Giving it to god

I think I've in the past mistaken what a friend really is...................

2012-02-10T11:44:00.001-08:00

I wood turned a foot massager today, this is the 1st in a series of em - all will be funky like this one - I being of the belief that a foot massager works better if it is like not uh "equally grooved"

I think I've in the past mistaken what a friend really is...................so set in my mind that "friend" just has to mean people that chat with me on the phone 2 hours a night, and I think I'm wrong about that. It's gotta be like the people your around, the people that are like with a heart for you ------------ isn't that what we need????? A few people with a heart for us, praying for us? I think it is.
And not being on the phone like never, has free'd up much time to crochet : ) and turn wood, and really what would I rather do be on the phone 2 hours, or turning some pretty chess pieces : )
My friends will see me when they see me : ) -------- maybe I've gone kooky now : )
I've decided online chating just isn't working out for me in general...............to many people that are online waiting to start a fight start something. All I want to start right now, is turning some chess pieces : )
Proverbs 14:20 "The poor is hated even of his own neighbour: but the rich hath many friends." Yep I'm not wealthy hahahahahahahahah not envying the rich people either, that's tiring to have like parties all the time YIE no free time to turn no wood on the lathe then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 John 1:14 "But I trust I shall shortly see thee, and we shall speak face to face. Peace be to thee. Our friends salute thee. Greet the friends by name." was paul all hanging out friday night with all these "friends" naw, but he was still friends with them, and they were friends to him
I've had it cracked in my head for the longest time that I need to go gallavanting around otherwise I'm a complete 0. To god I'm sure I'm not a 0. Who cares what the world thinks about me????????????

I greatly lately suspect in the humblest lowliest of places on the earth I can be the closest to god, and that my lowly spot isn't so bad afterall Isaiah 57:15 "For thus saith the high and lofty One that inhabiteth eternity, whose name is Holy; I dwell in the high and holy place, with him also that is of a contrite and humble spirit, to revive the spirit of the humble, and to revive the heart of the contrite ones."
plus I have a lot of time to turn wood, going to make chess pieces, and golf tee's if I can manage it, and christmas ornaments : ) (so far all I've turned on my lathe is wood bangle bracelets which made great christmas gifts 2 years ago : )
I trust god, trusting god that everything that is happen/happening in my life is for a reason, for my salvations sake, cause surely god cares, surely he wishes for me to be saved, surely he hasn't forgotten me. He loves you to, trust me he does, and he gave his only son that John 3:15 "That whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have eternal life"
yep pry turning some wood today : )
------ one more thing...........in the past I've complained a lot I don't have so many friends woes me but that isn't god's will for me...................1 Thessalonians 5:18 "In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you." It SURELY isn't god's will that I go off to the earth bellymoaning which is what I've been doing. But to give thanks, that I have all this free time open to pursue my wood turning hobby this much ------------ it's not a bad thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's all perspective.......................there's a limbless brother that talks to like all of christianity he's pretty cool THANKFUL HE IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He could be all belly moaning but he ain't he's chosen to be thankful (I give that brother extra props cause if I was in his spot.........................I'd pry be such a belly moaning baby the whole earth would pry want to go jump off a cliff) That's gotta be ruff not having arms or legs ----- but that brother I've watched him over the years talk on tv and at my own church..........he stays thankful...........he really draws people to him I think in all his thankfulness.

He's surely doing god's will in that! Surely god wants us to be thankful. (well I guess you know god wants us to be thankful cause it's like miserable being all grumbly and miserable and he doesn't wish for us to be like that I don't think) And it's true there is always someone that has it way worse then me!

fastest way to overcome the earth - count the things of the earth as dung I'm sure of this....................

2011-12-14T22:39:00.000-08:00

fastest way to overcome the earth - count the things of the earth as dung I'm sure of this....................tonight at church I was relieved to hear this verse...........Revelation 3:5 "He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in whiteraiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels." In the past I think I've even said on my blog (oh I'm a fool for jesus be sure of that) that I was sure that you had to have many a good deed to have white garments and make it into heaven.......but look at revelations 3:5 "He that overcometh, THE SAME shall be clothed with white raiment" that's it, that's what I need to do I've decided overcome this earth!!!!!!!!!
I'm confessing here, this a fool 100% fool confession, this the kind of fool I am..............I've sat and I've drooled over sports cars for many a year oooooooooo look at that car, look at that car FOOLISHNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I keep my flesh down like paul says..............1 Corinthians 9:27 "But I keep under my body, and bring it into subjection: lest that by any means, when I have preached to others, I myself should be a castaway." Don't envy the luxuriousness that some this world has THE THINGS OF THE EARTH IS DUNG!!!!!!!!! Philippians 3:8 "Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ" sports cars DUNG, diamond rings DUNG, penthouses in switzerland DUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahah I'm serious though. None that stuffs will get you to heaven!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What going to get you to heaven - oh ya, overcoming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

To me it's like so a b c

a -------------- Galatians 5:16 "This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh." Want to overcome the world WALK IN THE SPIRIT I highly recommend creflo dollar : ) YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA CREFLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (and kirk cameron ; ) ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh ye is a fool sheri

b ---------------- count all things of this earth AS DUNG....................we are supposed to overcome the world............not be stuck in the "what's the latest fashions this week, uh oh better go to like nordstroms and take a look hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah" hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaah ahhhhhhhhh CHUCK THE FASHION MAGAZINES ALL TOGETHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! stupidness

Fashion IS STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (though yesterday at the goodwill outlet down the street there was a lady that I wanted to like kidnap and dress a bit better - she had on jeans and they were like rolled up as if she was waiting for a flood and then she had tacky fuzzy socks on like all pulled up high and then like boots ---------------- sometime's I don't know, well guess if ya all want to hurt my eyeballs go ahead long as ye's not loving the things of the earth!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

This concludes this fools ramblings for today : ) hahahahahaahahahahahahahahahah if the joy of the lord is my strength like the bible says I'M ANDREA THE GIANT RIGHT NOW take that satan I will not love the things of the earth NO WAY

few things I need in life.........................................

my chickens to watch while I'm drinking coffee (ya know jesus got a 100% fool with me : ) hahahaha

my sauna

few good christian bands to listen to gotta get my jesus groove on! 12 STONES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya that about covers it

fashions so stupid, soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo stupid, have a great week earth : )

1 Corinthians 6:16 You can't pimp yourself out to the world and think you just didn't join up with that

2011-12-09T12:40:00.000-08:00

1 Corinthians 6:16 You can't pimp yourself out to the world and think you just didn't join up with that.............naw........it don't work that way............1 Corinthians 6:16 "What? know ye not that he which is joined to an harlot is one body? for two, saith he, shall be one flesh."

Naw you come out "from among them" AND BE YE SEPARATE don't go pimping yourself out to this world and be's thinkin with yourself you didn't just join up with THAT 2 Corinthians 6:17 "Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you." See it, catch it....................come out from among them, and be ye separate..........touch not the unclean thing (aka porn, drugs, mmmmmm yummy yummy drugs, etc. of delightfulness) and then and then when you's done came out from among them and be ye's separate and not touching the unclean things no more..................AND I WILL RECEIVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(xoxoxoxox living hope church, apostolic christian church of america and the body of christ in general) and I need prayer, that I keep a safe distance from my "thorn in the flesh" a real good safe distance!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Don't be ----------------- earth, god don't want ya joined up with the harlot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! He wants ya out of her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't be little ------------------------ (little bit to close to my "thorn in the flesh" at the moment, doing all I can to remedy this """"""""situation"""""""""")

I think I'm like dead uh you win apostolic christian church of america!!!!!!!!!.................

2011-12-07T13:01:00.000-08:00

Avenged sevenfold is right................................

She's a dwelling place for demons.

She's a cage for every unclean spirit, every filthy bird

and makes us drink the poisoned wine to fornicating with our kings.

Fallen now is Babylon the Great.

I think I'm like dead uh you win apostolic christian church of america!!!!!!!!!.................tellin mike today..............."I'm not like dead right, I'm still alive. Live this new life................Romans 6:4 "Therefore we are buried with him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life." and that mike is why I have a buffet I can just pull out bible verses like that on a whim!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I think I'm like totally dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know, um this like doesn't like suck?????????????????? ummmmmmmmmmmmmmm uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah sad face : (
I tell mike I can't afford to no longer walk in the flesh and all "drink the poisoned wine to the fornicating with our kings" I have enough issues with my hecka official "thorn in the flesh" that's just stickin to me like GLUE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Besides that, it's a serious issue babylon the great...............this is the message god wanted me to give the earth loud and clear.......................Revelation 18:4 "And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues."

And have a great day earth : )

I've decided we all are in a war, and there's no getting out of it, satan and the demons aren't just going to disappear!!!!!!!! Ephesians 6:12....................

2011-11-27T18:16:00.000-08:00

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I've decided we all are in a war, and there's no getting out of it, satan and the demons aren't just going to disappear!!!!!!!! Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." I wish we all could have a day off to party and do all the drugs we want - I really do! Trust me I really do! We in a war! There no day offs, satan don't rest satan don't nap..............1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:"

I ain't been winning the war at all either lately.............the good news is now these days at least I can recognize when I'm kinda slipping back into the occult............I'm able to stop myself - via much going to church, much reading the word of god --------- it's a war we all in it!!!!!!!!!! I may be in the thick of things more then most, but we are all surely in this war "against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places" nobody not in this war!!!!!!!

I'm totally going to like living hopes living free pry this week, takes going to church 2-3 times a week for me anymore to stay in the light ------- it is what it is ------------- Ecclesiastes 2:13 "Then I saw that wisdom excelleth folly, as far as lightexcelleth darkness." I feel it's better to fight the war then just let the darkness sink in!!!!!!! My aunts church (apostolic christian church of america) man they know what to preach : ) they know they gotta remind me hell is real and often!

(can't just sit around and let the darkness all sink in!!!!!!!!!! there's a war to wage!!!!!!!!!!!!! god wants zeal he wants fire!!!!!!! He wants us to fight to be in the light (fight the good fight of faith)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - where there's peace...............John 14:27 "Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.")

I'm not at all simple I'm pretty intensely complex but I like these verses can I claim them for myself anyways : ) cause I'd like to do that fully : ) Psalm 116:6-7 "The LORD preserveth the simple: I was brought low, and he helped me. Return unto thy rest, O my soul; for the LORD hath dealt bountifully with thee." That's what sin'll do it'll bring you low..............and pain...................PAIN...............................Psalm 116:3-4 "The sorrows of death compassed me, and the pains of hell gat hold upon me: I found trouble and sorrow. Then called I upon the name of the LORD; O LORD, I beseech thee, deliver my soul."

ahhhhhhhhh god'll forgive ----------- don't sit in pain!!!!!!!!!!! PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And get to fighting the good fight of faith Psalm 116:9 "I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living." Where's the land of the living, ah ya it's walking before the LORD - we were once all dead Ephesians 2:1 "And you hath he quickened, who were dead in trespasses and sins;" DON'T BE DEAD!!!!!!!!!!! Be alive in christ Romans 6:11 "Likewise reckon ye also yourselves to be dead indeed unto sin, but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord."

I was once a real bound up person, to the occult, to the lusts of the flesh............

2011-11-22T22:02:00.000-08:00

I love this band so much!

I was once a real bound up person, to the occult, to the lusts of the flesh............finally getting it, oh that's what the bible means when it talks about jesus setting a person free (I've found it to be something that happens to you when you heed god's word for a bit) John 8:36 "If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be freeindeed." For the longest time I told myself I had all the power and all the control in the occult but it just wasn't the case, I was really bound to that stuffs!
This is full out my verse for today : ) Titus 3:3 "For we ourselves also were sometimes foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving divers lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful, and hating one another." I was once so bound to all that stuffs, for so long I've carried around so much hate, so much ick! Recently I've hit this point where I'm like WHOA you have became a cesspool inside..........I don't want to be filthy NO MORE getting clean, being being in gods word in the day being in the light where jesus blood can cleanse me I'm in love with this bible verse lately 1 John 1:7 "But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin." ARE YOU FILTHY TO OUT THERE??????????????????? You don't have to stay that way!!!!!!!!!!!!
Instead of riding the top of the occult like I was, I've found it's better to be broken at the foot of the cross Matthew 21:44 "And whosoever shall fall on this stone shall be broken: but on whomsoever it shall fall, it will grind him to powder." where I can be healed set free by jesus
There's 0 power here for me in this lowest of places, not such the power trip place, but I'm getting clean, it'll take awhile - I'm a little extra filthy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I finally don't want to be involved in the occult no more, I think this time it's really really really for good, that god won, jesus won, I want them to win, I don't want to be filthy no more! Things have gotten way way way way to outta hand lately - I surrendor!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm tired of being completely filthy, I'm tired of being SICK.

Isaiah 1:18 "Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool." Lot of crimson god, lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot! I'm tired of the filth good and tired. Forking myself over to jesus! I'm yours jesus!

I don't want to do drugs, or the occult, or porn, ------------ I'm done being filthy. DONE. I want to get clean and stay clean, and not be in agony not be bound no more.

Was at like full out crisis point today - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................

2011-11-18T01:44:00.000-08:00

Was at like full out crisis point today (domino effect happens with me, one bad thing, then another, and another and eventually I CRACK) - god showed up so big for me today I know He loves me....................I went to bible study (my estimating with myself it'd help to "get my head together") god was in me so much tonight, He really knew I was big time having a crisis and was determined to reach out and touch me. People hugged me a lot tonight, and the lady running the whole thing rubbed my back which is a miracle cause there are 250+ women at this serious coffee bible study thing.
Like everyone else in this world I worry about so much, I worry about what's going to happen with me, what's my future look like I worry about it.................knowing I'm that loved at living hope, that I'm that loved - my aunts church to loves me much I know they do...........makes a huge difference for me in my life. And especially that god showed up so big for me tonight.
Really mind blowing how much god was with me tonight. He's really getting to me lately.............He's cracked in...................He's cracked into my heart. And I'm left wondering with myself - why did I ever sin in the 1st place? Why did I ever distance myself from god in the 1st place? This love HIS love is what I needed all along!
---------- I'm going to fess up to something, sometimes I sit and listen to other christians testify thinking to myself it all is so cheese. But man maybe I'm a cheese to god/jesus/holy spirit makes all the difference in the world for me --------------- anything could happen to me and I know long as I got god/jesus/holy spirit I's going to be ok. God showing up big for me tonight letting me know how much He loves me - it's all good! Let the cheese roll : ) it's holy cheese hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahahaahahahaahahahah (sheri dang you have to much fun being a christian hahahahaahahahahahaaha)

I think repentance is supposed to be like permanent, like a continual state of being.................

