I destroyed my family (my dad's words) and "shut up, I'm tired of your bullshit" (my mom's words) been told I am a jealous bish that pines away wishing I had my super model sisters life...............I HAVE HAD NO FRIENDS FOR YEARS,, the 2 "best friends" I had weren't really real, but one of the two was most the time napping so drugged out when I visited her IT'S NEAR IMPOSSIBLE TO BE FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE ASLEEP EVERYTIME NEARLY YOU ARE AROUND THEM.....her health problems are aweful and I do feel for that ex-best friend that moved far away from me much to far away. (I played magic the gathering with her son for years until he passed away WHICH WAS THE WORST THING TO HAPPEN TO ME EVER MAYBE ------ that kid dieing was top 10 at least worst things ever to happen to me we have a shrine in our house for that kid I walk over to it every now and then it does cheer me up even seeing pics of my "Magic the Gathering" buddy). That and the rollerskating ring closing destroyed my life......................other best friend was a career criminal fugitive of the law (though maybe they aren't fugitives of the law anymore and finally turned themselves in????) turned out YIKES AND HER HUSBAND IS A CHRISTIAN BOOK WRITER.................

I destroyed my family (my dad's words) and "shut up, I'm tired of your bullshit" (my mom's words) been told I am a jealous bish that pines away wishing I had my super model sisters life...............I HAVE HAD NO FRIENDS FOR YEARS,, the 2 "best friends" I had weren't really real, but one of the two was most the time napping so drugged out when I visited her IT'S NEAR IMPOSSIBLE TO BE FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE ASLEEP EVERYTIME NEARLY YOU ARE AROUND THEM.....her health problems are aweful and I do feel for that ex-best friend that moved far away from me much to far away. (I played magic the gathering with her son for years until he passed away WHICH WAS THE WORST THING TO HAPPEN TO ME EVER MAYBE ------ that kid dieing was top 10 at least worst things ever to happen to me we have a shrine in our house for that kid I walk over to it every now and then it does cheer me up even seeing pics of my "Magic the Gathering" buddy). That and the rollerskating ring closing destroyed my life......................other best friend was a career criminal fugitive of the law (though maybe they aren't fugitives of the law anymore and finally turned themselves in????) turned out YIKES AND HER HUSBAND IS A CHRISTIAN BOOK WRITER.................

tithing isn't doing anything for me yet ------------ besides I feel it gives me "legitamacy" and for that I think it's worth paying my likely haters/bullies likely I'm bullied by everyone in life I FEEL BULLIED BY EVERYONE IN LIFE

tired

taking 2nd nap for the day

often I be's taking 2-3 naps a day

to depressed

to depressed to do anything

drugs won't help 

besides all I need is energy to do chores I drink bodybuilding pre-workout drinks for that

I'D RATHER FEEL

I DON'T WANT TO BE A FEELINGLESS ZOMBIE ANYMORE THEN I ALREADY AM BECAUSE I'VE GONE ICE COLD

Matthew 24:12

And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold.

i DON'T EVEN WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH HUMANS REALLY

I LITERALLY WANT TO BE ON A ISLAND WITH A TIKI HUT AND COFFEE MACHINE FULL OF ALLIGATORS

HUMANS HURT

HUMANS HARM 

HUMANS CANCEL

though if lucifer can make me "demon infested"..................................

I could "go off right".........................

I need bout 10 more satan

the one I'm with now (besides you know talking to you all the time lucifer) cause there's a actual demon in me to 

that just don't do anything for me

occultic I'm saying

WHICH I KNOW THAT'S THE POING I'M SUPPOSED TO BE JUST JESUS CHRISTS AND BE SAVED

FINE

BUT I'M TALKING BOUT "POPPING OFF" AND YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN LUCIFER

YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

LIFE IS HARDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

FOLLOWING JESUS IS HARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRD

CONTINAULLLY BLEEDING ON THE GROUND DOGS LICKING UP MY WOUNDS FOLLOWING JESUS CHRIST THE LORD