content to wazuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. Philippians 4:11 "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content." """"""sheri quit being a dragon turd and read the next verse""""""".......................it's telling you to be a needy little cry baby common sheri....................

Pastors sermon did nothing for me today (pry a good sermon, pleased all the sheeps at church today - me though I'm a dragon I DIDN'T HATE IT I NO COMPLAIN FACT I UNCOMPLAIN) He said "be bold" that's surely a sermon for the "sheeps" my bible says whether abased or abounding be content, damn if I didn't have some good book reading today 💓💓💓 content to wazuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. Philippians 4:11 "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content." """"""sheri quit being a dragon turd and read the next verse""""""".......................it's telling you to be a needy little cry baby common sheri....................

Philippians 4:11-13 "Not that I speak in respect of want: for I have learned, in whatsoever state I am, therewith to be content. I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.  I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."

abased always I am 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

suckas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉🐉

I got that dragon power 

yaaaaaaaaaa

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

pry great sermon though today at the mega church me and brian go to pretty often over the years

https://www.donorschoose.org/

Mrs. Haddle's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose...........

"sheri dang it in your permanent villian era of being a dragon don't quote that bible verse sheri shhhhhhhhhhhhhherrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii".......................

hahahhahahahahahah

I quote it.....................

1 Timothy 6:6 "But godliness with contentment is great gain."

I'm winning the most right now on earth

boldness

enjoy being bold suckas

suckaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaas

💅

I'm live dragon style 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓 yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I did have hard time though reading my book today, my goats wanted a lot of attention, video above I had my book outside was fixing to read...............not the bible the other one............

I managed 1 chapter while having to keep on telling buttercup to please don't eat my jacket. 

love my goats though

love em infinity 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

we all need to learn from pets I feel

they are content many of them is

my goats they chill dudes

they pretty content

though goats are pry a bad example cause if they unhappy they'll for instance ----------- just for example ------------ crash open a gate/fence, ramn down the food barrel ------------- just for example (the food barrel example happened one day - one them 2 got the munchies extra evidentally)

tootles

Whyyyyyyyyyyy would people (but maybe they are??????) get a e-mail like this from "the universe" just randomly on a February day all randomn WHY WOULD THEY GET THIS VERY E-MAIL??????? This is supposed to be a website keep in mind THAT HELPS PEOPLE BECOME RICH. THAT'S IT IT'S A VISUALIZATION MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE WEBSITE. My mom did 2-3 blog post call me crazy a crazy liar ---- just merely said what 3 blog posts ago that I believe I don't feel loved because I was sent to bed without dinner to many nights in around the 5th grade.....................cause you get to feeling a way often DUE TO HOW YOUR TREATED...............OH AND MY FAMILY BESIDES MY MOM THEY DON'T REPLY TO MY E-MAILS ALL THEY DOING IS LIKING MY INSTAGRAM POSTS (aimee and my mom like my instagram posts - sometimes another family member might as well - once in a blue moon)..................well how's that going to make a person feel???????????................

 

Whyyyyyyyyyyy would people (but maybe they are??????) get a e-mail like this from "the universe" just randomly on a February day all randomn WHY WOULD THEY GET THIS VERY E-MAIL??????? This is supposed to be a website keep in mind THAT HELPS PEOPLE BECOME RICH. THAT'S IT IT'S A VISUALIZATION MAKE YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE WEBSITE. My mom did 2-3 blog post call me crazy a crazy liar ---- just merely said what 3 blog posts ago that I believe I don't feel loved because I was sent to bed without dinner to many nights in around the 5th grade.....................cause you get to feeling a way often DUE TO HOW YOUR TREATED...............OH AND MY FAMILY BESIDES MY MOM THEY DON'T REPLY TO MY E-MAILS ALL THEY DOING IS LIKING MY INSTAGRAM POSTS (aimee and my mom like my instagram posts - sometimes another family member might as well - once in a blue moon)..................well how's that going to make a person feel???????????................

https://www.tut.com/

look at the "ps" 

"call me crazy" ---------------- like 3 blog posts ago my mom called me crazy that's literally what she did

is this coincidence, and lucifer isn't sending me e-mails via a portal 

even though I've now said where I believe the portal is happening????????????????

this is a coincidence??????