2011-11-16T10:23:00.000-08:00

'Cause I'm broken

I know I need you now

'Cause deep inside I'm broken

You see the way I live

I know I know your heart is broken

When I turn away

I need to be broken

Take the pain away

Finished, passed final exam on my 1st module in medical billing and coding yesterday : ) today I'm on a study break : )
At my other church living hope, my serious coffee bible study, pricilla shrier think that's her name she said, you like mourn a bit and then knock that off, all living hope is all all about that idea I guess but to me it just didn't hit me as the thing??????? (the rest of the bible study I ain't had no problem with, rest it been pretty good : ) Acts 26:20 "But shewed first unto them of Damascus, and at Jerusalem, and throughout all the coasts of Judaea, and then to the Gentiles, that they should repent and turn to God, and do works meet for repentance." it just hits me repentance as a continual state of being in, a present tense word - not stopping mourning the wrong you did........wouldn't that make a person then unrepentant if they stopped mourning the bad they did? And I think it's also important to never forget..........Revelation 2:5 "Remember therefore from whence thou art fallen, and repent, and do the first works; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will remove thy candlestick out of his place, except thou repent." this verse is talking about christians that have went out of repentance.........."except thou repent"

God's laid it on me that this is how I am to be, in repentance, doing works meet of that, if only 2-3 good works a month or week DO THOSE. Why I stay in jesus jail, cause I know I've grieved god a slew in the past, and have grieved myownself I was making myself miserable I was completely in torment torment is the word I'd use Ephesians 5:6 "Let no man deceive you with vain words: for because of these things cometh the wrath of God upon the children of disobedience." I've decided I'd rather be in repentance, then in torment having the wrath of god upon me, it's not like when I do bad bad bad that I don't know oh ya god's pry not happy with me, also I know oh ya if I die today I'm going to hell - not the place to be.
Psalm 51:16-17 "For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise"

The good news is jesus never forsake me Hebrews 13:5 "Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee." I went a real stupid road and then I repented (which was totally the right choice - don't stay on the stupid path, go repent) and there was jesus!!!!!!!!!!!! With sooooooooooooooooooo much love for me..........everytime he visits me............my heart oozes with love for him............he has such a heart for me, and so much abundant peace about him the peace I lack by myself!!!!!!!! The peace I NEED! Without jesus I'm a mess!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Malachi 4:2 "But unto you that fear my name shall the Sun of righteousness arise with healing in his wings; and ye shall go forth, and grow up as calves of the stall." I have found healing in jesus's wings (I not sure what the "grow up as calves of the stall means" god sure likes to use the animal anologies in the bible!) This off topic, but god spoke to me audibly one day (I was in the shower singing a britney spears song having a great time and all the sudden the holy spirit filled the room THICK I knew god was super near, and He told me "come out of her my people" Revelation 18:4 "And I heard another voice from heaven, saying, Come out of her, my people, that ye be not partakers of her sins, and that ye receive not of her plagues." the worlds system of living laviously buying much goods ------------ I jumped out the shower flew out almost killed myself turning off that radio here I was god caught me sitting having a super fab time singing britney spears of all things I was sure I was about to be struck dead by lightning)

Revelation 18:7 "How much she hath glorified herself, and lived deliciously, so much torment and sorrow give her: for she saith in her heart, I sit a queen, and am no widow, and shall see no sorrow." ALL YOU OUT THERE IN THE WORLD MAYBE GOING TO CHURCH MAYBE NOT GET OUT THE WORLDS SYSTEM "COME OUT OF HER MY PEOPLE" do like me (refer to 2 blog posts down hahahahah frequent rite aid and walgreens hahahahahahahahahahahah ROCK N ROLL)
Revelation 18:15 "The merchants of these things, which were made rich by her, shall stand afar off for the fear of her torment, weeping and wailing," Someday jesus will return and all those in the worlds system, all buying buying buying buying buying buying they going to have "so much torment and sorrow give her" SO MUCH!
Repent now! Seek jesus now! And hope your week is going good earth, don't buy nothing, less it's at rite aid or walgreens hahahahahahahahahahahahah (ok sheri let that joke die, ahhhhhhhhhh common though myself it's fab : )
You can tell I've been listening to the apostolic christian church of america a lot they've had quite a impact on me.............Mark 1:15 "And saying, The time is fulfilled, and the kingdom of God is at hand: repent ye, and believe the gospel." one the fairbury apostolic christian church of america pastors said on sermon I listened to online this was the whole idea of having a ministry to try and get people to repent and "believe the gospel" and that theses days you hardly hear no preachers anywhere talking about repenting - but that's originally how apostles ministries/and other vocations ministries were prominently about. Psalm 51:16-17 ".............. The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise" the proud god knows a far off, he wants us humble, he wants us of a broken spirit in repentance I believe.

Ephiphamy - god doles out his goodies to the upright in heart.................

2011-11-09T10:50:00.000-08:00

what I do today always comes back to me tomorrow

I tell mike I can't escape myself where would I run???????????????

Ephiphamy - god doles out his goodies to the upright in heart.................Psalm 125:4 "Do good, O LORD, unto those that be good, and to them that are upright in their hearts." bestest ya all go to church on sundays, and watch christian tv shows like I do..........eat that (having to edit myself god is watching his prisoner after all) up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What happens to everyone in my vocation (cause we all battle being upright in heart it's a battle for everyone in my vocation if it weren't I don't think these verses would exist or if they did it'd say "with the exception of those kinda wiser fools" or something --------- like I'm not the only one battling this)....................1 Corinthians 4:11-13 "Even unto this present hour we both hunger, and thirst, and are naked, and are buffeted, and have no certain dwelling place; And labour, working with our own hands: being reviled, we bless; being persecuted, we suffer it:"
Psalm 7:10 "My defence is of God, which saveth the upright in heart." It's the destination for me, I'm still on the journey.
In jesus's bathtub................ 1 John 1:7 "But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin." getting clean, getting clean, lot's of dirt, lot's and lot's and lot's of dirt. Walk in the light, stay in the light that's where.............the bath is..................."and the blood of jesus christ his son cleanseth us from all sin" ---------- gone there hugh sheri..................................ya, I don't want to be filthy no more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you want long life - turn to god.........

2011-11-08T10:30:00.000-08:00

god didn't appear to like my original video choice for this blog post, ahhhhh more sixx a.m. god then k : )

This is a topic I'm especially passionate about having a long life ------- somedays I'm a bit of a butt to god, and I told god I'm sorry it was bad I'll try to do better, and I told god.............Ezekiel 18:21 "But if the wicked will turn from all his sins that he hath committed, and keep all my statutes, and do that which is lawful and right, he shall surely live, he shall not die." surely live, and shall not die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I turned from the sins (more then just the wicked stuffs, this verse speaks to me it says "all his sins" not just the """"bad"""" ones but all them even the sins that you think aren't that bad)!!!!!!!!!!! You turn from that and you shall surely live and not die!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It's possible to make sure you live a long life Proverbs 3:1-2 "My son, forget not my law; but let thine heart keep my commandments: For length of days, and long life, and peace, shall they add to thee." (as I tell mike today, a long life could mean 50 years, or 60 years??????????????? but anyways you know awhile : )
DIrect copy and paste some of one my e-mails to mike today..............Psalm 91:14-16 --------- "Because he hath set his love upon me, therefore will I deliver him: I will set him on high, because he hath known my name. He shall call upon me, and I will answer him: I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him, and honour him. With long life will I satisfy him, and shew him my salvation." I tell god in my defense at least I'm not walking in the flesh no more, though I be occasionally completely obnoxious so that's some improvement............who is god going to show His salvation to ya he who hath "SET HIS LOVE UPON ME"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT THE EARTH OR THE THINGS OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Then you get long life, and salvation most definately!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You might tell me well sheri what about that bible verse that says to learn to number your days........................................ya I numbered them : ) hahahahahahahahahaahaahahahahahahahahah

I've said this before on my blog for the currently ill.......................up your faithfulness that's my #1 advice give to the poor I don't know knit hats for orphans....................Proverbs 3:7-8 "Be not wise in thine own eyes: fear the LORD, and depart from evil. It shall be health to thy navel, and marrow to thy bones." really speaks to me this verse, that departing from evil is actual real tangible "health to thy navel, and marrow to they bones" DON'T DO NO EVIL OUT THERE YIKES

Most pastors on tv these days all about telling christians how they can get wealthy but for me wealth ain't what I'm desiring no more --------- it's health - it's a long life..........also I took note.............Job 2:6 "And the LORD said unto Satan, Behold, he is in thine hand; but save his life." God like let satan afflict job with illnesses and boils etc. but notice, god said clearly to satan """""""but save his life"""""""""" you all catchin what I'm saying???????????? It's hella good a to turn from alllllllllllllllllllllllll your evil............hella good to .Psalm 91:14-16 --------- "Because he hath set his love upon me,............." SET YOUR LOVE ON GOD NOT THE EARTH OR THE THINGS OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!! A person really really really can obtain long life, and health ---------- well satan can like smite some us with some illnesses --------------- but god did not allow job to die...............somethings I highlight with a big neon marker..............he did not allow job to die!

Money is wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy overrated earth the televangelist just haven't gotten that memo let me give it to ya money's overrated. Listening to fairbury's apostolic christian church of america this morning pastor mentioned this verse and I much agree...............1 Timothy 6:8 "And having food and raiment let us be therewith content."

Long life people that's the thing to try and grab : ) the scirge of the earth not making this up!!!!!!!!!!!!! (my very spot in the body of christ I've turned into a occasion for a laugh - you know here and there - I try to all be sober in the day and am doing much better with that, but laughter it surely does get me through a day)
----------- side note at the end of my blog.............I telling god today I used to like mess up and really beat myself up, like I used to like super beat myself up everytime I bought a piece of jewelry (ahhhhhhh look at me, I'm just like the world, I'm weak and worthless -------- those were the thoughts that used to run around in my head) I've since learned "finishing the course" it's a whole process 2 Timothy 4:7 "I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith:" I don't think paul said that til he was really old!!!!!!!!!!! I could be wrong but I'm pretty sure I'm not, paul was old when he finished the course I'm pretty 100% about that. -------- I'm not though saying just go on a free for all go on a gucci spree ----------- if you do crack and buy a designer stupid 500 dollar purse uhhhhhhhhhhh I guess enjoy your stupid purse at that price YIKES hahahahahahahahahahahahahah women and their purses I'm a tom boy I usually don't carry a purse I feel bad about it, like I'm like not even like much a girl freakin can't even make myself carry a purse. (so I be's not tempted to buy no 500 purse hahahahahahaha ??????????????????????????spending 500 for a purse................99 cents : ) 99 cents and throw in a free makeup bag : ) ok I'll stop.
I realize I might be ridiculously bad for the economy ------------- ahhhhhhhhh but think of all the things you can buy at rite aid and walgreens hahahahahaahahahahahahahahaahahahahaahahahahahahahaahah bubble bath yep that's jesus ok, hand lotion yep grab that, perfume well don't think jesus wants us stinky, hahahahahahahaahahahahahaahah ---------- trying to not snowplow the economy. Designer purses though : p it's always better to be a good steward with your money if you already bought a stupid 500 dollar purse fine just don't do that again - why cause 500 dollar purses are lamo it's a purse you tote it around and you put crude in it...........clearly I don't get the earth and am not a part of it.
oh and don't look at my 2 previous posts and connect the utter fool of the earth dots k : )

Ever just sit and watch people at wal mart, I recommend it.............

2011-11-02T10:28:00.000-07:00

punk = me

Ever just sit and watch people at wal mart, I recommend it.............I know people like make fun of wal mart, some people hate wal mart pry for good reason, I keep hearing how they are dinging employee's it's kinda like a horror movie to me. I'm like a total people watcher, I love to go a nearby mall and get carmel popcorn and watch the ice skaters and watch the people one my fave things to do (seriously). But man the people watching at wal mart is Par 1...............I can feel how hard HARD some their lives are/were, I can actually feel that!!!!!!!!!!! But I also see, hope all around me! ------------- am I going to get in trouble for saying this...........they ain't given up! Like for reals like 90% of the people at wal marts, if I was them.................................................................
Little to honest there sheri! Ya but don't miss the highlight of the show that is my blog ----------- I also see hope all around me.
Job 8:13 "So are the paths of all that forget God; and the hypocrite's hope shall perish:" Hope hope is a beautiful thing, and I saw it ALL OVER THE PLACE AT MY LOCAL WAL MART. What else could account for those people still walking on the earth but that they have hope for something. And the workers of wal mart I paid attention to them to, really hell would almost seem like a better option to me then working at wal mart..............they never change the decor there for 1, if your a cashier beep beep beep beep beep beep all day long, they wear blue vest don't they some them do HIDEOUS, the lighting the lighting of the place ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh - people work at wal mart and they like end the day and don't kill themselves, amazing to me. hahahahah to honest sheri too a honest
Psalm 16:9 "Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoiceth: my flesh also shall rest in hope."
If those people's I saw at wal mart can trudge along in live, surely I need to man up n'stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have a great week earth!

How the goodness of god lead me leading me to repentance......................

2011-10-30T20:33:00.000-07:00

I don't like to eat food so much these days, my will to live is less, well cept last night I ate like 2 pieces of pie but that's pie people let's not get crazy! Everybody pray that help is on the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. update --- one my friends has talked me down from the ledge (but uh I will like still not eat somedays cause I kinda enjoy it from time to time - jesus came for the sick)

Ya my testimony never ends hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaah................Romans 2:4 "Or despisest thou the riches of his goodness and forbearance and longsuffering; not knowing that the goodness of God leadeth thee to repentance?" So like one night I was being attacked by a demon (common fair for me - they get physical with me and everything rather violent little buggers!) they've figured out what scares me --------- I don't even know how they even accessed that info in the abyss of my soul like that????????????? And eventually I couldn't take anymore............I yelled out "god please help me" BAM that demon was GONE. At that moment I felt god's intense love for me, really got to me, that and He was clearly I could tell He was there waiting for me to call out to Him, like a parent seeing that their kid is about to fall off the bike and getting ready to run up and rescue their child! That's what's going to keep me out of the occult - thinking on god's love for me. I don't need the demons I don't need satan............I have god/jesus who love me much and want good things for me (not a dark tortured little hole!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
These verses catch my eye to.......................
Romans 2:9-10 "Tribulation and anguish, upon every soul of man that doeth evil, of the Jew first, and also of the Gentile; But glory, honour, and peace, to every man that worketh good, to the Jew first, and also to the Gentile:" That's like present tense "tribulation and anguish, upon every soul of man the doeth evil" ya that's how it is for me when I'm stupid and in the occult TRIBULATION AND ANGUISH. And what is "worketh good" I think this my take : ) loving people being decent to each other, not not having to do with the occult, walking the straight and narrow doing like not the evil. So like theoretically I theorize staying in jesus's jail..........I should eventually obtain "glory, honour, and peace" that's the plan : ) in jaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiillllllllllllllllllllllllll
There's another verse in the bible somewhere talks about being under the wrath of god also on this theme Romans 1:18 "For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who hold the truth in unrighteousness;" See those is christians people with the word of god, but they's up to no good!!!!!!!!!!!!! You up to no good out there BESTEST STOP THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Crud love people, freakin do as much good as you can do in a day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't want the wrath of god on ya!!!!!!!!!!! OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO NO NO NO! Hey god, ya I be's after yer brownie points : ) being real good in jail : ) ---------- I'm still a complete punk and last night in particular I was on a roll - it's was bad bad bad bad, went up to a fellow punk not wanting to be out punked like a punk santa with punk presents in my sleigh to dole out. I'm gonna try harder, I totally want god's brownie points for sure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And His brownies : )
This verse super spoke to me today to Ephesians 4:1-2 "I therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you that ye walk worthy of the vocation wherewith ye are called, With all lowliness and meekness, with longsuffering, forbearing one another in love;" Where it says "with all lowliness" love it, I got the lowliness thing in the bag ROCK N ROLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sheri that's obnoxious --------- I might be a punk for the rest of my life...........determined to be jesus's punk : )

Dyed my hair jet black, have decided this is my shade : ) I am a punk let's not pretend otherwise shall we............

Hey myself, hey keep that there cat in the bag ok, do yourself 1 favour, keep that cat in the bag, stay a prisoner of jesus K

confessions of a tortured soul a addict not drugs I'm addicted to but a addict................

2011-10-27T14:56:00.000-07:00

I am a addict no doubt about it, not to drugs but a addict to something!!!!!!!!!!! YIKES, that this song is apparently having to do with recovery, fitting..........
"All of my devils are free at last
And all my secrets revealed
And your permission is all I
Need to heal"

A person can stay in the sickness, or get better!!!!!!!!!!!!! I relate to these lyrics from sixx a.m. song to.............

"I wake up in the morning, and it comes back to you I breathe in I breathe out, it comes back to you
I stare up at the ceiling, and it comes back to you
I step out my front door, and it comes back to you
The end of my driveway, it comes back to you
Brakelights on the highway, it comes back to you
I could die in Los Angeles.
It would come back to you."

Comes back to god for me, look up at the ceiling - yep. breathe in breathe out - yep. I'm a addict. Stoppings so hard.

I think non-addicts, ya they have issues and pain, but they must have like some coping mechanism -------- we don't have!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm not doing drugs....................naw my addiction is elsewhere................................same result I get from it................removes me from the earth......................I go somewhere else. Far away from here, from reality, this place where people die, and people sin and like don't care and like are like much many going to hell they don't care, a place of pain pain pain, even the saints experience pain, so much pain................makes a person just want to check out (I'm saying it's not so crazy the idea of someone wanting to go to a bar for instance and drink til they can't see straight)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went to like 1 AA style meeting and pry should like go to more, realizing I have a addiction.............that's pry worse then drugs. And I also realize that I could go into using drugs with ease.................I'm in continual danger of that.............being already in that mindset. But I don't think any drug would get me, where my addiction gets me..............I'm sayin my addiction get's me higher then any drug would a actual high. Here I am I want to stop, and I still catch myself doing it - well it's a addiction then...............you can't just stop often cold turkey................all sorts of underlying issues that put you in that addict diseased sort of mindset to begin with.

Can't even enjoy life in it...........life more abundantly John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." Freakin smell the flowers! I've like tried to say on my blog that drugs are from the devil he comes to steal and kill and to destroy. Jesus wants you to have life, a abundant life, a happy life, not one in a tortured little dark hole.

I might go to more AA meetings............trying to set up some counseling right now (god needs to work with me here)........to get better ya gotta all talk it out n'stuffs I know. """"""""if you work it, it'll work for you"""""""""

I have gotten good at hiding it skilled in it, crazy skilled. Isaiah 29:15 "Woe unto them that seek deep to hide their counsel from the LORD, and their works are in the dark, and they say, Who seeth us? and who knoweth us?" Least I fess up to god, He's watching, He's see's, anything you alls be's doing in the dark He sees!!!!!!!!!!!! Bestest ya go fesser up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

No snort He don't notice, none under the radar. mourn, mourn that's my new thing mourning Ecclesiastes 7:4 "The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth."

Locked myself up in jesus's jail real good, threw away the key, threw it away GONE..............so that's the good news : ) see I ended this blog post on a real cheery note : ) maximum security.

black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses, black roses,

no party in the usa DON'T DO IT shut down the clubs........................

