Look, I know I can't really have friends or family in my life because I love satan I understand that, you all hate lucifer with a passion. But brian says he can't have friends because he is going through what I'm going through EXCEPT HE AIN'T..............he still is friends with his best friends, he e-mails them, they e-mail him back, he talks to them on the phone etc. etc. etc. he's just stopped going to their houses and hanging out with them...................which makes things worse for me it used to be I'd at least say hi to his besties every now and then...........NOW NOTHING I'M COMPLETELY 1 BILLION % ISOLATED OFF FROM ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL OF SOCIETY..............(besides I do go to church, and etc. etc. I'm "out and about" some 1-2 days a week, but people aren't interacting with me and I'm not interacting with them, I often just sit and watch life happening around me is what I do) ---------- my point all this isn't good for my mental health...............there is one girl teen pry a teen I want to be friends with --------- I'm afraid to try to be friends with her it's so sad.................that is the saddest shiz ever to actually of found someone you like a ton and safe to say have shiz in common with them and I'm afraid to be like "hey want to hang out this weekend?"............that and I'm much older then her..................TRAGIC................so 1 teen girl I have said like more then 10 words to.........................

Just sewed the bottom maybe this is called a hankerchief bottom to this shirt..........great summer goth look 😁.................

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Mrs. Cheney's classrooms fundraiser is now fully funded 😁 But there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose.............

Some of my organizing efforts for today - I fail though as a organizer................

 Look, I know I can't really have friends or family in my life because I love satan I understand that, you all hate lucifer with a passion. But brian says he can't have friends because he is going through what I'm going through EXCEPT HE AIN'T..............he still is friends with his best friends, he e-mails them, they e-mail him back, he talks to them on the phone etc. etc. etc. he's just stopped going to their houses and hanging out with them...................which makes things worse for me it used to be I'd at least say hi to his besties every now and then...........NOW NOTHING I'M COMPLETELY 1 BILLION % ISOLATED OFF FROM ALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL OF SOCIETY..............(besides I do go to church, and etc. etc. I'm "out and about" some 1-2 days a week, but people aren't interacting with me and I'm not interacting with them, I often just sit and watch life happening around me is what I do) ---------- my point all this isn't good for my mental health...............there is one girl teen pry a teen I want to be friends with --------- I'm afraid to try to be friends with her it's so sad.................that is the saddest shiz ever to actually of found someone you like a ton and safe to say have shiz in common with them and I'm afraid to be like "hey want to hang out this weekend?"............that and I'm much older then her..................TRAGIC................so 1 teen girl I have said like more then 10 words to.........................

This whole time I've been pestering brian go hang out with your friends

he refuses

me knowing it would be good for his mental health to go hang out with his friends he don't "need to suffer" because I'm suffering that's ridiculous

1 of his best friends has lived like a few blocks away for like 2-3 years now.................................................

lucifer if you don't come to this earth and get me soon

how will I be even able to "socialize"?????????

how long can a person go without social interactions before they go entirelly feral???????????????

and it ain't good for brian at all isolating himself from everything like he is he needs to divorce me badly if that's what it's going to take for him to be able to drive down the street and hang out with his nearby best friend. 

being friendless ain't good for him either it's very bad

(though he is all the time on reddit - and I heard seems like more then one time, on talk radio people talking about brian, oh they said "briannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn walzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz" like that like I heard that) 

he likes to tell people they are wrong, correct people all day long like all night long to on reddit

sometimes I challenge him though 

I'm like "well you know everything" -------- that's pretty fun when I'm able to do that

love your neighbor

the very idea of that 

I think entails being a part of ones community hopefully having friends

I try my best but damn I'm hated THE MOSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

CRASHING OUT MYSELF

YOUR CRASHING OUT

IT'S OK 

YOUR WATER (refer to previous blog post)

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Philippians 4:12

I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need.

suffer need

me just suffering need for freaking ever years years years

nothing I can do about it til lucifer get's here because I'm the broken freak on earth nobody wants to hang out with