....................................I think I'd rather fully believe the tooth fairy is real then believe this is a coincidence

this type of thing happens to me again and again and again

brian ------------ made a special folder or soemthing that all my families e-mails go to 

I watched him do it

there's no stopping him

so I don't even see e-mails from my family anymore

cause he's so tired of being stressed out worrying the next time my family is going to attack me

lucifer on the other hand.....................above..............sweaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar his tactic is different but he see's what I CAN'T SEE OR EVEN EXPERIENCE OR FEEL SOMETIMES

CAUSE I DON'T FEEL LOVED BY MY FAMILY AT ALL

I done got 

a candle, kitchen towels guess that was the gifts for brian me and the kids for christmas from my parents

and my favorite essential oil from big sister that isn't dna related to me

THAT'S IT

no christmas cards

........................

they always be's making the least effort like that between attacking me

Matthew 10:34-36 "Think not that I am come to send peace on earth: I came not to send peace, but a sword. For I am come to set a man at variance against his father, and the daughter against her mother, and the daughter in law against her mother in law. And a man's foes shall be they of his own household."

What sort of "love" is attack me style love????????

what sort of love is calling me a crazy liar?????????

I don't call my parents crazy

I really aint about to call lucifer, satan, the devil my 1st husband I do more then suspect crazy no way

what kind of love is that?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

1 Corinthians 13:3-5 "And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, and have not charity, it profiteth me nothing. Charity suffereth long, and is kind; charity envieth not; charity vaunteth not itself, is not puffed up, Doth not behave itself unseemly, seeketh not her own, is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil;"

if you call me a liar and crazy aren't you then thinking "evil"???????????

if I say I was put to bed without dinner, and that is why I do not feel loved that isn't me thinking evil if it really happened to me and I am rationalizing why I do not feel loved by my family, that isn't me thinking evil BUT STATING FACTS

AND IT'S ALSO FACTS ONLY MY MOM E-MAILS ME AND NOT THE REST OF MY FAMILY BUT MAYBE 1 E-MAIL A YEAR OR SO FACTS

EVIL THINKING EVIL AIN'T FACTS

FACTS IS FACTS

Like rosanne barr rapped facts facts facts facts................

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nb7fAEQaJwE

......................................that's I guess great if my family loves me that I won't be seeing their e-mails cause brian he made some fancy folder all their e-mails go to and I don't know where the thing is??????????????????????????????????

FACTS

and also facts I'm going with lucifer once he get's here that's also facts it's facts and it's in the bible though nobody believessssssssssssssss me right now (besides a few people cause at a rock concert, um -------------

the singer she um sang a special song that had nothing to do with her actual concert and it wasn't her song

then they put a spot light on me

this was at the moda center

and lady leans over to me and whispers "we know who you are"

and everyone clapped for me)

......................................

I am believed some.........................................

love both my husbands

I play a small part in life truth be known

we all play a small part in life

-------- some don't play the part they were meant to

cause everyone is created for "good works" 

Ephesians 2:10

For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus unto good works, which God hath before ordained that we should walk in them.

  we are all gods "workmanship" I believe ideally "created in Christ Jesus unto good works" --------- that's don't always happen out there. 

2 Peter 3:9

The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.

tootles

ps this blog post is heading somewhere

most love "in word" 

most christians love "in word"

in word only

I don't understand this being loved "in word" only especially if you try and use a sword against me and christians are big on sword bamn to the ground they kill you bad often according to them "out of love" 

Proverbs 27:17

Iron sharpeneth iron; so a man sharpeneth the countenance of his friend.

The apostolic christian church of america people's THEY CLAIM THEY LOVE ME

but all I've been is attacked by them for years now (though they have finally quitted it) and sent spam I gets spam from them

for those new to my blog that's my families church (great uncle garth - now deceased was pastor at the church closest to us for over like 20 years ------------- and my parents got married by a apostolic christian church of america minister just not on the church grounds my parents weren't allowed to get married on the church grounds) 

1 John 3:18

My little children, let us not love in word, neither in tongue; but in deed and in truth.