2011-10-26T14:36:00.000-07:00

no no no no no miley cyrus you need to go to church common!

I am definately bought with a price, I not 100% what that all means to me but I sure am................and all christians are bought with a price us of jewish lineage heart soul extra bought, but mainstream christian also (god got the receipt on my butt, I done wrote it out printed it out whatever and handed to him on a silver platter) 1 Corinthians 6:20 "For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's." God wants me to put up this verse to...............1 Corinthians 7:23 "Ye are bought with a price; be not ye the servants of men." you can serve men by like kissing up to them for earthly gain n'stuff or flat out serving them for what you can get from them god don't want us doing that, just serving Him. In everything you do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For the gentiles out there...........................let me translate how us of the (christian) jewish persuasion/heart/soul read a lot of the bible......................Leviticus 19:28 "Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the LORD." this is the kind of receipt god has of my butt............................I read this like AND YOU WILL NOT DO THAT NAW NAW NAW and whenever god is especially not messing around with the jews he'll add in the bible "............I am the lord" as in NAW you will not be doing that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The fools of my people's uh uh YOU WILL NOT BE DOING THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -------------- me writing out the receipt handing it to god
There's benefits to being completely bought and owned...................writing out the receipt to my butt and handing it to god is not the worst thing that could happen to me by far.
This world, people look like they are doing great, and many them out there party partying by the way partiers it ain't going to go well for you in that 1 Corinthians 6:10 "Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God." The party it is going on hanna montana sings "it's a party in the usa" it's allllllllllllllllll going to catch up with them someday not now no, not now but someday judgement day.......................bestest ya also out there write out a receipt on your butt and hand it to god!!!!!!!!!!!!....................1 Peter 4:2-3 "That he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men, but to the will of God. For the time past of our life may suffice us to have wrought the will of the Gentiles, when we walked in lasciviousness, lusts, excess of wine, revellings, banquetings, and abominable idolatries:"
Reading the bible to my youngest tonight while she took a bath..............these verses AWESOME I can kinda testify that this is the case!..................
Job 5:7-11 "Yet man is born unto trouble, as the sparks fly upward. I would seek unto God, and unto God would I commit my cause: Which doeth great things and unsearchable; marvellous things without number: Who giveth rain upon the earth, and sendeth waters upon the fields: To set up on high those that be low; that those which mourn may be exalted to safety."
I'm in the lowest place possible, my vocation alone is some visibleness of god raising up my lowly self, seems the lower I get the higher god raises me, I am pretty severely low in all ways right now. To this day I mess up entire days I'm not a squave as the rest of the body of christ not so able on my own, less god be's strengthen me a lot stuffs just don't get done, whatever small good stuffs I be doing I annoy god with remembrance of it, stuffs you all would just do and forget about that you even did that good thing. I'm in such a low place I gotta mark whatever good I do with a flourescent marker in heaven clean across the sky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My lowly self is just going to stay camped out with god/jesus! : ) NO PARTY HANNA MONTANA NAW!!!!!!!!!!!!! NAW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO PARTY NO PARTY IN THE USA FORGET IT CLOSE DOWN YOUR CLUBS PEOPLE STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! people are surely going to read that and laugh at me (old me would've laughed at that)

I'm a christian jew - I've wanted a tattoo for so long and I just can't get one................

2011-10-24T20:46:00.000-07:00

common people you all know you love a little Hava Nagila : ) hahahah oh geez sheri you are the dork of the earth um ok : )

I'm a christian jew, this me coming out the dredel spinning closet : )................I've wanted a tattoo so bad for so long, many tattoo's I've sat and fantasized about, I can't do it!!!!!!!!!!! Leviticus 19:28 "Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the LORD." I'm the type god says that ok, that's that!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what kind of kooky stuffs I'm confessing to the earth I can't do it, I can't get a tattoo for the life of me, it's against my beliefs, if you were to tie me down and tattoo me I'd go get the tattoo removed it's against my religion. (not that I haven't fantasized much how great it'd be to have various tattoo's, there's been a great many tatt's out there I have looked rather longingly at!!!!!!!!!!)
------------- look at my nose people, jewish, I be a part of the reubenstein family!!!!!!!!!!!! no joke!
The latest bible verse in my bible study to super speak to me Deuteronomy 8:2 "And thou shalt remember all the way which the LORD thy God led thee these forty years in the wilderness, to humble thee, and to prove thee, to know what was in thine heart, whether thou wouldest keep his commandments, or no." Where it says "..................to humble thee" that super spoke to me today............that god so loves his people, so wants us to not just pray really like draw near to Him he wants that so much, so much love He has for us He had it on his heart to "....................to humble thee". That's what god did with me to, and is doing with me, He humbled me greately and I'm thankful He did/is I rather be in this lowly place I thank god that I need him like this, and jesus in my life everyday like this............that there is a cry on my heart out to god daily in prayer I thank god for that. That I want to draw near to god, draw near to jesus, that I have that need. If I was proud, if I was so self sufficient and I don't know confident in my own flesh ------- I wouldn't pry need to pray like I do --------- but it so much more then that.........God humbled me cause He loves me that much!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have a great week earth : )

I really need prayer.......my dreams have gone extra kooky w/this ear infection............

2011-10-22T08:59:00.000-07:00

I really need prayer.......my dreams have gone extra kooky w/this ear infection............I dreamt one part of last night that I was the groundskeeper for a clothing optional gay and lesbian beach (like many gays and lesbians bestest I add that in - pry dreamt this cause I watched a you tube video of this gay kid that was christian and wanted to go into the ministry my heart really went out to that particular kid - what you know about being gay or lesbian sheri? nothing but I do know what it's like to be looked down upon for a impediment not 100% in my control)..............and I was in love with their white palm tree's they were the only people with white palm tree's, and at one point of the year I had to deal with moths that resembled mickey mouse that were especially not nice..........and mushrooms. aka I need prayer! This ear infection is nearly gone, I gotta be at the tail end of it.
I've blown it up to comedic proportions.........had diahrea last night bad was happy about it convinced that that meant I was getting better. I e-mailed my family last night (I keep em updated)..................my comedy ruitine in full swing.................
" My ears, for the 1st time in days - feel good!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can't hear much..............and it's annoyed me, I like to listen to music in the day..............sooooooooooo today when brian came home from work he walked into the computer room only to find me listening to death metal wait for it.............while holding up a sock filled with rice to one my ears hahahahahahahahahahahahah (found out you want your ear to be real dry for the most part - heals up better that way)

And I've been crushing and eating cloves of garlic all day today to ----------------- when brian got home ------------- I thought the place smelled vampirically spectacular ---------- he like opened up a lot of windows n'stuff --------------------don't know what his problem is????????????? hahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahah

Low and behold I've found a way to make being completely miserable absotley absolutely ya fun!"

Listening to more christian radio at night (ears been ringing some) boom I was awake...................one the members of the coors company was talking about jesus ------------------ that'll get my attention, he like sold his share of the coors brewing company wanting to be associated with more christian stuffs n'stuff - then the radio like turned off - like I didn't hit the off button! ------------ so I prayed

I've decided I ain't watching beavis and butthead when the new shows air on tv - I'm working hard to be sober and steadfast in the day 1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:" For me whenever the bible says "be sober" not just saying don't get drunk, don't go off on nut folly tangents --------------- I've finally like found like a certain amount of folly that is like ok with god...............like that funny e-mail I sent last night to my family.........that's ok folly. Having a innocent laugh is ok in a cute ha ha ha e-mail to my family is ok.

It's when I'm not being sober in the day..........been on extra folly, fool, rampages ------- it's not been ok ---------- hiding and/or oking with myself various sins and evils with folly it's not ok -------------- and god don't want me to be like that in the day he wants me to be sober.
God really is 0 respector of persons ----------- I can't play with god the "but god, I'm a weakling card" He's watching me in the day and He's like alright I hope today sheri stays sober. God is watching, nothing get's past god, He's extremely intelligient, don't think you can fool him, out master mind him, or mock him............Galatians 6:7 "Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap." Gotta give god the extra kudos, He knows He knows what kind of fools He's got walking on this earth................He's not unprivy to the extremedies of the utmost folly "aka not sober..............doing all kinds of fill in the fool blanks..........................." naw god knows this is a earth filled with fools, he knows this stuffs unfortunately goes down so he put in Galatians 6:7 in the bible just to let us know he will not be mocked. What you sew you will reap! You going to not be sober ------------------ you going to go sew a bunch of stupid folly stuffs YOU GONNA REAP THAT!!!!!!!!!!!! BE SOBER, BE SOBER, walk in the spirit, I watch 3-4 christian tv shows a day, that's all it's taken for me to not be walking in the flesh, and to remain and be in the light----------------- you walk in the spirit you reap that you start reaping LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sometimes I hurt myself so bad god

thinking in my fool heart you didn't care

and I've tried to tell myself this mascaraid of pain was all there was

but in my heart I knew you

always loved

always cried with me at night

always wanting to hold my hand tight

and I kept running from you for so long but god

I think I'm coming back home

these lyrics my own

My left ear has blistered I need prayer, it's like not going good for me right now.......................

2011-10-20T11:26:00.000-07:00

"You Can't, You Won't And You Don't Stop"
My left ear has blistered I need prayer, it's like not going good for me right now (the meds I got last night supposed to clear it up in a few days --------- it's looking to be a ruff next few days for me).......................and satan if this be's some way for you to retaliate against me there's no stopping this "You Can't, You Won't And You Don't Stop".............Come And Rock The Sure Shot (sure shot being jesus)
"I'm That Kid In The Corner ((((((((((((ya I'm that kid in the corner : ))))))))))))))))
All Fucked Up And I Wanna So I'm Gonna
Take A Piece Of The Pie, Why Not, I'm Not Quitting
Think I'm Gonna Change Up My Style Just To Fit In"
Lyrics the beastie boys.
Ephesians 6:11 "Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil." Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh the wiles of the devil............note to satan I've watched every episode of "the road runner" several times (you know the one w/bugs bunny) just sayin! The road runner says................Isaiah 40:31 "But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint."
Devil he does put roadblocks in our way I believe it, to try and get us to give up, or maybe not run so fast to jesus --------- I know your "wiles" satan. DON'T GIVE UP NEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I tell yelena all I got to do is stay jesus's prisoner for the rest of my life and I know I'll be saved, it's going to happen..........Matthew 24:13 "But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."

Bye, bye coyote!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Going to salem fellowship went well today : ) aka www.brunstad.org "smith's friends"................

2011-10-16T17:26:00.000-07:00

Going to salem fellowship went well today : ) aka www.brunstad.org "smith's friends"................pic is of the inside their main meeting hall and their band........my daughter said that she was having a hard time hearing the people sing to know what words they were singing ---------- I noticed that to............they got a lot of people playing music up there and it's kinda overpowering everyone singing in the church (I think they just need a few sisters or brothers to sing into the microphone for every song ----------- I can sing -------- just sayin!!!!!!!!!!!)
Definately felt the love today : ) Brian accidentally ordered me a snickers candy bar coffee ---------- it wasn't as good as the milky way candy bar coffees they have!
Definately a step in the right direction for me going to salem fellowship today and working on loving them.
Sat and chated with yelena, she remembered that I requested their cement turtle to be left in their playground, it's still there : ) I still like the thing : )
I feel like I need a bible verse to make this blog post all official --- John 13:35 "By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another." Love one another that's my exhortation for the entire body of christ.............I have a lot of love for a lot a lot a lot of christians from like many churches out there I'm glad I do.
1 Thessalonians 3:12 "And the Lord make you to increase and abound in love one toward another, and toward all men, even as we do toward you:" That's all I got for today............got a cold it's ruff, sore throat. Have a great day earth!

I'm thankful I need jesus in my life everyday...................

2011-10-14T09:32:00.000-07:00

only you jesus

Just got done listening to my other churches "faith grows through dieing" sermon http://www.livinghopechurch.com/sermons I myself spent a good part of my life, going to church - then running away and doing my own thing - and I really thought with myself well I went to church I'm a great christian (and often said a nice little prayer in the evening). God does want more then for us to just do church on sundays, he wants a relationship with us, I've found to "give my life to the lord" is so much more then just saying one sinners prayer and then walking away and doing my thing ---------- this is going to sound crazy ----------- but I thank god, I can't make it without jesus in my life! If I hadn't of fallen so far, so so far.........maybe I wouldn't of even needed christ! Mark 2:17 "When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance." There's somebody in my life who isn't "sick" and I really worry about him, cause he ain't given his life to christ and I'm not sure he ever will cause he's not sick! I thank god I am sick - I am sick - there is Romans 7:18 "For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not." that I need christ in my life like this everyday!
There's people out there that they go to church every sunday ----------- they do a lot of good a lot, a lot lot lot more then my demented sad sap butt ------------ but they ain't given their lives to jesus and someday...................Matthew 7:22-24 "Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess unto them, I never knew you: depart from me, ye that work iniquity." And some you out there are pry not completely sick like me completely in need of the dr. that is jesus --------- pray PRAY that's my advice, PRAY I believe everyone anyone can give their heart/life to the lord!
If I wasn't completely "sick" I pry wouldn't be with jesus everyday like this - I completely wouldn't of been, I would've been one those christians going to church every sunday with a nice outward appearance but without having given my whole heart and life to jesus. I would've been one them. So it's actually a good thing I am this "sick" that I need jesus everyday I thank god I need jesus everyday in my life.
It wasn't a abundant life for me, being locked in darkness like that, being um in bondage to a lot of not fun stuffs there's a definate price to be paid for sin Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." I've reaped that in the past that death, at one point I was attacking the body of christ -------- and it was so bad --------- I hated myself so much after I said the things I said to christians I knew were pry struggling anyways here I was attacking them w/the help of the devil --------- death living in death it's no way to be.
I pray stupid prayers to god these days the stupidist ever ---------- if that's all ya have to pray some dork stuffs on your fool heart - PRAY THAT - reach out to jesus today. Get some peace, get some rest for your soul Matthew 11:29 "Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls." As much rest as I can have hahahahahahahhahaha I did "bite the last bullet in the sand" just like I said I did in a previous blog post hahahahaahahahahah sad face : ( hahahahahaha uh scirge of the earth myself ok ya done said to much already end it there!
thank god I'm sick!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god I'm in need of jesus everyday.

"It's time to run from the lies of the beautiful people" nikki sixx.......................

2011-10-11T13:50:00.000-07:00

"It's time to run from the lies of the beautiful people" nikki sixx AMEN I'm feeling this song.............open any fashion magazine LIES the pretty house, pretty car barbie doll dream I DON'T BUY INTO IT

if you empty inside IT'S ALL USELESS (jesus is what it's all about for me)

And also I think to chase after that barbie doll dream ------------ it can cost a person a lot ------------- Mark 8:36 "For what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the wholeworld, and lose his own soul?" IT'S NOT WORTH IT!
I don't think the masses are going to run from the lies of the beautiful people, they should, they pry ain't going to do that...........but I give nikki sixx extra kudos for singing about it, it's a beautiful song he made there.........I'm definately a fan of his.
------------------ on a sidenote, so like my bible study started up.........man this is a good one.............."one in a million" by priscilla Shirer talking about the "perks" of sin.............that satan can sometime's make sinning seem awefully great and like something you don't want to give up. This question stopped me nearly in my tracks................"Why do you think we get so attached to the perks the enemy gives while developing spiritual amnesia about the hardship involved?"
my answer...................."for me the """"perks"""""" are so intense I don't notice the """"hardship"""""""" til I'm 5 inches away from the gates of hell."
So many days god could've snuffed me out and sent me flying to hell fast...........I believe god is love!!!!!!!!!!!!! He waited for me to repent.............not that I would want to ever go back I completely don't.............I've became so sure of god's love for me...............I don't want to be away from jesus/god no more.
Sin all to often leads to bad stuffs ------------ Romans 6:23 "For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." Choose life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
------------ I feel the need to add a bit more............I am so convinced this world is off course Psalm 82:5 "They know not, neither will they understand; they walk on in darkness: all the foundations of the earth are out of course"...........and a lot of it is all due to vanity 2 Kings 17:15 "And they rejected his statutes, and his covenant that he made with their fathers, and his testimonies which he testified against them; and they followed vanity, and became vain, and went after the heathen that were round about them, concerning whom the LORD had charged them, that they should not do like them." How the world do? Ya it do's vanity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It do's vanity!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WAKE UP AMERICA god isn't for you doing drugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....................

2011-10-06T11:32:00.000-07:00

Jeremiah 26:3 "If so be they will hearken, and turn every man from his evil way, that I may repent me of the evil, which I purpose to do unto them because of the evil of their doings." my going theory is that god will clean sometimes penalize someone for their evil doings - if not kill them - penalize them some way! I know the bible says god has 0 turning of shadow and that some would think well why would god allow evil to happen on this earth, why would he allow earthquakes that kill many people...........................but it also says he's just, well really it ain't a turning of shadow it's a just god casting judgement Deuteronomy 32:4 "He is the Rock, his work is perfect: for all his ways are judgment: a God of truth and without iniquity, just and right is he." Not that innocent victims don't get hurt or die............but that there really is 0 turning of shadow with god his ways, HIS WAYS "are judgement; a God of truth and without iniquity, just and right is he".

