It's a Heart thing.........................

Update 12/1/2025 I did think I was a apostle for a long time I don't anymore. (at one church many women talked among themselves, decided I was a apostle, told me I am a apostle and then laid hands on me and prayed for me)

women are just 2nd class trash all of us according to the bible!!!!!! the holy word of god that hasn't been corrupted at all according to billions of men all over the earth..................(it has to be billions considering how large christianity is at the moment)....................

and I look stupid talking about talking to pastors on my blog

but brian told me not to talk to him e-mail my families churches pastors so that's what I did for a long time

not anymore I left my families church

Genesis 3:6-7 "When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for food and pleasing to the eye, and also desirable for gaining wisdom, she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it".

  1 Peter 3:7 "Likewise, ye husbands, dwell with them according to knowledge, giving honour unto the wife, as unto the weaker vessel, and as being heirs together of the grace of life; that your prayers be not hindered."

1 Timothy 2:15 "Notwithstanding she shall be saved in childbearing, if they continue in faith and charity and holiness with sobriety."

(my elephant ear betta fish Mr. Fitz now has 3 maribo balls in his tank, and almost right away I noticed a difference with Mr. Fitz.......now he's happy swimming around all day 😁)

John 13:14 "If I then, your Lord and Master, have washed your feet; ye also ought to wash one another's feet." - There's many things we can do to "wash one another's feet" Playing chinese singing bowls in this stressful time we are living in is one way I do believe. Some you all maybe that's singing???????? Or art????????????? I big time recommend doing those things for the body of christ. Cause that is what Jesus wants us to do "wash one another's feet".

 Sheri 2021 - I was making the most of a bad situation the women most of them of the apostolic christian church did not want to be friends with me. I seriously was desperate to leave this church, so desperate that, that was my motivation for trying to become a member (knowing I wouldn't be allowed to become a member because I refused to heed their "commandments of men" - and I was right ------- my plan worked, it got my family fleeing that church so we could go finally somewhere where I might could be liked - maybe or not YIKES), that and I was tired of being left out of the "church meetings" -------- went to that church 5 or so years or more I loose track and then to be told I have to go home, can't hear whats going on in the church -  that was really frustrating to me. 

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Letter I just wrote 5 seconds ago to mike and john 2 pastors of the apostolic christian church of america that I am friends with...............at the end when I say "it's a heart thing" I believe that it's a heart thing............................
John 4:24 "God is a Spirit: and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth." My other pastor friend one from the big uh prayer site, asked me today to tell him about one thing I'm thankful for some big miracle that happened to me in the past --------- few I could choose from have ta ponder that some. (actually really really becoming friends with this pastor - yep friends with pastors I've gone to the kooky lands for sure : ) hahahahahahahhaahahahahahahah
But anyways John 4:24 is the verse that hit me today --------- no halfheartedness, no this lukewarm stuffs, no one foot in the world, NO! God is a spirit; and they that worship him MUST worship him in spirit (aka cause they's walking in the spirit they ain't walking in the flesh none) and in truth (really really really making that daily effort to deny yourself and take up your cross and follow jesus EVEN if your daily effort is COMPLETELY PATHETIC as is my daily effort DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Told god how I'm annoyed sometimes - I get it - I get that the rest of the body of christ knows a bit more then me so they all got their acts more together then me - I get that!!!!!!!!!!! I got the apostle memo on the notepad there!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Corinthians 4:10 "We are fools for Christ's sake, but ye are wise in Christ; we are weak, but ye are strong; ye are honourable, but we are despised." MEMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
But I get frustrated I tell god, cause I think christians really think themselves to be way above me - well ok if you is you still should like esteem me higher it just makes sense to esteem you dink weakling higher then yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Does a fool not speak some sense here????????????????????
 I'll leave you 2 of my 3 pastor friends to ponder that, have a great day : ) paul #2 I can't change that none this weakling just gots to do my best everyday my sad effort cause god he ain't looking for halfheartedness, he ain't looking for no lukewarmness NO he is a spirit "........ and they that worship him must worship him in spirit and in truth." I tell god the body of christ should all look upon me as if I were a king for reals, that I ain't trying to be a butt or nothing, that I am that weak ------------------------- if I get any clue any idea that any christians think they's so much better then me (man I get annoyed with that) I need to stay focused n'stuff, I am 100% epic like that oh don't worry bout that none, I know mike heard the last coin drop in the pond : ) it's bad, but I stand by my whole do my best sad effort everyday idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Sheri -------- the annoyed meter is a little high right now - I tell god I'm like god peter think that was the apostle he was right you ain't no repector of persons and it's true I'm the weakling of the body of christ but if I'm humble, if I'm repentful, making a daily effort - it's my heart you look at...................it no matter how weak I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It matters how I choose to live today and tommorow and the next day --------------------- do I go off and walk in the flesh and sin, or do I make my sad effort to follow jesus everyday ---------------- it's a heart thing,
Sheri

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................

I think I've in the past mistaken what a friend really is.................sheri 2025 in her permanent villian era "if you have to get out binoculars to figure out if someone is your friend or not - go find another friend - them ones ain't trying hard enough".....................AT CHURCH MAKING FRIENDS IS DOOMED ACTIVITY, ALSO ANY CHRISTIANS ANYWHERE MAKING FRIENDS WITH THEM IS A DOOMED ACTIVITY EVERYONE NEARLY IN USA CLAIMS TO BE CHRISTIANS DOOMED TO BE FRIENDLESS COUNTRY IF YOU CHRISTIAN IN USA...........look the bible says your doomed to be friendless, actually you'll be attacked in usa a lot.............Proverbs 17:17 "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Let me get out my villian crystal ball..............(I don't have one just havin fun) ooooh yes the great "falling away" is about to happen in usa baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad............................hahahahhahahhahahahahahha PEOPLE ARE GOING TO WANT FRIENDS EVENTUALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!........................AND TO NOT BE ATTACKED AND HATED ANYMORE........................