I don't ever much experience 1 John 3:18 

besides

my mom bought me a candle and some towels or those are supposed to be for the kids to for christmas??????????

and big sis not dna related to me bought me my favorite essential oil

not much compared to how much my family has according to them had phone calls talking to each other how I'm a prisoner in my own home

what is that?????????????????

what is being on the phone to each other talking about how I'm a prisoner in my own home?????????????

gossip????????????

if it's love

don't know the type

I don't feel loved

me here stating facts

not thinking evil bout nobody

facts stating

I ain't no loved in no "deed and truth" 

I DON'T FEEL LOVED

IN THIS SUPPOSEDLY EVERYONE IS CHRISTIAN COUNTRY OF USA

Oregon Food Bank
https://www.paypal.com/US/fundraiser/charity/1427607

I ain't been going to the methodist church lately cause their church service is at 10 a.m. and it's a church across town and that's to early it's near impossible to get ready to go and be at church by then - due to the distance away of that church I'm saying. 

Don't matter the church though

it's always the same

smiling faces

say hi

might pray for you but besides that don't give a flip about me

clearly this is just happening to me - I'm worthless I hate my family though I don't hate my family

I don't feel anything 

I've gone mostly numb inside

I mostly view people as robots in usa america perfect sinless looking claiming most em

kirk cameron style christians

they smile

they shake your hands when you walk into church 

but is that real??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

is that even real??????????????????????????????????????????????????????

often all that feels real to me

is jesus cause he's in me so he feels real

lucifer - talk to him often and his men

and silence ya silence feels real 

and I've ended up liking a book

all the quiet

so while you all are thinking I'm the hate rage filled worthless bish like you like to the narrative you have attacked me a few of you with on the internet

..........................I'm over here numb

with two books................

nasa

nasa

sos nasa

I lost most all the coordinates

.

I'm about to look younger then my college age kids soon, like pry within the next 10 years - most people age, that's usually what happens. I'm so hated that nobody wants to try and help me get a skincare line out - nope instead you all would rather wither away and die. And that is life more abundantly for me cause I just sitting here looks younnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng.............................John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."...........

 I'm about to look younger then my college age kids soon, like pry within the next 10 years - most people age, that's usually what happens. I'm so hated that nobody wants to try and help me get a skincare line out - nope instead you all would rather wither away and die. And that is life more abundantly for me cause I just sitting here looks younnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnng.............................John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly."...........

even if you guessed what was in the container pictured here (aka my own handmade skincare) I'm months away from being 50. 

you couldn't replicate it - it's not likely

cause you'd have to know the exact measurements of everything

it's near impossible

that's if you guessed all the ingredients I got mixed together in said container and two of the ingredients are what make it happen

it's not a 1 ingredient miracle

it's 2 ingredients!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sometimes emu oil to - but I haven't been adding a dash of emu oil in it lately

Matthew 10:22 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved."
Mark 13:13 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."
Luke 21:17 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake."

I'm fairly sure all store bought skin care products are greately inferior to my homemade shiz (I watch to see if any of them are even close to my home made skin care - they ain't they way offffffffffffffffff)

ep 

you'll just have to age and age and agggggggggggggggge

have a great day 😁

yes I am in my permanent villian era - it's fun

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All the traffic to my blog is gone now. It "currently looks to be" I'm going down in history as that chick that complained about being attacked online and that is a fake christian joke satan worshipper even though I swear I give my life to jesus. --------- ok..........................I'm chill with this...............might still blog though without hardly any traffic warning MIGHT BLOG EVEN MORE WITH HARDLY ANY TRAFFIC BUT MY POSTS MIGHT STINK CAUSE I DON'T HAVE FRIENDS ON EARTH AKA NO FELLOWSHIP, AND I ONLY READ 2 PAGES A DAY OF THE BIBLE (or listen to christian radio but am convinced listening to christian radio isn't as effective as 2 pages of the bible - NO HATE)...................