I'm convinced there is only 2 ways to be on this earth, in the blessings of god, or NOT!

Jeremiah 18:8 "If that nation, against whom I have pronounced, turnfrom their evil, I will repent of the evil that I thought to do unto them." SOS UNITED STATES OF AMERICA what evil you doing out there please PLEASE TURN FROM THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I read a article in like Time magazine about the mexico drug trading crisis going on (lot's people dieing over there) page 27 from the July 11, 2011 time magazine it says................."Americans consume $65 billion worth of illegal drugs annually, roughly what they spend on higher educations, and most of those drugs are either produced in mexico or transit through it" said Tim Padgett/Durango here's the link to the article page 2 of it where the words $65 billion is located http://www.time.com/time/world/article/0,8599,2080608-2,00.html

Sit and think about that for a sec...........$65 billion worth of illegial drugs annually!!!!!!!!!!!! Well no wonder we are in some economic slump!!!!!!!!!!!!! A just god isn't going to go for that..............I'm way with the apostolic christian church of america in that it's best you all not even smoke a cigarette..........................1 Corinthians 6:19 "What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?"

If this country was all so very upright..............god would keep blessing it I really believe that. Whether this country stops it's drug obsession or no, god's word stands..............................

Deuteronomy 28

¹And it shall come to pass, if thou shalt hearken diligently unto the voice of the LORD thy God, to observe and to do all his commandments which I command thee this day, that the LORD thy God will set thee on high above all nations of the earth:
²And all these blessings shall come on thee, and overtake thee, if thou shalt hearken unto the voice of the LORD thy God.
³Blessed shalt thou be in the city, and blessed shalt thou be in the field.

amen god amen!!!!!!! That's 500 billion percent how it is!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know about you all but I want god's blessings to "And all these blessings shall come on thee, and overtake thee," I want god's blessings to assault me, not just be blessed, be real blessed OVERTAKEN with blessings from god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You doing drugs out there ------------- it ain't to late to stop doing your drugs and get blessed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GET BLESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Drugs are from the DEVIL and he only comes to kill and steal and DESTROY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now I'm bout to go sit and drink some coffee and watch my chickens : ) Have a great day earth!

free 80's suspender dress crochet pattern..............

2011-10-03T10:41:00.000-07:00

take t-shirt cut off sleeves like this, then w/a regular sewing machine sew the yokes onto the neck edges

(I sewed two times per yoke rectangle)

I used a size H hook
(takes a half a scene of yarn)
rnd 1 --- Ch 21, sc in 2nd ch from hook, sc across, ch1 turn
rnd 2-5 --- sc across ch 1 turn (repeat 3 times)
rnd 6 --- sc, *ch 5, sk 5, sc* (**across), sc in last sc, ch 1 turn
rnd 7 --- sc in each sc, 5 sc in ch 5's across, ch 1 turn
rnd 8 --- ch 121, sc in 2nd ch from hook, sc total of 20 times across, ch 1 turn
rnd 9 --- sc, *ch 5, sk 5, sc* (**across), sc in last sc, ch 1 turn
rnd 10 --- sc in each sc, 5 sc in ch 5's across, ch 1 turn
rnd 11 --- sc across ch 1 turn (repeat 3 times) FINISH OFF
rnd 12 --- reattach yarn at opposite side of current strap ch, ch 100 make sure neck ch's are untwisted attach w/slip stitch the ch to the other side of other neck ch at the other end
rnd 13 --- sc the inside of the chains and across the yoke top edges all the way around FINISH OFF

(neck straps could be shortened up for a totally different look ---------- I was inspired after watching a 80's bannanarama video got a little bit zealous : )

I'm convinced the demons don't want me to love people....................

2011-09-30T11:18:00.000-07:00

I'm convinced the demons don't want me to love people....................yesterday while thinking just thinking about salem fellowship the "smith's friends" the www.brunstad.org church group I was filled with a super strong demonic presence..............I'm 100% convinced the demons don't want me loving people!!!!!!! They don't want me forgiving people...........they surely don't want me covering up a slew of my sins..............Luke 7:47 "Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, areforgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little isforgiven, the same loveth little." No they want me buried deep in those sins to die in all sin and darkness and hate, that's what the demons want for me!!!!!!!!!!!! It is not in their """"""""""""""""""plans""""""""""""""" for me to love the smith's friends!!!!!!!! That is not in the demons """"""""""""""""plans"""""""""""""""""" so one them was giving me grief yesterday doing all it could to try and drag me back to what I call medazaland for lack of a better word (duran duran sing about medazaland) it's another space I once walked -------- once I was all about the demons I was all about satan that was all I lived for once ------------ but it ended up problematic for me..........cause I just kept slidding deeper into darkness past the point where I was comfortable being with myself (which it's horrible that I was comfortable clean to that point - that was pretty down there)
But anyways satan and the demons when they attack me sometime's it backfires on them big................I'm more determined then ever to love!!!!!!!!!!!!! (it's not really in my nature ------- I'm rather good at being a complete butt to people hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha I mean sad face : (
um scirge of the earth myself bestest ya just end there...............uh ya that's a good plan : ) Have a great week earth ---------- show some love to somebody today it'll really po the devil and the demons ahhhhhhhhh they HATE that stuffs.
It's called like fruit n'stuffs.............um jesus will someday like glean the earth and the bad fruits the fruits filled with hate for peoples is like going to like go to hell n'stuffs ------------- and when they get there to hell................they are going to like beat each other cause that's going to be the only thing that gives them joy down there. Whereas heaven will definately be a loved filled happy land of joy um ya.
LOVE BUS GOD - CHECK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Galatians 5:22 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith," demons don't want none us bearing THAT fruit. It's time to love, love everybody, let's take back this ship

that is earth!!!!!!!!!!

Love is the way I find Luke 6:38 "Give, and it shall be given unto you;......."

2011-09-27T14:40:00.000-07:00

Love me please!

(hate I'm determined to be done with that quantity)

I'm e-mailing macleay christian retreat it's where salem fellowship is located the church I went to for 10+ years, determined to get the secret passwords and love them determined to love them : ) my e-mail to them today.......................
you should love me enough to let me love you. Why ----------- cause god would dig that, god's all about love. You'd get a happy smiley face sticker from god. One your members from norway has earned a slew of happy smiley face stickers from god, and it's really good for her, though she is by no means wealthy, she is wealthy w/the love we all be's pouring back to her. Smiley face stickers from god are fab -------- trust a fool on this one : )

The blessings isn't in the things you own, the blessings the blessed ground, the blessed area, is when you love much and it comes pouring back to you Luke 6:38 "Give, and it shall be given unto you; good measure, pressed down, and shaken together, and running over, shall men give into your bosom. For with the same measure that ye mete withal it shall be measured to you again." the love comes back I find ---------- I completely stink at loving anybody but I'm just telling you from my experience if I love it often comes back to me (maybe not right away but you know eventually) --------- and that much loved ground that's the prized place. Where you love much and are loved much Luke 7:47 "Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins, which are many, are forgiven; for she loved much: but to whom little is forgiven, the same loveth little."

I love my aunts church a slew ----------- well they loved me first, but now it's a love fest back and forth back and forth back and forth : ) IT'S AWESOME! ahhhhhhhh fool things ye be fessing up to lately myself

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm how many sins do I have that need to be forgiven oh ya let me see --------- TO WAZZUU AND HELL AND BACK AGAIN!!!!!!!!! Bestest I get to loving much, and I want to, I don't want to be stingy on the love front that is never good.

I stand by my idea that you should love me enough to let me love you, totally, you should love me much that you as a church be loved much, what churches are loved the most on this earth but the ones that love the mostest, the land of hate is the land of loss, the land of love is always the land of gain!
update : ) I now have a set time to go to salem fellowship : ) it's a date it's totally a date! (I'm not going to dress up though...........naw.........I have attire I wear pretty well everyday skirt above knee length, leggings underneath, and I always make sure to be not matching, like my skirt cannot match my top or my leggings, I'm colorful, I need color) My kids are even worse about it then me.......my 9 year old wears rainbow piano socks and various other unique socks w/some really interesting wardrobe choices - my kids are cool : ) love em.
Their coffee shop does have a coffee I like, milky way candy bar coffee HEAVEN. hmmmmmm maybe I should try uh blending one up at home???????? naw my blender isn't one those blendtec sorts I'd need a blentec blender I'm pretty sure about it. geez I need a blentec blender.

I really do want to love the smith's friends www.brunstad.org salem fellowship.....................

2011-09-26T12:17:00.000-07:00

Born for the blue skies! "we'll survive the paaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnn" switchfoot "dark horses"

I really do want to love the smith's friends www.brunstad.org salem fellowship.....................I can look at pics of them online (they easy to find for me ------- all clustered together online) I know I don't have so much love for them cause my heart just fills with hate at seeing their pics ---------- I DO NOT WANT THINGS TO BE THAT WAY! My aunts church mentioned this bible verse this weekend 1 Corinthians 3:3 "For ye are yet carnal: for whereas there is among you envying, and strife, and divisions, are ye not carnal, and walk as men?" Idea being it's good to strive to do better.................to seek out peace............to not envy each other.........to work together.
I'm weak, that's how it is, I am weak, I am not the strong of the body of christ.
It's ended up meaning I watching a few christian tv shows everyday to stay/be in the light cause I know god don't want us in the darkness. John 12:46 "I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness."
That includes loving people..........people that hate people end up sometimes killing people..........well cause hate is a byproduct of darkness. If ya don't let it go sometimes it does build up into something real bad.
My husbands trying to get me the opportunity to just visit the smith's friends, if I maybe could just go to their church a few 500 wednesday night meetings hahahahahaha ------- someday maybe I could get to loving them!
blue skies! blue skies! Born for the blue skies ah - switchfoot.

God told me I'm the Serena Williams of christianity : )...................

2011-09-25T09:44:00.000-07:00

Are you christians salem fellowship then show up to the court I'm waiting!

(ok sheri you are Serena Williams right now god is right)

At this point either salem fellowship has the worst fruit in the earth, or they all just to buisy "fundraising" to read their e-mails. I e-mailed their main macleay e-mail address.........................

god told me I'm Serena williams (basically john macenroe but god used a girl tennis player example).............He told me, I'm right I'm still plenty playing tennis, He said though that I'm the sort that if I'm playing against a player and I view the ball as hitting out of bounds ----------------- it don't matter if the ref (god) tries to tell me that the ball hit inbounds ---------------- I saw it hit out of bounds from where I'm standing it looked to of hit out of bounds -------------- and as a dedicated tennis player that has trained much and has sweated blood (oh geez god was right hahahahahahahahah) I will stomp around the court telling the ref (god) all about it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL ABOUT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm playing tennis here people............your continually not replying to my e-mails..............you ball is continually hitting out of bounds!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know how to play tennis.............http://givingittogod.blogspot.com/2011/09/brunstad-christian-church-this-is-how.html

Don't tell me I don't know how to play tennis, to tell me I'm confused. Scott Beckmann........when he gave me that "talk" and told me I was no longer welcome --- he said it was "brazen" of me to show up after what I posted online which is another way of saying I ain't welcome no more..............he tried to tell me your my "friends" well then if you my "friends" then reply to one e-mail is that to much to ask to hit ONE STINKING BALL IN THE COURT!!!!!!!!!!!!

I like john macenroe, and I like Serena williams, I know many you don't, but when you put that much into your faith and then that ball refuses to hit in the court again and again and again and YOUR people is saying it's my fault (yelena told me it's all my fault -------- though I have given her my e-mail repeatedly she could e-mail me ------------- no I been sending her postcards and she ain't replying the wall is up that you all have and somehow I'M GUILTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) I was guilty. But I don't think I'm guilty so much these days -------- am I not trying?????????????????? Am I not e-mailing you?????????????? Is this really some big ummmmmmmmmm war to your church e-mail NO. It ain't no big war to your church e-mail to be asking ----------- hey give me the secret passwords to your secret password protected website for the church so I can know the church times ------------ though I don't think your using ireq for that that seems to just have conferences on it looks to be not sure that's the place http://www.macleaychristianretreat.com/ireg/live/events/

But I know it exists, surely it exists per your phone message machines answering system...................asking for the passwords that's it....................(said a few foolish things also um uh)

-------------- my beef is not with brunstad.org no, I'm fellowshipping with the norwegians of their church some them said "thank you for attending our church" that's more like it : ) some service : )

brunstad christian church this is how to bear good fruit...............

2011-09-23T16:54:00.000-07:00

(changed the pic, look younger in this one, cause I'm 25 of course : ) no wait I take that back I'm 22 : ) I don't drink beer or do drugs and it's paid off I ain't aged none : )

Matthew 7:16 "Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles?" I'm the grape alright...................you can't gather up a grape with "thorns, or figs of thistles" no you gather up the grape with love! Not replying to my e-mails, or allowing me to attend your church is not gathering up a grape. Not just my grape, anybody that calls your churches phone thing 503-391-2807 they will be told to go to the password protected site to find the service times and so they will only be allowed to attend you church if you deem them saintly enough or whatever. NEWSFLASH jesus came for the lost, the undesirables.

Who are you to say my grape is not worth gathering???????? And is your "thorns, or figs of thistles" approach with me good fruit - NO. I just want a apple!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Just a stinkin apple!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please thank you drive through

Gathering up, gathering up the fruit, to me that entails having a church that is accessable to everyone..........being about the undesirables. That's what I love about living hope they are determined to never become a country club ------------- my aunt's church is solid to hey I'm able to go to their church every sunday and man this last sunday in particular I kid you all no I was feeling the love. That's how you gather up a grape! With love, with good fruit.

I tree though could change, and start bearing good fruit, and that can for reals happen. The tree the church in question would have to want to change, but it could. I'd rather they gather me then scatter me the smith's friends. I am a multi church person..........I'd rather be helped then not helped smith's friends. I hope to god one them is listening to me, I'm trying to say hey ------- peace flag hey!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know, I know I know where I sit in the body of christ ok, ok, I guarantee you, jesus wants me saved, I want to be saved! I am a grape!!!!!!!!!!!!!! A sheep bahing grape : )

Jesus wanted fruit to from a tree that didn't want to give no fruit............Matthew 21:19 "And when he saw a fig tree in the way, he came to it, and found nothing thereon, but leaves only, and said unto it, Let no fruit grow on thee henceforward for ever. And presently the fig tree withered away." If ya don't gather up the grapes you eventually wither away!!!!!!!!!!!! Not to mention jesus wants his body to bear much fruit, be in the gathering buisiness (I myself stink at gathering and I know most us do, but I know jesus wants us to be gathers, bestest we can be ------- welcome people to your churches WELCOME them, welcome the undesirables welcome be a gatherer ------- there ain't a grape god wouldn't want saved!!!!!!!!!!!! Isaiah 45:22 "Look unto me, and be ye saved, all the ends of the earth: for I am God, and there is none else.")

I will defend my little grape, I am a tiny grape, still a grape.

hi www.brunstad.org I'm your enemy suposedly and your supposed to love me!

2011-09-23T12:25:00.000-07:00

hi www.brunstad.org I'm your enemy suposedly and your supposed to love me! (I put comments on the www.brunstad.orgs website - sometimes obnoxious stuffs I won't lie, sometimes me trying to reach them - they never reply back) I'm e-mailing Larry Roth these days (a smith's friend www.brunstad.org salem fellowshipian) telling him today........I'd be better off if the the smith's friends did love me.............if I could occasionally go to a meeting it might help for me - I used to often leave that church ripped on fire for god's word (I'm I think often these days on fire - either we finish the course or we don't - I'm allllllllllllllll about suffering in the flesh and denying myself fully and taking up my cross and following jesus w/much zeal and fire these days --------- that I might win jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Philippians 3:8 "Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ," the prize for me is definately jesus, that I may win christ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! that'd ROCK)
I mean I ain't saying I wasn't obnoxious to this church..........I was........I appologized I really did.
Lena (a smith's friend) she said she's the head and I'm the tail...........and that is true..........she is the head and I'm the tail................but I know those that endure unto the end the same shall be saved...........I do fall more often then most............but I get back up...........I get back up............I'm doing all I can to win jesus ---------- forget the things of the world THEY ARE DUNG!!!!!!!!!! Jesus he is the prize!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Like switchfoot sings "you be my remedy" jesus is the remedy.......he's everything to me, and well worth all praise and honour and glory forever. He knows he knows your weak, he's been tempted he's been there...........Hebrews 2:18 "For in that he himself hath suffered being tempted, he is able to succour them that are tempted." Jesus loves you he wants to help!
And jesus man he really is the bomb diggity..............of my people uh sheri???????..............I gave mike a verse proving that jesus is with the last like the bible mentions him being in revelations...........watch this..................
John 18:21-23

²¹Why askest thou me? ask them which heard me, what I have said unto them: behold, they know what I said.

