I want it to be known I am not mocking god, I have already listened to the bible today (sure somedays I have gotten to buisy AND EVEN NEGLECTFUL to god and his word) BUT NOT TODAY GOD NOT TODAY I NEED THESE "GENERATIONAL CURSES" BROKE which is called "generation curses" PLURAL, this isn't as christian of a nation as people pretend it is usa ain't -------------- I NEED FRIENDS I NEED FAMILY THAT LIVES NEARBY THAT WANTS TO HAVE ME OVER TO THEIR HOUSE TO HANG OUT WITH I NEED BLESSED ASAP GOD!...............................OR AS FAST AS POSSIBLE PUT A FEDEX ON THAT GOD WITH THE FAST SHIPPING PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...................

another door painting 

(I'm going with lucifer when he get's here) but this'll be nice for brian's ladies after me.............or men if he decides to go that way...............it ain't about brian either - I NEED TO GET BLESSED BY GOD - BLESSED. It ain't about brian, or my church or any churches in the past or anybody on this planet besides me and god and GOD NEEDS TO BLESS ME!

(brian likes being low income he digs that per his words he likes being "a cog in the wheel") - that's great for him

not what he was saying the 1st few years of our marriage when we both were hanging out with big time writers, and he was talking to them about the books he plans to write. He used to talk about some big plans. 

 I want it to be known I am not mocking god, I have already listened to the bible today (sure somedays I have gotten to buisy AND EVEN NEGLECTFUL to god and his word) BUT NOT TODAY GOD NOT TODAY I NEED THESE "GENERATIONAL CURSES" BROKE which is called "generation curses" PLURAL, this isn't as christian of a nation as people pretend it is usa ain't -------------- I NEED FRIENDS I NEED FAMILY THAT LIVES NEARBY THAT WANTS TO HAVE ME OVER TO THEIR HOUSE TO HANG OUT WITH I NEED BLESSED ASAP GOD!...............................OR AS FAST AS POSSIBLE PUT A FEDEX ON THAT GOD WITH THE FAST SHIPPING PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...................

for those not knowing what's been happening in my life I have tithed for months out of desperation for god to bless me. 

 I recalled some my family at my mom's native america families main home talking about slaves, theorized that might be the "generational curse" - my mom don't want to speak to me again now

and she theorizes curses upon me, my brother and sister because they moved away from us 24 or so years ago...............

But that isn't what the bible mentions will bring curses upon a person........it's family members in the past or recent past HATING GOD.................

Numbers 14:18 "The Lord is longsuffering, and of great mercy, forgiving iniquity and transgression, and by no means clearing the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers upon the children unto the third and fourth generation."

  But also in my current consideration of why I feel know more then feel know I'm cursed of god right now............................

Galatians 6:6-8 "Let him that is taught in the word communicate unto him that teacheth in all good things. Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap. For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting." If I want/need to be blessed by god BIG TIME, I need to be in his word, especially probably if I'm trying to the "big landslide blessings of god" WHICH I AM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Malachi 3:10

Bring ye all the tithes into the storehouse, that there may be meat in mine house, and prove me now herewith, saith the Lord of hosts, if I will not open you the windows of heaven, and pour you out a blessing, that there shall not be room enough to receive it.

JUDGE ME ALL YOU WANT I'M TIRED OF BEING POOR

I'M TIRED OF SCRAPING BY MONTH TO MONTH AS IS THE TYPICAL AMERICAN USA WAY OF LIFE

I WANT/NEED GOD TO BLESS ME SO BAD THERE AIN'T ROOM TO RECEIVE THE BLESSING OF GOD POURING DOWN ON ME!!!!!!!!!! 

AND I NEED A YACHT..................

the water is calling me

I need to boat

real boating

not tee hee style

but right now we fixing up a trampoline style sailboat and learning sailboating

but what I need is a SHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIP

AMEN CHRIS JANSON

off to eat some potatoes