((((((((((((((((as a little 5th grader it was 5th grade I was in miss krapu's class and my butt was swatted a lot --------------- I was doing shiz to get my butt swat, that's why I never said nothing to a teacher or anybody................though I knew oh this is pry abuse, this pry isn't normal but I was such a bad child that I literally believed I DESERVED ALL THAT))))))))))))) that and I wanted to blend in a fit in and be like all the kids around me -------------- so I tried my best to hide that my butt was often in pain all day long

  All the traffic to my blog is gone now. It "currently looks to be" I'm going down in history as that chick that complained about being attacked online and that is a fake christian joke satan worshipper even though I swear I give my life to jesus. --------- ok..........................I'm chill with this...............might still blog though without hardly any traffic warning MIGHT BLOG EVEN MORE WITH HARDLY ANY TRAFFIC BUT MY POSTS MIGHT STINK CAUSE I DON'T HAVE FRIENDS ON EARTH AKA NO FELLOWSHIP, AND I ONLY READ 2 PAGES A DAY OF THE BIBLE (or listen to christian radio but am convinced listening to christian radio isn't as effective as 2 pages of the bible - NO HATE)...................

I'll deal with the narrative I'm in 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

I'm not worthless lieing bish "the narrative" people have put me in I always to the best of my ability tell the truth - and I realize my family is saying I was never swatting on the butt that I have the most loving family on earth

but my parents have lived away from me for 24 years or so

my kids that are now college age have only seen their grandparents from my side of the family for about 30 minutes total in time or something like that hardly no time at all

my brother now lives 1 1/2 hour away but for long time he lived other areas of usa

my sister been in new york about 24 years or so 

and I remember my butt hurting so bad from being "spanked" switching butt cheeks, cause I couldn't sit in class on one butt cheek for only a few seconds, putting my hands under my butt then not doing that cause people were noticing

having to excuse myself to go to the bathroom often - I DON'T HAVE BLADDER ISSUES

and i was miss krapu's teachers aid and I ain't no goody too shoes like that

that's kevin and aimee NOT ME

NOT ME

but my family is insistant 

that my butt wasn't hardly ever swatted and definately not badly

that they are the most loving flawless awesome family on earth and they love having dinner at each others houses every week ACCORDING TO THEM (like in their brains)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(right now for those not knowing the tally kevin and amber - the not dna related to me likely sister though still everyone insists she's dna related to us the only generic dna test that I saw that she took she took 2 of them but the one I saw said 97% finland.................those two live in salem oregon, my mom and dad live in montana right now, and aimee in new york

and I'm in the portland area but it don't matter where I live cause I'm the hated black sheep of my family and a supposed liar a crazy liar according to my parents)

I'm a crazy liar

and also according to my parents while they are calling me a crazy liar as they often do they according to them love me

I NO LIE

I NO LIAR

it just don't "add up" to me their idea that they are the loving awesome family

their narrative don't add up

my husband's family is normal...............

and you know what they do this normal family

(as normal as families get) 

THEY LIVE NEAR EACH OTHER

THEY LITERALLY GATHER TOGETHER FOR BIRTHDAYS, BABY SHOWERS IN NEXT FEW WEEKS GOING TO BE A NEW BABY SHOWER TO GO TO ETC. THEY REALLY DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I SWEAR TO YOU THEY REALLY DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

and

people that love and do good have value.............

Matthew 5:13 "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men."

   We have the "the church" proper on earth

daystar main tv station

Joni and Doug Weiss are doing adultery/fornication

there's no way it was actually ok for doug to divorce his wife of 30 years NO WAY
Matthew 19:8-10 "He saith unto them, Moses because of the hardness of your hearts suffered you to put away your wives: but from the beginning it was not so. And I say unto you, Whosoever shall put away his wife, except it be for fornication, and shall marry another, committeth adultery: and whoso marrieth her which is put away doth commit adultery. His disciples say unto him, If the case of the man be so with his wife, it is not good to marry."

  Well we gots right now over half marriages ending in divorce - how many of them were due to adultery????????????????? And then people out there do remarry maybe even christians maybe this has gone on a long time and now the body of christ accepts accepts people full out going against Matthew 19:9????????????????? LOOKS TO BE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I get it

you want to "start again"

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any husband married to me shouldn't want to divorce that......................

tootles

but persecuted right 

but not forsaken by jesus 💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓💓

2 Corinthians 4:9 "Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed;"

cast down

but not destroyed

not destroyed

joni and doug weiss pry couldn't handle loosing daystar tv that's pry destroy them so I guess it's for the best

Look I ain't worried about nothing, if my family loves me, then they'll post loving comments etc. - great - if not and I am abused and hated to this day - GREAT TO. I'M FREE NOW FINALLY MAYBE? God is who I trust in god, bible says family will betray family will sent you off to die (my family could be fake christians I severely think they are fake christians) I can't see a lampstand with any of them (maybe they are getting ready to have lampstands?) Matthew 5:16 "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven."....................