²²And when he had thus spoken, one of the officers which stood by struck Jesus with the palm of his hand, saying, Answerest thou the high priest so?

²³Jesus answered him, If I have spoken evil, bear witness of the evil: but if well, why smitest thou me?

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA (jesus is with me one of my people) he's with the first to true it's true but he's with my people to HE ROCKS. He's been helping me out, I love him, I love jesus a lot, he's one of my own, he's our leader, we want him, my people we want him bad to win christ. (man sheri I don't know you should be like talking - what I can't hide no more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I bit the last bullet in the sand)

God will take me, he'll take what is left and make it into a song!!!!!!!! (ya I e-mail mike some real unique buisiness..........only mike pry getting e-mails like that on the earth)

blessed is the peacemakers for theirs is the kingdom of heaven..........peace is better it better to have peace with the smith's friends, though they do not appear to want peace with me...........I'll keep trying. Cause I'm heading for the blue skies : )

I have to add this cause I don't know if larry roth is even opening my e-mails but my blog the smith's friends will see this..............

Matthew 5:9 "Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God"
If you've like made peace with me, um I don't know I still am like battling lot's of anger for your church so it's not very effective peace at this point if that be's your churches idea of making peace with me?????? not replying to my e-mails etc. having it so I can't like call and find out the meeting times cause I don't have the secret passwords.

If that is their peace making efforts - it's not working for me - if that is their peace making efforts. And I don't think god himself is going to view their not replying to my e-mails as peace making moves it's the word of god smith's friends............Matthew 5:9 "Blessed are the peacemakers: for they shall be called the children of God" if your not making peace with me guess what your also not.

But I gotta keep trying to make peace with them, and forgive them and love them the bestest I can under these circumstances.
update ------------ I did find a way to crack in not with salem fellowship but other smith's friends I have a smith's friends friend that isn't a member of salem fellowship that I actually like a whole lot - so that's hopeful : ) peace can be found..............where there's a will there's a way that's what my dad always told me!

I really do battle loving my enemies, so been writing yelena galante aka person that brought me to www.brunstad.org church 8 billion years ago...........................

2011-09-21T14:10:00.000-07:00

hello hurricane you can't silence my love! (sorry mom it's my favorite band)

I really do battle loving my enemies, so been writing yelena galante aka person that brought me to www.brunstad.org church 8 billion years ago...........................it's so much fun writing her postcards every week I've clean enjoyed it : ) one before this last one I just stuck in the mail I said "with as much love as I can muster" or something to that effect ------- hey that was honest! This last one I just got done shoving in the mail box I clean added my e-mail address see if she e-mails me : ) she's the one that brought me to that church 8 billion years ago to "save my soul" not much soul saving if you ain't going to like reply to said soul savie - just sayin.
As much as I've talked smack (much of which I've deleted but really pissed salem fellowship the www.brunstad.org church off ------- when I went up in front their church to appologize man many them looked mad at me - I was like uh oh! head for the hills hahahahahahahahahahahahah) I didn't understand the bible until I went to salem fellowship I was before then as clueless as a person could be - god had just not opened my eye's up til that point, til that point I was completely blind.
Well I'm workin on loving my enemies : ) a effort is like a effort ---------- it's no good to hold a bunch of hate in your heart for a people anyways! No way to live n'stuff, not from my experience.
Been watching lot's of tbn, everyday now, am in the habit of watching the christian tv - like daily inviting jesus into my life by that (I think? ya) am lot more at peace in christ Isaiah 26:3 "Thou wilt keep him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on thee: because he trusteth in thee."
Doing.................................just got to the point where I was like ok I am NOT at peace............the signs for me were just all pointing to jesus and still are JESUS = peace, peace that way!
Also I'm convinced that there are blessing to be had being faithful Proverbs 28:20 "A faithful man shall abound with blessings: but he that maketh haste to be rich shall not be innocent." Maybe not like a lot a lot of blessings but I'm sure they must be like there to be had!
For me the peace jesus has to give is worth something, in this crazy time we live in where there's storms and caos caos caos............jesus really has something of great value to give me these days above and beyond just salvation (salvations great to, but I'm all about the peace he has to give me these days). Luke 6:48 "He is like a man which built an house, and digged deep, and laid the foundation on a rock: and when the flood arose, the stream beat vehemently upon that house, and could not shake it: for it was founded upon a rock." Jesus is my storm protection (I recommend buying like natural disaster insurance to especially if ya live in the south) he's awesome storm protection! And it be's storming these days - YIKES. Have a great day earth : )

catholics......be mindful of how ya say the hail mary cause occult people do similiar stuffs.............

2011-09-09T16:01:00.000-07:00

hail mary isn't even in english in this video it creeps me out in many languages! I just get the chills from the thing. It creeps me directly out! They chant the thing! They chant it like the boogy do do do do in the dark occult people chant stuffs - the occult people chant just like that! And how they know this sun thing is from god???????? What if the suns just doing something kooky? Like natural like phenomina's they like do happen n'stuff. Sun flickers in my presence you can be sure I ain't going to creep myself out my chanting the hail mary NO!

catholics......be mindful of how ya say the hail mary cause occult people do similiar stuffs.............I sometimes while turning the radio stations will hear
Hail Mary, full of grace.
Our Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb,
Jesus.
Holy Mary, Mother of God,
pray for us sinners,
now and at the hour of our death.
Amen.
again and again and again...................it creeps me out. They use like sometimes these low low voices like how the cult people would talk, I couldn't find a chilling example online they've got all the cleaned up versions online apparently the catholics only do the chilling versions on like christmas or something? 1 Thessalonians 5:22 "Abstain from all appearance of evil." Ya don't do it around candles either, ya that's no good!
And why do you catholics say it like 5 billion times? Besides to heebie jeebie me out? Not much of a prayer really? Jesus like gave a better prayer...........
Luke 11:2 "And he said unto them, When ye pray, say, Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name. Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done, as in heaven, so in earth."
I think like jesus's prayer would like get a person somewhere, but like what the heck is the hail mary going to do for a person - besides creep me out???????????
And how is it a good idea to have mary pray for the whole world, she ain't god, she's 1 person, if mary was really up there in the sky praying for like all the catholics in the whole world cause they are chanting a lot to her ---------- it's stink to be mary!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She ain't god................what ya need mary to pray for you??????????????????? Say dear god........................................
Why tire out mary??????????????????? Do catholics really think mary is up there praying all the time ------------- poor mary if that is the case, poor poor poor mary.........maybe that's why they have to chant it a lot make mary feel guilty and feel like she needs to pray for them ----------- seems goofy to me when you could like just shoot up a prayer to god. And not like creep me out!
Mary's up there in heaven chillaxin, she ain't up there praying what would she do that for............she up there drinking a ummmmmm I don't nice refreshing lemonaide (they don't drink beer in heaven - so like bestest we all knock off the beers cause aint none us going to get 0 beer in heaven I'm pretty sure about this).
Don't worry mary I won't bog down your nice relaxing lemonaide time.

reminder to christianity - your really supposed to bear each other's burdens..................

2011-09-09T11:53:00.000-07:00

gotta keep up the trend of annoying my mom : )

I was having a bad time, and my mom told me shut up take you meds basically..............mike told me don't e-mail him no personal stuffs just bible questions (to be fare mike at least reads my e-mails). Well what the heck christians???????????????????? ARE YOU CHRISTIANS???????????????????????????? Galatians 6:2 "Bear ye one another's burdens, and so fulfil the law of Christ." Apparently christians don't need to bear each others burdens no more - no shut up and take your meds (only ask bible questions)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So apparently my mom was bashing switchfoot not my blog that's what she says..............though she didn't mention switchfoot in the e-mail in which she called my blog "terrible". My mom though was a apostolic christian for a bit maybe none them bear each other's burdens, maybe this is something she's learned from them?

Yep I'm all alone just about...................thank god I at least have a blog, I can post up my burdens that aren't being beared anyways : ) hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah My mom says she just ain't going to read my blog anymore she can't handle it.

Isaiah 58:6 "Is not this the fast that I have chosen? to loose the bands of wickedness, to undo the heavy burdens, and to let the oppressed go free, and that ye break every yoke?" Sometimes that requires a christian to bear a burden or two - I know I know you all is hurting out there --------- you don't want to bear my burdens cause your pain is so immense (that's my going theory and/or everyone's to satanic to care, or under the sway of satan to care) Last I checked the whole idea of christianity is to reach out to a hurting world...............if you can't won't refuse to bear up each others burdens............how ya going to bear the rest of the lost hurting worlds burdens??????????????????

1 John 5:19 "And we know that we are of God, and the whole world lieth in wickedness." aka not wanting to bear each others burdens none

I do have some solid christian friends, that would bear my burdens. Are none us supposed to ever struggle???????????? Is it supposed to be all a walk through the tulips mike and my mom???????????????? Sniff the flowers for me then ; )
-------------- news flash..........mike and my mom swear they are there for me...........which I tell them that's good to know cause they'd make terrible devil worshippers hahahahahahahahahahahahahahah

hint to my immediate family if you want me to draw nearer to jesus COMPLETELY BASHING MY BLOG ISN'T THE WAY..............................

2011-09-06T10:44:00.000-07:00

hint to my immediate family if you want me to draw nearer to jesus COMPLETELY BASHING MY BLOG ISN'T THE WAY. And then today in a e-mail said completely basher of my blog said to me "I pray that you are feeling better about yourself" OH YOU MEAN AFTER YOU COMPLETELY BASHED MY BLOG TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE THE SHIT OF THE EARTH?
But as I tell my aunt connie, I been trying hard to follow jesus, and this is why I'm so frustrated with my blog being completely bashed by my immediate family like this............I been trying so hard lately. ((((((((usually I ain't at all trying...................................hahahahhahaahahahahahahahahahahahhah oooooooooooooo hahahahahahahahahah))))))))))))) And then to COMPLETELY bash my blog like that! Well that aint' going to draw me to jesus none, bashing my blog like that, if you my immediate family (not talking about my apostolic christian aunts and uncles they cool) think that's a suberb idea which apparently you do I have news for you -------- EH.
But like I tell my aunt connie......................oh here we go : ) hahahahahahahahahah...........................I been not watching tv lately like none the worldly tv shows.......................I been not walking in the flesh at all...................I been watching lots of christian tv working to walk all in the spirit n'stuff........................and god see's my effort everyday....................He knows I'm making this effort everyday........................and he see's my effort. And someday.....................if I keep on like this someday....................1 Peter 5:6 "Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:" I'm gonna be raised up you can take that to the BANK!
I tell mike, I tell mike I remember my old plan............1 John 3:22 "And whatsoever we ask, we receive of him, because we keep his commandments, and do those things that are pleasing in his sight." When your good and heeding god's word, not watching the worldly tv, no being friends with the world like that, no walking in the flesh, walking in the spirit in the day YOUR PRAYERS GET POWERFUL THEN god's like whoa ok there's a person who's prayers I want to answer!!!!!!!!!!!!! He will raise me up you can fully take that to the BANK to the FOOKIN STRATUSFERE!
So go ahead haters talk about how sad and horrible my blog is................HATE ON ME TIL YOU SAINTLY HEARTS ARE CONTENT..............god's going to raise me up yo! Cause I'm gonna keep heeding his word like this.................and he will do it............don't even sweat it out there.............he for sure is going to do it.

I want jesus and that's it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to be good and done with all darkness!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-09-03T20:13:00.000-07:00

I want jesus and that's it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to be good and done with all darkness!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Revelation 2:5 "Remember therefore from whence thou art fallen, and repent, and do the first works; or else I will come unto thee quickly, and will remove thy candlestick out of his place, except thou repent." There's been times in the past where I've gotten real forgetful "from whence thou art fallen" it's didn't go well!!!!!!!!!!!! If I went back to the darkness for reals................that's the #@%@#$% I'd be doing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Horrible stuffs, stuffs I wouldn't mention on my blog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Stuffs I surely don't want to ever go back to!!!!!!!!
I'm in a war................Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." I ain't always winning, either, but I sure as heck aint about to give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Also I think god must have been letting satan have multiple stabs at me like this 1 Peter 1:7 "That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:" Some definate FIRE ------- and many you your faith is also tried "with fire" via difficult circumstances, I'm surely in the difficult circumstances group right now. Not sure if the difficult circumstances will ever let up either ----------- BUT THERE'S NO TURNING BACK FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hebrews 10:39 "But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul." Fact as the FIRE has been turned up by the devil my resolve has increased lately!

The war is on and I'm going to fight it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A vote for tiny churches, like my aunts apostolic christian church of america!

2011-08-31T08:54:00.000-07:00

The truth is the apostolic christian church of america is helping me a bunch............my life is like a abc miniseries sometimes............my aunt's church has 50 some people that's it! (like a core of 30 people, and then like 20 or so visitors from other apostolic chrisitan church of america every sunday) they don't get new like visitor's n'stuffs really that I see...........but they don't advertise themselves and their church isn't off a buisy street not at a really noticable spot..............churches can throw car washes etc. to try and grow themselves..........have garage sales.
Before me and brian showed up they were considering shutting down the doors...........but a visiting pastor said the small churches are good for people can get saved at them - while looking at me and brian : ) hahahahahah
The rest of the churches in this world are bigger...............can't get the extra one on one time I need at em...........rest of the churches in the body of christ only have 1 pastor aunt connies church has like if you count my uncle garth that's 5 pastor's. It's like going to school........well everybody knows if a class has only 20 kids in it as opposed to 30 it's like better cause the teacher can go around and give one on one time with the students ---------------- and everybody knows that. Well I'm here to tell the earth -------------- it also works that way in a church sense -------------- or it can, some kids do better in the smaller classrooms!
Seems to be we live in a time were everyone wants their churches to be big big big.....................let me be one person with a vote for the tiny churches : )
big big big sized classrooms are great if all your students are einsteins w/no need for help!

My 10 year old snitches on me at church - but all I listen to is christian music apostolic christian church of american she made it sound like I listen to worldly music and I so don't!!!!!!!!!!!...............

2011-08-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

(apostolic christian church of america - much love) My 10 year old snitches on me at church - but all I listen to is christian music apostolic christian church of american she made it sound like I listen to worldly music and I so don't!!!!!!!!!!!
But my childs snitch this week has really backfired, cause seconds before I told her not to watch tv, cause it's the world in a box, and the bible says to be friends with the world is enmity with god...............so her "snitch" was confirming in front the church that I ain't watching tv. (course they pry when they heard her say that all I do is listen to music and play video games on the computer in my free time - they pry thinking I listen to worldly music - if they were to like you know go on the epic fool sort of train of thought I'm not that epic of a fool no more....................all I listen to is switchfoot...........christian music...............which means I'M WINNING LIKE JOHN TRAVOLTA IN SATURDAY NIGHT FEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
earth taking a moment of silence to pray for me................................................................................cept the devil worshipping kids they's like YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Don't worry I'm going to shoot to do better, going to read my christian books more aka walk in the spirit more...................and shoot to do nothing stupid no more. And the above song man, my fave song lately.................if you do something EPIC stupid like I did recently.............and you "on the ropes this time" don't give up!!!!!!!!!!!
Sing it out
Sing it out
Take what is left of me
Make it a melody
This verse really stood out to me at my aunts church this weekend.................Hebrews 10:39
"But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul." Nomadder how bad you've bit the dust DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Matthew 24:13 "But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."

I recommend in that instance of biting the dust big time which I have recently done.........sing the above switchfoot song.

Jeremiah 10:23 "O LORD, I know that the way of man is not in himself:......" I didn't choose to be where I am in the body of christ I wouldn't of choose this..............................

2011-08-26T17:28:00.000-07:00

This my band don't count me out!

(at the end of the song John whispers "keep running with the dark horses,

stand up for the dark horses, hope makes the blood change courses")

Jeremiah 10:23 "O LORD, I know that the way of man is not in himself: it is not in man that walketh to direct his steps." I didn't choose to be where I am in the body of christ I wouldn't of choose this..............................and lately it's been on my mind just how much I didn't choose where god has placed me in the body of christ. When I did my big repent ------- the one that lead to 2 angels pulling that demon out of me -------- I really had it in my plans to be at least like everyone else, be all super like upstanding or something. I wasn't planning on all the struggles I have had spiritually ------------ none that was in my plans! I surely wasn't planning on having a weak flesh of which to war against!!!!!!!!!!! Mark 14:38 "Watch ye and pray, lest ye enter into temptation. The spirit truly is ready, but the flesh is weak." To be weak like this this wasn't in my plans!
My little xyz plan for my life surely didn't like map out! I have to pray to god a lot, I've been at his mercy a lot.
Nehemiah 9:31 "Nevertheless for thy great mercies' sake thou didst not utterly consume them, nor forsake them; for thou art a gracious and merciful God."
I really have compared myself to the rest of the body of christ much 1 Corinthians 4:10 "We are fools for Christ's sake, but ye are wise in Christ; we are weak, but ye are strong; ye are honourable, but we are despised." Nobody wants to be a weak, despised, fool! Nobody picks that option! But god he don't look at us as one better then the other.........."Acts 10:34 "Then Peter opened his mouth, and said, Of a truth I perceive that God is no respecter of persons:" I've definately decided each vocation is a different car in the lot........god isn't looking down upon 1 car in the lot over another one --------- even if some the cars in the lot are galopies...............god works with galopy cars! 2 Corinthians 10:12 "For we dare not make ourselves of the number, or compare ourselves with some that commend themselves: but they measuring themselves by themselves, and comparing themselves among themselves, are not wise." I'm never never never going to be as strong, as honourable, as wise as the bulk of the body of christ - it's just never going to happen. It's ok, it's actually not the end of the world!
God is surely no respector of person's and therefore I have just as much opportunity to be saved as the next person. (and it's not a competition.......I'm super competitive I hate losing............but I don't loose if I cross the finish line.............I just gotta keep heading to the finish line!!!!!!!!!! I might cross that there finish line in real bad shape at the end of the race.............Matthew 24:13 "But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved." endure people and I don't recommend comparing each other to each other at all...........we in this together)

This "I did it my way" stuffs is not a good idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........................