This is what one of the tastiest (non-alcoholic) drinks in usa looks like. And it's done only like $3.50!!!!!!!!!!!! The place has clean a drive through!!!!!!!!!!!........................

I think I've in the past mistaken what a friend really is.................sheri 2025 in her permanent villian era "if you have to get out binoculars to figure out if someone is your friend or not - go find another friend - them ones ain't trying hard enough".....................AT CHURCH MAKING FRIENDS IS DOOMED ACTIVITY, ALSO ANY CHRISTIANS ANYWHERE MAKING FRIENDS WITH THEM IS A DOOMED ACTIVITY EVERYONE NEARLY IN USA CLAIMS TO BE CHRISTIANS DOOMED TO BE FRIENDLESS COUNTRY IF YOU CHRISTIAN IN USA...........look the bible says your doomed to be friendless, actually you'll be attacked in usa a lot.............Proverbs 17:17 "A friend loveth at all times, and a brother is born for adversity." Let me get out my villian crystal ball..............(I don't have one just havin fun) ooooh yes the great "falling away" is about to happen in usa baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad............................hahahahhahahhahahahahahha PEOPLE ARE GOING TO WANT FRIENDS EVENTUALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!........................AND TO NOT BE ATTACKED AND HATED ANYMORE........................

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It's no wonder a "brother" is born for adversity. 

There are so many bible verses and people have so many ways they interpret alllllllllllllllllll them verses and then on top of that they all believe they are the "right ones" 

and then they believe they must defend their "beliefs" at all costs

and if you believe different then them

they are very upset and/or offended

Matthew 18:7 "Woe unto the world because of offences! for it must needs be that offences come; but woe to that man by whom the offence cometh!" - Watch people walking around, do they look mad and offended, or do they look happy..............................where I live people look mad and offended..................well usa is a very very very christian country and brothers are born for adversity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a bit of a brit fan : ) 

I wood turned a foot massager today, this is the 1st in a series of em - all will be funky like this one - I being of the belief that a foot massager works better if it is like not uh "equally grooved"

I think I've in the past mistaken what a friend really is...................so set in my mind that "friend" just has to mean people that chat with me on the phone 2 hours a night, and I think I'm wrong about that. It's gotta be like the people your around, the people that are like with a heart for you ------------ isn't that what we need????? A few people with a heart for us, praying for us? I think it is.
And not being on the phone like never, has free'd up much time to crochet : ) and turn wood, and really what would I rather do be on the phone 2 hours, or turning some pretty chess pieces : )
My friends will see me when they see me : ) -------- maybe I've gone kooky now : )
I've decided online chating just isn't working out for me in general...............to many people that are online waiting to start a fight start something. All I want to start right now, is turning some chess pieces : )
Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends." Yep I'm not wealthy hahahahahahahahah not envying the rich people either, that's tiring to have like parties all the time YIE no free time to turn no wood on the lathe then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 John 1:14 "But I trust I shall shortly see thee, and we shall speak face to face. Peace be to thee. Our friends salute thee. Greet the friends by name." was paul all hanging out friday night with all these "friends" naw, but he was still friends with them, and they were friends to him
I've had it cracked in my head for the longest time that I need to go gallavanting around otherwise I'm a complete 0. To god I'm sure I'm not a 0. Who cares what the world thinks about me????????????

I greatly lately suspect in the humblest lowliest of places on the earth I can be the closest to god, and that my lowly spot isn't so bad afterall Isaiah 57:15 "For thus saith the high and lofty One that inhabiteth eternity, whose name is Holy; I dwell in the high and holy place, with him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones."
plus I have a lot of time to turn wood, going to make chess pieces, and golf tee's if I can manage it, and christmas ornaments : ) (so far all I've turned on my lathe is wood bangle bracelets which made great christmas gifts 2 years ago : )
I trust god, trusting god that everything that is happen/happening in my life is for a reason, for my salvations sake, cause surely god cares, surely he wishes for me to be saved, surely he hasn't forgotten me. He loves you to, trust me he does, and he gave his only son that John 3:15 "That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life"
yep pry turning some wood today : )
  ------ one more thing...........in the past I've complained a lot I don't have so many friends woes me but that isn't god's will for me...................1 Thessalonians 5:18 "In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." It SURELY isn't god's will that I go off to the earth bellymoaning which is what I've been doing. But to give thanks, that I have all this free time open to pursue my wood turning hobby this much ------------ it's not a bad thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

   It's all perspective.......................there's a limbless brother that talks to like all of christianity he's pretty cool THANKFUL HE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He could be all belly moaning but he ain't he's chosen to be thankful (I give that brother extra props cause if I was in his spot.........................I'd pry be such a belly moaning baby the whole earth would pry want to go jump off a cliff) That's gotta be ruff not having arms or legs ----- but that brother I've watched him over the years talk on tv and at my own church..........he stays thankful...........he really draws people to him I think in all his thankfulness. 

 He's surely doing god's will in that! Surely god wants us to be thankful. (well I guess you know god wants us to be thankful cause it's like miserable being all grumbly and miserable and he doesn't wish for us to be like that I don't think) And it's true there is always someone that has it way worse then me!

Luke 6:27 "But I say unto you which hear, Love your enemies, do good to them which hate you,"............................