 Look I ain't worried about nothing, if my family loves me, then they'll post loving comments etc. - great - if not and I am abused and hated to this day - GREAT TO. I'M FREE NOW FINALLY MAYBE? God is who I trust in god, bible says family will betray family will sent you off to die (my family could be fake christians I severely think they are fake christians) I can't see a lampstand with any of them (maybe they are getting ready to have lampstands?) Matthew 5:16 "Let your light so shine before men, that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father which is in heaven."....................

Matthew 10:21 "And the brother shall deliver up the brother to death, and the father the child: and the children shall rise up against their parents, and cause them to be put to death."

This is going to happen soon I believe. 

if I find out I am not actually the wife of lucifer

and I get sent to die

fine

fine

I still love the devil I change nothing on my blog lucifer and his men have been family to me for years now ----------- if that's bad ----------------- I don't care. 

don't care

....................................................I don't think I'm far from god

he is like the holy spirit

like the wind

a quiet breeze with me that I can feel

he is with people like me

the lowly

the forsaken...............

Psalm 34:18

The Lord is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.

  It's better I was never the "favorite child" of my mom and dad - I AM THE FORSAKEN ONE OF MY FAMILY AND HAVE ALWAYS BEEN

I AM LOWLY!!!!!!!!!!

IT IS A GOOD THING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MOST ARE HIGH UP IN THE BODY OF CHRIST.........................

THEY SO ABOVE ME 

i CAN'T EVEN SPEAK TO THEM..................

Matthew 24:12

And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

I don't envy them

pretty chill really

so chill

it's like I'm stoned

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Spankings didn't work for me...............I think spankings only work on someone if they know you care....................see once I watched a kid in laveen arizona at school get the paddle (I never got the paddle I was the kingpin of that school and even after I retired I was still the kingpin)...............this kid he knew THE PRINCIPAL DIDN'T CARE............................they were one them kids that had a vendeta out for the principal and a few teachers as I recall. Their vendetta was so immense for a few even in my estimation sorta crooked teachers and to this kid the principal wasn't great that's how I wording that cause I liked the principal....................I got free posters often at the front office...................

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 Spankings didn't work for me...............I think spankings only work on someone if they know you care....................see once I watched a kid in laveen arizona at school get the paddle (I never got the paddle I was the kingpin of that school and even after I retired I was still the kingpin)...............this kid he knew THE PRINCIPAL DIDN'T CARE............................they were one them kids that had a vendeta out for the principal and a few teachers as I recall. Their vendetta was so immense for a few even in my estimation sorta crooked teachers and to this kid the principal wasn't great that's how I wording that cause I liked the principal....................I got free posters often at the front office...................

bible talks about the goodness of god

and many christians talk about "stay blessed" 

but if you "get the belt" from god

you'll likely also experience THE LOVE OF GOD AS WELL

Romans 2:4 "Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?"
Matthew 5:45 "That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust."

I don't feel loved by my family point blank 

none of them 

at all

I feel loved by

by god/jesus, lucifer and his men etc.

I've never been the liked child

kevin is my mom's favorite

aimee is my dad's favorite

I'm nobodies favorite

that's also why grandma bible studied with me - my grandparents when my family lived in laveen which was when the abuse was the worst................for 6 months at a time they'd stay on my parents land in their rv

then also I was bible studied by grandpa I wanted to hang out at grandpa's house

And hang out with edna and jerry lee and sometimes I visited with jerry lee's son to for a minute

where I was more like valued

see it don't even matter

what sticks and stones you throw at me

destory me then mom

ok you did

congratulations

shake hands my whole family

burst out party poppers with your big success of destroying me finally

I know god is love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God is good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'll get up and read my bible and keep going in life and not suicide myself

because i know

I know

God is good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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