2011-08-19T21:00:00.000-07:00

This "I did it my way" stuffs is not a good idea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!........................

The whole series of the above video I thought was really good! It pry was one the other videos in this series talked about the heart being evil..........satan's pushing the "follow your heart" idea in songs etc. ((((((((I think it's true)))))))))))) None us want to say oh ya my heart is evil, none us want to view our hearts as evil but, so many bible verses have caught my eye on the topic...............
Jeremiah 16:12 "And ye have done worse than your fathers; for, behold, ye walk every one after the imagination of his evil heart, that they may not hearken unto me:"
Jeremiah 18:12 "And they said, There is no hope: but we will walk after our own devices, and we will every one do the imagination of his evil heart."

Jeremiah 7:24 "But they hearkened not, nor inclined their ear, but walked in the counsels and in the imagination of their evil heart, and went backward, and not forward."

Genesis 6:5 "And God saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every imagination of the thoughts of hisheart was only evil continually."

Love it how the bible convieniently makes my point for me.............Proverbs 28:26 "He that trusteth in his own heart is a fool: but whoso walketh wisely, he shall be delivered." AKA DON'T "I DID IT MY WAY" "DO AS THOU WILT" "TO THINE OWN SELF BE TRUE" OR ANY OF THE OTHER COCKAMANEE PHRASES SATAN HAS COOKED UP IN HIS DEVILISH MIND FOR THE MASSES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO go to church! Read god's word....................do some of that!!!!!!!!!! Go freaking volunteer at a like senior citizen home DON'T DO AS THOU WILT NO NO NO

yep satan you'll have to get a whole lot cleverer then that to trick me : ) Do as thou wilt what a stupid idea satan, that is stupid ------------- sit and suffer in church on sunday I'm more 100% it's like good idea for all of us then ever! Satan if satan had his way we'd all be naked on stripper poles! Don't do as thou wilt that leads to stupid stuff, trust me I been down that road, I been been been in stupid land STUPID LAND (satan also really promotes "getting stupid" DON'T GET STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!) get smark crack open yer bible!!!!!!!!!

(up late, watching http://www.youtube.com/user/ThePopCulturePastor#p/a I'm completely fascinated by all the pop stars out there doing the one eye symbol, doesn't look to be that most of the world has even like considered all this one eye'd buisiness going on???????????? but man once you go to a website like http://www.youtube.com/user/ThePopCulturePastor#p/a and start piecing things together YIKES satan is running the show right now, I don't know how HE STINKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

apostolic christian church of america how are my bangs sinning????? I so want to know.............

2011-08-13T17:29:00.000-07:00

ahhhh betty paige bangs

honey grab the kids RUN

please don't hurt me bangs I go to church!

please don't bring no mustachio's after me either for the love of jesus! hahahahahaha

So I happen upon to go to this webstie today.............................
http://apostolicchristiandiscussion.yuku.com/topic/1128/Is-the-ACCA-ACCN-like-a-cult?page=2

Someone said on this website you can't have bangs or a mustache and be a member of the apostolic christian church of america -------- news to me, but uh I ain't tried to be a member yet so I ain't got the whole list of stuffs I have to like swear off for the rest of my life. This the list this person put up..............on above website..........

1. You cannot become a member if you have a mustache or beard.
2. You cannot partake of Communion unless you are a member.
3. You cannot get married to another member unless you are a baptized member.
4. You cannot marry a non-ACC(A).
5. You cannot become a member if you have bangs. (This happened to my friends sister and she never was let it.)
6. You cannot refer to or be referred to as a Bro./Sis. until you have been baptized.
7. You cannot do missionary work where there is no ACC church.
8. You cannot be a SS teacher, minister, etc. if you have a TV, attend your kids sporting events, or if your wife wears jeans.
9. According to others testimonies, you cannot request your own copy of the Conference or Memorandum even if you are a member.
10. You may or may not be required to be re-baptized if you are a Christian from another denomination wanting to join the ACC.
11. In the case of my grandfather, he could not be taken up until his wife learned German. That took 7 years!
12. And since youre apparently still in the ACC, you wouldnt know that one does not just pick up and go so easily when they decide to leave. Its much harder than that!
Alright so please apostolic christians tell me how are my betty bangs sinning???????????????? I do not know of the bible verse that says bangs are a sin????????????????????? (all people ever talk about that I ever hear is how shellfish were once bad, I don't clean know of any bible verse talking about bangs or mustaches????) If I'm big time sinning with these bangs I don't know how my bangs got to being such a ....................BAD BANGS!!!!!! Dont worry I'll force my bangs to surrendor to the lord tonight! I rebuke you bang demons in the name of jesus! hahahahahahahahahahahahahah RUN RUN PEOPLE THE BANGS ARE UNHOLY AS IS THE MUSTACHES RUN RUN how we going to live we are so outnumbered! "Lock up the kids honey there's bangs walking down the street sweet '''''''''''''' I hope those bangs don't hurt us"

Reach out that's right, slowly, slowly, easy does it, that's right touch the stash....see didn't bite! (if you in a library and there's people around common reach for the stash touch it's silky goodness) hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahha lmao hahahahahahahahahahahahaha ------- I can't help myself my aunts church is for ?????????????????????? against stashes and bangs hahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahah Might as well be against the statue of liberty while your at it apostolic christian church of america - wait I'm getting ideas : ) hahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahahah

So I found out this last sunday that the apostolic christian church of america doesn't have sunday school in the summer for the kids! Which is a problem for me...............

2011-08-13T12:05:00.000-07:00

So I found out this last sunday that the apostolic christian church of america doesn't have sunday school in the summer for the kids! Which is a problem for me...............my kids freaking they have the internet, where they watch lots of lady ga ga video's thinking she's so cool, and miley cyrus (I'm not fan of miley cyrus, not really, really I don't like my kids watching kesha video's either) all this garbage online they can watch ------------ they need church!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (they watch this "annoying orange" you tube video's online ---------- one the video's I told my youngest no way you can't watch that - it was just to violent I don't care if it's fruit being hacked up!) My kids just can't go on a spiritual annarchy all summer that wouldn't be good! So I'm taking them to living hope church tonight, living hope has sunday school all year round for the kids -------- most churches do like every other church besides the apostolic christian church of america has sunday school all year round and most churches have vbs in attention not only keep up the momentum over the summer add to with vbs - which I think vbs is fab! I went to it as a kid had a great time -------- made this wooden goose that held sissors for the beak, and spools around it's body still have it somewhere in the garage I went to 1 cool vbs as a kid! like a few summers I went to it : )
Even for the apostolic christian kids I don't see how no sunday school in the summer is a good idea???????? Granted they don't maybe look online at 0 and live in caves...............kids needs sunday school don't they??????? Well my kids do.
There's like 0% way my kids are going the whole summer without sunday school 0%. I'm of the camp even if kids end up becoming rebels someday - in the long run they will be better off for having gone to sunday school as kids because they will have that moral foundation somewhere in the back of their minds to like go back to someday when like sense comes to their heads! Have a great day earth : )

If I have angels over me I'm certain they are bored and can angels throw a revolt?????????...............

2011-08-11T14:12:00.000-07:00

Help don't let them eat my brains!
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If I have angels over me I'm certain they are bored and can angels throw a revolt????????? Cause if my angels can throw some kind of revolt that's exactly what they's about to do to the apostolic christian church of america (not me, my angels!!!!!!!! leave me out it I have nothing to do with this) Hebrews 13:2 "Be not forgetful to entertain strangers: for thereby some have entertained angels unawares." I don't know hebrews 13:2 doesn't say angels will like throw a revolt, but uh I don't know - I don't know what's about to go down...................but my angels surely haven't been entertained much in the past few months at the apostolic christian church of america ------------ every sunday just about they all talk about like people that are sick, and people getting married, and all their illnesses ---------- from all I can gather that's all any them ever talk about?????????????? Oh and how many kids each them have that's always in the topic list to. Me and my angels zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz we falling asleep over here apostolic christian church of america!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(((((((((((my husband who usually doesn't like to go to church EVER is like freakin like "when we go to church this sunday" he's liking the apostolic christian church of america he loves the place --------- so what do I do say "ya dear that sounds great" and freakin go to church listen to who's all dead dying sick married zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz man I wish I wish I could just like bring a boom box w/like some kesha I like kesha blaring full blast get the party hoping ------- that could never happen of course they have traditions mike told me all about that but uh.........................my angels are about to throw some kind of revolt ------------- I don't have nothing to do with it, I don't know what they have planned????????????????????? Beats the heck out of me????????????????)))))))))))))))) Not all angels are going to be like ya talk about people that died, and people with like kids, and like people's illnesses etc. some the angels need a bit of entertainment ----------------- entertainment.

entertainment

your killing me and my angels right now

(I am completely not dramatical we are bored right now)

The holy kiss may be all biblical n'stuff but I ain't doin it, no way there is herpies out there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Apostolic Christian Church of America THERE IS HERPIES OUT THERE IN THIS WORLD!..........................

2011-07-18T18:33:00.000-07:00

I know my lips look luscious and all but NO CAN KISS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahahah
Apostolic christian church of america 1 in 6 people have herpies the odds isn't in your favour!
http://www.reuters.com/article/2010/03/09/ps-herpes-usa-idUSN0923528620100309

read this link to apostolic christians that are kissing happy........
you need to know the symptoms for when you get herpies........................
http://www.hellolife.net/cold-sores/b/can-i-get-herpes-from-kissing/

The holy kiss may be all biblical n'stuff but I ain't doin it, no way there is herpies out there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Apostolic Christian Church of America THERE IS HERPIES OUT THERE IN THIS WORLD!..........................

1 Corinthians 16:20

All the brethren greet you. Greet ye one another with an holy kiss.

Romans 16:16
Salute one another with an holy kiss. The churches of Christ salute you.

2 Corinthians 13:12
Greet one another with an holy kiss.

1 Thessalonians 5:26
Greet all the brethren with an holy kiss.

1 Peter 5:14
Greet ye one another with a kiss of charity. Peace be with you all that are in Christ Jesus. Amen.

I'm sure the apostolic christian church of america they's all going to get herpies sooner or later!!!!!!!!!

My pastor friend mike was like telling me I could go and repent to art and all like become a full out member, but I tell you all what................I like not being a full out member ----------- cause I don't want to be kissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You become a full out member ------------- freakin IT'S KISSING TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My odds of being kissed are even less cause apparently I don't fit their attire 100%, cause I like to wear all the time these sarong type hippy skirts that I sew myself, and most them hit just above the leg --------- which really is pry to high for the apostolic christian church of america's liking ---------- but I can explain................I bike a lot, I do yoga a lot..............if you bike and do yoga every single day you don't want to wrestle big long cumbersome skirts!!!!!!!!!!! ooooooooooooo all you long skirted apostolic christians, ya go ahead kiss each other --------------- I'm staying out of the kiss athon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My freakin knee length skirts is pry some DON'T KISS ME flag whew, shew, that was close!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god for my knee length hippy skirts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You all can get herpies uh go right ahead!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll be a herpie free kiss athon less hippy off to the side - looking good I might add : ) (though one them might read this blog post and try to peck me one in retaliation, naw, my skirts are way to short to get a kiss don't be silly myself, they only kiss people in potatoe sacks)

I prefer holy hugs, or holy handshakes. If you don't do a holy kiss it ain't like you not making it to heaven...........there's herpies............god understands "oh ya my people don't want herpies" or they shouldn't want herpies, though looks to be the apostolic christian church of america wants herpies, I don't know it's a massive miracle they ain't gotten a massive herpies outbreak yet ------------- just cause they's all lookin herpies free don't mean I'm smooching them no, no, I take 0 chances there. No kiss is worth herpies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Though I still kiss my husband but that's different that isn't me kissing the whole city. Think before you smooch a town peoples!!!!!!!!!!

Philippians 3:19 "............who mind earthly things" SOS THE THINGS OF ABOVE IS WHERE IT'S AT PEOPLE!..........

2011-07-17T14:57:00.000-07:00

Philippians 3:19 "Whose end is destruction, whose God is their belly, and whose glory is in their shame, who mind earthly things.)" SOS THE THINGS OF ABOVE IS WHERE IT'S AT PEOPLE! Today at my aunt's church part of phillippians 3:19 that says "...........who mind earthly things" super stuck out to me in a fresh way it never had before ------------ that's how this earth is.........it's full of people "who mind earthly things!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" They talked about at my aunt's church how some people think the narrow path isn't easy to see, but it became a bit clearer to me today --------- that I ain't supposed to be all all all about all day minding the "earthly things" no that's how those whose end is destruction do walk on the BROAD PATH THAT LEADS TO DESTRUCTION. (feel the need for lot's of caps with this blog post hahahahahahah)
Colossians 3:1 "If ye then be risen with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ sitteth on the right hand of God."
getting buisy with the large type and caps with this blog post are ya sheri : ) oh ya hahahahahahahahahahah

Porn is a sin I've decided.......

2011-07-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

Don't look! Don't do it!

Ephesians 2:2-3 "Wherein in time past ye walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit that now worketh in the children of disobedience: Among whom also we all had our conversation in times past in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind; and were by nature the children of wrath, even as others." Porn is a form of "fulfilling the desires.......OF THE MIND"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Isn't that the course of this world to.............fulfilling the desires of the mind porn and/or various good looking celebrities!!!!!!!!!!

Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." Once I used to be real sure I had this jesus thing all figured out! That I was not loving the things of this earth, and not giving into the lusts of the flesh in a things of the world sorta sense (not all like oooooooo look at that purse etc.) but it's also our MINDS that we need to not be "fulfilling the desires of".

2 Corinthians 1:5 "For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ."

1 John 2:16 "For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world." Your eyeballs need to not lust! NO lust! No look! No look!

What is the course of the world oh ya...........according to the prince of the power of the air!

Ephesians 2:2-3 "Wherein in time past........................ fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind" Where in time past speaks to me we ain't supposed to do that none us christians, we ain't supposed to look at porn!

I know this whole world is viewing copious amounts of porn, oh ya I know it...............Galatians 5:24 "And they that are Christ's have crucified the flesh with the affections and lusts." even the desires of the mind!!!!!!!!! It's something to crucify! The lusts/desires of your mind!

We all once walked that way Ephesians 2:2-3 "Wherein in time past.............." Yep the earth is off course!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 John 5:19 "And we know that we are of God, and the whole worldlieth in wickedness." Lot of naughty naughty naughty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ever ask yourself "what does god want from me anyways?" I do!...............

2011-07-04T13:09:00.000-07:00

(xoxoxo apostolic christian church of america and living hope church xoxoxo) I won't give up, I'll fight the good fight of faith...........no turning back, no giving up. My flesh will just have to DIE! (I mean the lusts of it) We're in a battle people's it's a real war..........Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of thedarkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places." FIGHT! This good fight of faith! Don't give the devil a inch! (cause he'll take it, he'll take you somewhere you don't want to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Ever ask yourself "what does god want from me anyways?" I do!...............Luke 5:32 "I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance." Repent, not go back to..............................
Hebrews 12

²⁸Wherefore we receiving a kingdom which cannot be moved, let us have grace, whereby we may serve God acceptably with reverence and godly fear:

²⁹For our God is a consuming fire.

If your partying out there, I recommend not doing that anymore! Galatians 5:21 "Envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God."

http://www.thefreedictionary.com/revelling

rev·el (rvl)

intr.v. rev·eled also rev·elled, rev·el·ing also rev·el·ling, rev·els also rev·els

1. To take great pleasure or delight: She reveled in her unaccustomed leisure.

2. To engage in uproarious festivities; make merry.

Lately I've wanted to party but I ain't going to, cause bible clearly says people that party party "shall not inherit the kingdom of god"

(ruff for me to see friends of mine partying and not being able to join them)

And I don't recommend lieing either...................don't fib don't do it!.............

Revelation 22:15 "For without are dogs, and sorcerers, and whoremongers, and murderers, and idolaters, and whosoever loveth and maketh a lie."

Our god is a "consuming FIRE" Nahum 1:2 "God is jealous, and the LORD revengeth; the LORD revengeth, and is furious; the LORD will take vengeance on his adversaries, and he reserveth wrath for his enemies." pssssssssssssss be on god's good side ; ) don't party don't do it!

I don't recommend watching the worldly tv, that stuffs has to irk up god's jealously I suspect greately I ain't taking none chances anyways! How hard it is to make it into heaven if even those who "whosoever loveth and maketh a lie" are on the outside of heaven someday! Surely god is a "consuming FIRE" Deuteronomy 4:24 "For the LORD thy God is a consuming fire, even a jealous God."

I'm convinced more then ever that having a foundation in christ is really important................

2011-06-27T13:09:00.000-07:00

I'm convinced more then ever that having a foundation in christ is really important................I just got watching benny hinn (he just happens to be right now hitting topics that really intrigue me) today he was talking about having your foundation build on the rock.
I've known people that both have crumbled the minute a trial happened in their life and then I've seen people just get stronger faith and/or just make it through hard stuffs -------- I've seen this stuffs on this earth. Trials will happen to us all probably, there is pry no way around it??????????? Matthew 16:18 "And I say also unto thee, That thou art Peter, and upon this rock I will build my church; and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it." It's all hinges I believe on what you build your house upon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Will the trial/storm in your life be bad when it comes, ya probably, but I believe built on the rock of christ if your house is built really upon the rock of christ "the gates of hell shall not prevail"!!!!!!!
Matthew 7:25-27
25And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell not: for it was founded upon a rock.

26And every one that heareth these sayings of mine, and doeth them not, shall be likened unto a foolish man, which built his house upon the sand:

27And the rain descended, and the floods came, and the winds blew, and beat upon that house; and it fell: and great was the fall of it.

Heed god's word!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Don't build upon sand!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Walk in the spirit Galatians 5:16 "This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh." Be in god's word today, build your house upon THE ROCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm convinced god doesn't want us to be in bondage to addictions and the lusts of the flesh..............

2011-06-15T12:24:00.000-07:00

another band making it to heavy rotation on my mp3 player : )

(xoxoxoxo living hope church & apostolic christian church of america xoxoxoxoxoxo VALENTINE ON)
I told my aunt today and man I've clean convinced myself jesus doesn't want us to be slaves to the lusts of our flesh or to addictions John 8:36 "If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed." Some horrible stuffs I've been bound to..............""""I don't know what this overcoming life is going to do for me really?????????????? But it is sure better then being stuck serving mammon etc. and bound to man not good stuffs!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Galatians 4:3 "Even so we, when we were children, were in bondage under the elements of the world:"
Galatians 5:1 "Stand fast therefore in the liberty wherewith Christ hath made us free, and be not entangled again with the yoke of bondage." That speaks to me don't go back living for the mammon Luke 16:13, don't go back to said addiction item! I believe jesus he wants us to be free! When I'm doing ............................it seems so great, ya I'm off flying high like a kite "lit" but it's BONDAGE...........cause right after that high I'm left doing all I can to get the next hit! Finally I'm seeing it for what it is!!!!!!!!!!! Bondage!
I don't know what to do with myself as a overcomer? But bondage I need to be done with that stuffs, I need to be done with all that that has bound me!"""""
I started going to a addict recovery group at one my 2 churches living hope, groups called "living clean" AA style group (I'm a addict recovered as of a few weeks anyways : ) I'm going back to this group to for sure! Next week I'm there : ) I'm 100% sure jesus came to set us FREE John 10:10 "The thief cometh not, but for to steal, and to kill, and to destroy: I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." It ain't no abundant life if your on edge cause you ain't got your next hit of .............................

I am like convinced that god like fully healed my burns.............

2011-06-13T14:29:00.000-07:00

As you can see from the pic, on my middle finger there is a tiny white dot of unhealed skin left and that is it!

My whole hand 2 days ago was a mess!

(cause I did something stupid involving half a dead christmas tree and fire)

I am like convinced that god like fully healed my burns, cause I've been working at the food bank!!!!!!!...................god's word really is powerful like this..............Isaiah 58:7-8 "Is it not to deal thy bread to the hungry, and that thou bring the poor that are cast out to thy house? when thou seest the naked, that thou cover him; and that thou hide not thyself from thine own flesh? Then shall thy light break forth as the morning, and thine health shall spring forth speedily: and thy righteousness shall go before thee; the glory of the LORD shall be thy reward." 1 finger I should have a bandaid on, I'll put a bandaid on it, it's got a tiny white spot left on it, one dink spot where the skin hasn't fully healed. But it was amazing to me how fast my wounds healed, really was proof of the power of god's word to me, and I've seen my light I've seen it 10"And if thou draw out thy soul to the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted soul; then shall thy light rise in obscurity, and thy darkness be as the noon day:" out of "obscurity" clean obscurity!
Yep this volunteering at the foodbank stuffs is clean working out! I apparently have super hero healing powers now : ) ROCK N ROLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And jesus, man he's helping me these days! He put on his special bulletin board another item I am particular weak towards...................(I find jesus more fascinating then ever - he's figured out my weak points, and he's showing up when I'm the most tempted) Ya that's all this fool should say today, have a great week everyone!
Oh, and I might've found the fountain of youth (well I have been aging backwards) not to long ago I started taking eye vitamins and last night on christian radio I heard that lutein can reverse wrinkles, I think there might be something to that -------- cause I've definately been aging backwards lately..........I sat and looked at a pic of myself at 16 years old (besides I'm a bit chubbier now) I didn't look this youthful at 16. I look pretty like tired and worn out really from ages of 16-18. And I use generic proactive - that stuffs has done miracles for my skin, beyond just acne my skin is looking better.
But uh feed the hungry, freakin I've just benefited from volunteering at the foodbank like more then I ever could of fathomed possible. Jesus is clean alongside me like helping me out Hebrews 2:18 "For in that he himself hath suffered being tempted, he is able to succour them that are tempted."

Me burning brunstad christian church literature for I idolized their "saints"...........

2011-06-10T22:47:00.000-07:00

(adding a clause, when I say in video "ye shall burn elias asklasen" I was literally talking about the book - elias asklaksen he may very well end up in heaven but unlike the smith's friends I ain't going to be kissing his butt http://www.brunstad.org/en/biography/i-wonder-what-the-future-holds-for-this-man)
Me burning brunstad christian church literature for I idolized their "saints" The smith's friends may be able to put on such a high pedastle kare smith, and all their now deceased passed worldwide leaders, but I am to weak for that stuffs, I was really really really idolizing in particular Elias Aslaksen but all them at one point all their ex leaders that wrote so much literature (what I'm burning isn't but a 5th or whatever of all the literature that the smith's friends cult sells in their churches bookstores, I was on the outside of that church and never bought so much of their literature)

As much as I idolized Elias Aslaksen he didn't have anything so special - though the smith's friends make a big hub bub about him and all the rest of their leaders and ex-worldwide leaders...........2 Peter 1:20-21 "Knowing this first, that no prophecy of the scripture is of any private interpretation. For the prophecy came not in old time by the will of man: but holy men of God spake as they were moved by the Holy Ghost."

I find, christians ALL OVER THE PLACE with just as much "revelation" over god's word as the www.brunstad.org brunstad christian church if not MORE. This smith's friends cult doesn't have some special grab on god's word NO........"that NO prophecy of the scripture is of any private interpretation"

You idolizing a pastor out there FLEE idols 1 Corinthians 10:14 "Wherefore, my dearly beloved, flee from idolatry." Whatever idol that is in your life FLEE THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am the kid with the bullet soul!..................

2011-06-06T22:14:00.000-07:00

I've been without a job for about a year now, somedays it's a bit ruff, I don't really feel really lead of god to do any job really right now, I really think god wants me in His word right now Luke 12:28-31 "If then God so clothe the grass, which is to day in the field, and to morrow is cast into the oven; how much more will he clothe you, O ye of little faith? And seek not ye what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink, neither be ye of doubtful mind. For all these things do the nations of the world seek after: and your Father knoweth that ye have need of these things. But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you." I'm the kid with the bullet soul, just like switchfoot sings about there..........I'm a bit of a pain to everyone..........I've done chased the whole world away from myself! I'm pretty sure of it!

Galatians 6:8 "For he that soweth to his flesh shall of the flesh reap corruption; but he that soweth to the Spirit shall of the Spirit reap life everlasting." I've spent like most of my life uh sowing to the "corruption". Yep I'm pretty sure these days god just wants me in His word!

Galatians 6:7 "Be not deceived; God is not mocked: for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap." Sow to the spirit ya be in god's word, reap THAT!

ummmmmmmmmm I have a question earth ------------ Like do the meek inherit the earth like while we's all still here????????????? Psalm 37:11 "But the meek shall inherit the earth; and shall delight themselves in the abundance of peace." Wait I think so! (((I battle pride all the time, but at least I'm like fighting it, that's why I like my aunt's church so much, they so into humbling themselves and fearing god ---------- things I usually lack! I hang around them on sundays and remind myself weekly oh ya I'm suppose to fear god and humble myself))))

Oh, and I will be ready to go switchfoot, soon nuff : ) Have a great day earth!

Yep I am 100% sure The apostolic christian church of america is going to be the safest church in america to attend...........cause there's going to be so many false prophets out there.............

2011-06-03T10:19:00.000-07:00

"we were meant to live for so much more, have we lost ourselves, somewhere we live inside"

ya there are a few other christian bands on my radar, but none I love more then switchfoot xoxoxoxoxo

(xoxoxoxo Apostolic christian church of america xoxoxoxo Valentine ON) Yep I am 100% sure The apostolic christian church of america is going to be the safest church in america to attend...........cause there's going to be so many false prophets out there.............Matthew 24:10-12 "And then shall many be offended, and shall betray one another, and shall hate one another. And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many. And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold" What makes the apostolic christian church so immensely immune to this big insurgence of "and many false prophets shall rise" of false prophets is most the apostolic christian church of america if they watch tv they only watch news, so they likely ain't watching the false prophets on christian tv (I know with myself I've bought into false prophets on christian tv ridiculous stuffs they were saying, and so now I'm ubber selective over who and what I watch on christian tv ----------- mostly these days I listen to apostolic christian church of america sermons online!) and the apostolic christian church of america I recogn will be greately protected because to become a apostolic christian church of america leading preaching brother you have to be in good standing with the church for sometime I'm pretty sure about that! And I don't think they let like people from other christian churches preach in front their church ---------- if they did I'm sure it wouldn't be but after much making sure that that person wasn't a false prophet! (but I don't think they ever actually do that)
No church could be entirelly exempt maybe????????? But if there is a church to be entirelly safe, my bet is on the apostolic christian church of america!
My other mainstream christian church I go to ----------- they let in guest speakers from all over the body of christ, and if they ain't ubber dilgient always to screen much these guest speakers it could go badly, also not to mention that their church members are probably watching and buying into everything the false prophets that are already on christian tv are saying! That's how I recogn the iniquity is going to abound.............people hearing and heeding unbiblical buisiness preached by false prophets!
2 Thessalonians 2:2-3 "That ye be not soon shaken in mind, or be troubled, neither by spirit, nor by word, nor by letter as from us, as that the day of Christ is at hand. Let no man deceive you by any means: for that day shall not come, except there come a falling away first, and that man of sin be revealed, the son of perdition;" Then after all this big massive slew of false prophets arise deceiving many much of the body of christ "And many false prophets shall rise, and shall deceive many" big falling away is going to happen due to this and then boom the anti christ is going to step on the scene just when the bulk of this world is fed up with christianity and just fed up in general, just the most opportune time the anti christ is going to make himself revealed "and that man of sin be revealed" I think the anti christ is alive right now, just waiting waiting for this time in history to reveal himself!
And then I fully recogn jesus could come any second after the anti christ reveals himself.

1 Thessalonians 5:4-6

King James Version (KJV)

⁴But ye, brethren, are not in darkness, that that day should overtake you as a thief.

⁵Ye are all the children of light, and the children of the day: we are not of the night, nor of darkness.

⁶Therefore let us not sleep, as do others; but let us watch and be sober.

Ya therefore let us not sleep, AS DO OTHERS; but let us watch and be sober. I watch what's going on in this world you all can be sure I have a keen eye on the goings on of this earth.

And I do think the apostolic christian church of america is the safest church in america which maybe entirelly obnoxious of me : ) hahahahahahahahahaha

God wants me to add this to this blog post, concerning all the false prophets that are going to arise..........Romans 16:18 "For they that are such serve not our Lord Jesus Christ, but their own belly; and by good words and fair speeches deceive the hearts of the simple." they up there speaking ok, in front the body of christ, but they not serving jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh ya they may have some nice peace peace warm lovey dovey stuffs to say, but they ain't serving jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I told mike today........I question people's motivations for being christian these days ----------- what is motivating these people????????? Is it the desire for god to bless them, for wealth????? Or they like me wishing to draw near to jesus ---------- how many really want christ????????????? Or is it just a name for yourself, the pat on the back the recognition maybe????????? I'm not 100% that every christian is a christian for the right reasons.

Me I'm of the f'd it up big time, need jesus much camp : ) I'll take some blessing from god to that'd be great, but that's no longer my mission! My mission is to obtain jesus!!!!!!! Philippians 3:8 "Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ," YA that's the lottery paul you got it right!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not the EARTHLY DUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

People I'm telling you all the bestest I can, christ is it! It ain't about how much god can bless you............christ is the lottery, he's what ta get. Two days ago jesus visited me yet again at a super weak moment for me the power of christ it rested on me at that moment what I was about to do not only did I not do, I ain't doing that! Forget it! 2 Corinthians 12:9 "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that thepower of Christ may rest upon me." Jesus can stop a person from doing crazy stuffs! He really is the prize, jesus really is the prize! Not anything on this earth!

I worry I worry about mainstream christianity, all these pastors talking about obtaining wealth all the time, triple blessing, 4 fold blessings, they have all kinds of catch phrases..............jesus jesus is the prize people. I'm not talking crazy here, jesus is the prize! Not nothing on this earth!

God can graft you in! Romans 11:23 ".......if they abide not still in unbelief, shall be grafted in: for god is able to graft them in again."...........................

2011-05-29T23:58:00.000-07:00

God he doesn't make garbage 2 Corinthians 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ,

he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new."
part of my skim board is in the image, just got that skim board today
I skim boarded a lot at like the age of 18 nothing like surfing a good wave!

God can graft you in! Romans 11:23 "And they also, if they abide not still in unbelief, shall be grafted in: for God is able to graft them in again."

Today at church Ephesians 2 stood out to me especially verse 8 "For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:" It's true, I'm never so wise, so strong, so perfect, so any that, that I don't need jesus and "grace"!!!!!!!!!!! We are weak............many times I watch the apostolic christian brothers get up before a sermon and say they is weak 1 Corinthians 1:27 "But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;" god he did he choose the weak things of the world. I to am weak! It is by the grace of god I am saved through faith.

I am a person of many "infirmities" paul talked about that 2 Corinthians 12:9-11 "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ's sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong." there's the magic word grace again! Paul wasn't strong, he wrote a lot of great stuffs in the bible but you can be sure he had a great deal many "infirmeties" I'm a infirmety city!!!!!!!!!!!! OOOOOOOOO geez!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Good thing for grace YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (man I battle somedays)

Topic near to my heart lately..........................being born of the spirit...................John 3:5 "Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he cannot enter into the kingdom of God." ........it's a whole new life............one where I walk in the spirit instead of the flesh being "born..........of the spirit" that I need that, that new life without that a person can't enter into the kingdom of god. Really pressed on me today the importance of that.

next verse also super good 6"That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and that which is born of the Spirit is spirit." That speaks to me you either of the flesh, or your of the spirit one or the other!!!!!!!!!!!!! You going to be about option a or option b!!!!!!!!!!!!
Speaks to me it's a way of being walking in the spirit.............that we need to be born of the spirit...........this new life all the time! Romans 8:5 "For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit."
Galatians 3:3 "Are ye so foolish? having begun in the Spirit, are ye now made perfect by the flesh?" DON'T DO IT DON'T EVER WALK IN THE FLESH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my review of "It's not my fault" by Anna Risa (www.brunstad.org - smith's friends cult)..................

2011-05-27T16:30:00.000-07:00

wait few minutes into this video for the music techno gold (and it has a happy ending at the end : ) but it no feel good to be picked on no way my flesh doesn't have to enjoy that that'd be demented!

I pray for the smith's friends www.brunstad.org cults souls, which seems to backfire on me cause man I have nightmares about them : (.................my review of "It's not my fault" by Anna Risa
http://www.brunstad.org/en/Edification/Comment/-It-s-not-my-fault-/
There's 1 problem I see with this article...............and this has to be a common smith's friends cult member viewpoint............."""All the unrest I feel in any situation always comes from my own lusts, and never on the actions of others."""" (((by this logic, if you all want to call it logic, I once lusted to be a member of the smith's friends cult --- and now I'm cured cause I don't lust for them anymore)))
Jesus had feelings, and I'm sure when he was reviled it didn't feel good (when he was reviled I'm sure he felt something "unrest" maybe even over the situation, I disagree fervently with Anna Risa that the unrest she feels is from her own lusts --------- it's a common thing for a human being to maybe feel unrest when being beaten or something!).........1 Peter 2:23 "Who, when he was reviled, reviled not again; when he suffered, he threatened not; but committed himself to him that judgeth righteously:" Jesus was reviled, it just couldn't of felt good to him to be reviled, or have suffered, there's things that could happen to a person to cause them great "unrest" on this earth (rape, molestation - not easy stuffs to go through) ----------- it doesn't make you some horrible sinner that you feel unrest!!!!!!!!!!!! ----- anna risa blaming it on her flesh this unrest makes herself out to be guilty for feeling unrest ----- you got beaten it's disturbing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Now I have pointed the finger back at the smith's friends in the past much and this is something I'm much working not to do (but I can still disagree with any stupid thing they say on the one public website they have on the earth www.brunstad.org) Isaiah 58:9-10 "Then shalt thou call, and the LORD shall answer; thou shalt cry, and he shall say, Here I am. If thou take away from the midst of thee the yoke, the putting forth of the finger, and speaking vanity; And if thou draw out thy soul to the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted soul; then shall thy light rise in obscurity, and thy darkness be as the noon day:"
Anyways I prayed last night for the smith's friends, bible says to love your enemies and pray for them cause you like love them and don't wish for them to burn in hell for all of eternity n'stuffs...............backfires on me everytime, had smith's friends cult nightmares galore last night --------- so today I prayed for the smith's friends and then also prayed that I wouldn't have nightmares about them tonight ---------- yep I'm sure this'll work n'stuff : )

Is your joy full????? john 16:24 "ask, and ye shall receive, that your joy may be full"........................

2011-05-24T15:18:00.000-07:00

"please let me be a rock star lord please,

I'll just play christian songs I promise"

I told god, he should answer my prayer John 16:24 "Hitherto have ye asked nothing in my name: ask, and ye shall receive, that your joy may be full." My joy is HARDLY full right now! HARDLY! I'm clean miserable being like everybody else. (uhhhhhhhh sheri you are like hardly like everybody else though - hahahahahahaahahahahahaahahahah)
This goes against my last blog post but does not god want us to be happy????? Proverbs 3:13 "Happy is the man that findeth wisdom, and the man that getteth understanding." Proverbs 16:20 "He that handleth a matter wisely shall find good: and whoso trusteth in the LORD, happy is he."
uhhhhhhhhhhh sheri your sure trying to run from that house of mourning there - uh ya ; ) hahahahahahahahaahahahahahaahahahaahahahahaahahah ROCK N ROLL hahahahahahahahaahahahaahahahah
Isn't the whole goal JOY 1 Peter 1:7-9

⁷That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:

⁸Whom having not seen, ye love; in whom, though now ye see him not, yet believing, ye rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory:

⁹Receiving the end of your faith, even the salvation of your souls.

So uh god, um the goods please uh thank you drive through (sheri sheri sheri sheri) Feel free to mourn though if the needs is all hitting ya hahahahahahahahahahaha Ecclesiastes 7:2 "It is better to go to the house of mourning, than to go to the house of feasting: for that is the end of all men; and the living will lay it to his heart." hmmmmmmmmmmmm good n'sad, or happy?????????????? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm let me see???????????? hahahahahahahahahahahah happy BING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm convinced I'm supposed to be all mourning..........please don't laugh I'm serious................

2011-05-21T22:42:00.000-07:00

Don't dare to be stupid don't do it

I'm convinced I'm supposed to be all mourning..........please don't laugh I'm serious................Ecclesiastes 7:4 "The heart of the wise is in the house of mourning; but the heart of fools is in the house of mirth." We supposed to be all good n'sad I'm 100% about this!!!!!!!!!!!!
Proverbs 10:14 "Wise men lay up knowledge: but the mouth of the foolish is near destruction." Don't be a fool, don't do it! Don't dare to be stupid!!!!!!!!! Less, less the stupidity though I'm sure god is not counting my parafoil kiting stupidity - surely that don't count. It's the "mouth" of the foolish that is "near destruction". (I still get to do all the parafoil kiting stupid stupid stupid all I want : )
Hold onto god's word, this is the biggy god has laid on me recently........Proverbs 21:20-21 "There is treasure to be desired and oil in the dwelling of the wise; but a foolish man spendeth it up. He that followeth after righteousness and mercy findeth life, righteousness, and honour." The foolish man does "spendeth it up" how...............well this fool sometime's will blog stuffs and then be done with that bit of god's word god laid on me "spendeth it up"...........off to fool land. The prosperous way isn't the fool way.........."He that followeth after righteousness and mercy findeth life, righteousness, and honour" Proverbs 3:35 "The wise shall inherit glory: but shame shall be the promotion of fools."
Proverbs 4:5 "Get wisdom, get understanding: forget it not; neither decline from the words of my mouth." Get it and don't let it decline from your mouth!!!!!!!!!!! Don't want no fool stuffs coming from your mouth, just wisdom. Because the fools -------------- "shame shall be the promotion of fools"
Fellow fools, if any you struggling with mass amounts of folly get in gods word Ecclesiastes 2:13 "Then I saw that wisdom excelleth folly, as far as light excelleth darkness."
1 Corinthians 1:27 "But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;" I shall leave the smartians scratching their heads : )
I am a little sad to in that house of mourning some these days, that I am such a fool sometimes, it is a grevious thing to me these days. Rather I wish to be wise, just wise, no fool, no folly, no more! You all can be sure "shame shall be the promotion of fools"

God showed up today for me : )...................................

2011-05-21T15:20:00.000-07:00

I was at my kids school carnival just another day really. All the sudden this lady walks up to me and her friend and was like would you like these tickets for blah blah blah............I was completely at that moment filled with the holy spirit and really felt god's prescence to..........usually I don't take like nothing free from somebody that's usually not my mo AT ALL. But since how God hand was in it...........I got my husband asked him if he wanted to go to this thing and he was like sure................it'll be fun tommorow after church of course, still going to church.
Especially special that god would show up like this on this particular day...........it means something extra special to me.
I don't want to forget this day, somedays I get real good at convincing myself that god doesn't care, or god doesn't love me - BS MYSELF!!!!!!!!!!!! BS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Have a great day earth : )

All I ever needed all along was jesus......................

2011-05-19T08:25:00.000-07:00

All I ever needed all along was jesus...................last night while playing some my music which I turn into something real else - my typical funky town cling athon - singing that stuffs to god (oh it's stuffs I sing to god ok) JESUS SHOWED UP LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! All the sudden it was jesus time! Man I love jesus when he shows up! He made my evening jesus did! Jesus turned all those songs clean around!
Got me thinking..............cause jesus usually shows up when I'm pretty geeky, when I'm even down and out!!!!!!!!!! Psalm 138:6 "Though the LORD be high, yet hath he respect unto the lowly: but the proud he knoweth afar off." When I'm in the little place, jesus has showed up! Notice psalm 138:6 says god "but the proud he knoweth afar off" he still knoweth the proud and I've also experienced that!!!!!! Well who I foolin most the time that is my experience!
Anyways reminded me of this 4 day christian rock thing I went to "Jesus Northwest" in high school...........so back then of course I was with the popular kids.........and 2 them were going to meet a band, and I was like nah go ahead without me (at jesus northwest) and then the next day they just clean took off without even asking me.........well I ended up spending most that 4 days ALONE! Course it was greately my fault -- surely I could've befriended someone!!!!!!!!! No instead I choose to cry a lot ---------- geez ----------- ya I remember it well like a big fat baby I was or skinny baby I should say skinny baby. Cause I like to torture myself, oh I enjoy being in the dumps or I did back then - YIKES!
So on the last night of jesus northwest, the geeks from our youth group and the other youth group sharing our tent space came up to me and asked me if I wanted to hang with them ------------ it's sick of me, and demented I almost said no ----------- these were the very kids some them I recall well, that I was clean making fun out to my popular friends well dang that very day can't even say 2-3 days ago no that very day (ooooooooooooooooo sister sheri this all incriminating stuffs........what the hell) but I had grown tired of my alone time, my torture myself time, so I was like sure.
So we go up to the bleachers cause it was raining and cold that night..........as I recall one them brought a blanket with, either that or one them went and got a blanket? I told them everything, I spilled my guts out (not that they really asked for my guts but uh I gave them to them anyways hahahahahahahaaha) all I remember is we all shared that blanket, and seeing jesus in those geeks so much so, and the warmth and the love, they clean put their arms around me like the whole night, it was just us and jesus and that we were or weren't popular it just didn't matter anymore............christ was there................we had the best seats in the house!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was it. That was uh what I needed, what I was looking for THE PRIZE. Wasn't with the popular kids, though hey they might've been filled with jesus prescense in all their groupy athon (I asked them at the end of the day what they'd been up to and they told me doing the groupy thing - I remember I was a bit envious - but also at the same time it all sounded exhausting all that scooping out for the various band members that's work) I'm still friends with the said popular kids............most the geeks I sat with that night......or maybe all them........were from the youth group sharing our tent space.
But anyways my point is if you in a pathetic lowly place - don't worry about it - that's often when jesus shows up!!!!!!!!!!!!
I never needed the popularity, all I ever needed all along was jesus!

first layer of paint on my jesus painting ------- serious art this is...........historic maybe even....................

2011-05-17T13:39:00.000-07:00

first layer of paint on my jesus painting ------- serious art this is...........historic maybe even....................but uh I'm annoyed already with jesus feet showing and I think I need to just make his dress thing longer, everyone will know he's walking on water.........it'll just make his proportions right. Or better per my artistic perspective.
God is the ball of light in the middle of the painting, several paintings of mine I have had god like this depicted always a ball of white light like this. The disciple stepping out of the boat is wearing red on purpose Isaiah 1:18 "Come now, and let us reason together, saith the LORD: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool."
The night being made day is part of the symbolism of this piece.....2 Samuel 22:29 "For thou art my lamp, O LORD: and the LORD will lighten my darkness."
My art isn't meant to be just viewed, it's meant to be felt. If all I painted were pretty little paintings, then I would have 0 interest in being a artist. No I'm after making people feel something. These days in this rush this world is in, everyone is numb to the flowers on the tree's I swear!!!!!!!!!!! Stop and feel something and remember what it's all about..............God..........loving Him, praising Him, living for Him...........it's all about god it isn't about you if you thought it was about you WRONG. (((((((ooooooooooooo sister sheri you are just obnoxious these days hahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahaahahahahaah)))))

FORSAKE ALL that you have!!!!!!!!!!!!! COUNT IT AS DUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!.....................

2011-05-17T10:28:00.000-07:00

give your life to jesus if you ain't already, you won't regret it at all I don't

I've figured out why it's hard for the rich man to enter the kingdom of heaven.......................Luke 14:33 "So likewise, whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple." You gotta FORSAKE ALL that you have!!!!!!!!!!!!! COUNT IT AS DUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!! Philippians 3:8 "Yea doubtless, and I count all things but loss for the excellency of the knowledge of Christ Jesus my Lord: for whom I have suffered the loss of all things, and do count them but dung, that I may win Christ," DUNG!
   Luke 18:21-23 "And he said, All these have I kept from my youth up. Now when Jesus heard these things, he said unto him, Yet lackest thou one thing: sell all that thou hast, and distribute unto the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, follow me. And when he heard this, he was very sorrowful: for he was very rich." DUNG DUNG DUNG are your earthly goods!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't care how pretty your car is IT IS DUNG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   Better off you all are earth, to really heed jesus here, and sell what you have..........distribute to the poor AND THOUGH SHALT HAVE TREASURE IN HEAVEN and then you know take up yer cross and follow jesus!
   It's so freeing to count all the earthly buisiness as dung..........to not have to live for that stuffs no more. Instead of walking in the flesh, ya walk in the spirit!!!!!!!!! Romans 8:1 "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit."
The flesh walking in that will lead ya to death!!!!!!!!!!!Romans 7:5 "For when we were in the flesh, the motions of sins, which were by the law, did work in our members to bring forth fruit unto death."
   Bring forth the good fruits walking in the spirit ya some Mark 4:20 "And these are they which are sown on good ground; such as hear the word, and receive it, and bring forth fruit, some thirtyfold, some sixty, and some an hundred." I'm obsessed with fruit these days sorry bout that : ) hahahahahahah The goats is lazy!!!!!!!! God wants us to bear fruit!!!!!!!!!!!!! To really reach out to the hurt and the sick, etc. I'm super polly gripped right now...................so bear with me...............
Matthew 25
³⁴Then shall the King say unto them on his right hand, Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world:
³⁵For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in:
³⁶Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me.
³⁷Then shall the righteous answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, and fed thee? or thirsty, and gave thee drink?
³⁸When saw we thee a stranger, and took thee in? or naked, and clothed thee?
³⁹Or when saw we thee sick, or in prison, and came unto thee?
⁴⁰And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.
   Isaiah 58:10 "And if thou draw out thy soul to the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted soul; then shall thy light rise in obscurity, and thy darkness be as the noon day:"

   The things of this earth is DUNG people's!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Obviously there's more to do then volunteer at a foodbank aka my tact : ) mathew 25 verses 34-39 has a whole list, just dang pick a few ---------- don't love the things of this earth either, don't do it! "...................whosoever he be of you that forsaketh not all that he hath, he cannot be my disciple" FORSAKE ALL THAT YOU HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   I'm a fool, that's what god laid on me like super glue, what can I do????????? Besides work at the food bank, geez I'm dang working at the foodbank for the rest of my life or I hope so, I hope I be a wise fool in that way..............not love none the things of this earth none them, it's all dung. Painting a jesus painting today : ) Have a great day earth : )

climbing that stairway to heaven..................

2011-05-16T15:59:00.000-07:00

Today was my first day volunteering at the foodbank, it went well. You all know a person really can climb that stairway to heaven!!!!!!!!! Matthew 7:7 "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:"
Work at the foodbanks that's my advice so jesus never says of you...........
Matthew 25
⁴⁴Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee?
⁴⁵Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me.
⁴⁶And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal.
Jesus be saying bye bye don't let the door hit yer butt! Lazy lazy is the goats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!! The sheep they work they bear fruit, they work at the foodbanks and jesus will say..........enter into the kingdom of heaven. : )
I didn't take pics cause ya get there and then ya have to put on gloves and apron and hair net and then taking a pic is just a pain. I like filled bags with green beans, 2.05 lbs worth just about every single time that's the number I hit on the scale. And I found out that returning foodbank helpers at the foodbank near me can earn prizes, t-shirts, and coffee mugs, etc. etc. 20-25 hours of volunteering and I'll have a coffee cup : ) for those who salvation isn't enough motivation hahahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahaahahahahah (I know I have a messed up sense of humour hahahahahahahahahaahahahahaahahahahaha)
um, be ye edified earth : ) My husband says he can't help with me every monday, but I like monday mornings, so I might be doing this weekly solo, I'm thinking about it. Heaven's become priority #1 for me. I trust god, am trusting god to fill in all the rest of the blanks Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." I do my job god do's his that's how it works ; )
I'm reading a christian book, said if you want to get god serving you you first have to serve Him. Ya this being a sheep stuffs is going to work out n'stuff.

I more then respect my elders, I enjoy picking their brains, they have wisdom............

2011-05-14T23:10:00.000-07:00

"Ye shall go to the old people, and the old people shall make ye wise"

not a actual bible verse just my take on things - but jesus pry said that! I'm betting he did!

(xoxoxoxoxoxo apostolic christian church of america Valentine most definately ON xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox few kissing to living hope church they praying for me I'm a tuff customer I won't deny it) I more then respect my elders, I enjoy picking their brains, they have wisdom............at the apostolic christian church of america..........most the time I sit by the old peoples : ) brain picking time for me : ) Ecclesiastes 7:25 "I applied mine heart to know, and to search, and to seek out wisdom, and the reason of things, and to know the wickedness of folly, even of foolishness and madness:" really god is this what your telling me right now?????????????? Right now????????????? Is this why you mad at me????????? hmmmm well back to my thing...............wisdom is something to seek out to TREASURE!!!!!!!!! I know the name of the game it's get wisdom Proverbs 4:7 "Wisdom is the principal thing; therefore get wisdom: and with all thy getting get understanding."

Proverbs 19:8 "He that getteth wisdom loveth his own soul: he that keepeth understanding shall find good." I told my old lifegroup leader of living hope church, I miss my old life group that I enjoyed picking all the old foogies brains there - I did a lot!

Dang god, shoooooooooot, bringing up eccliesiastes 7:25 to me..............well I guess this is proof why one needs wisdom otherwise I'd just stay a fool not knowing of it's wickedness???????????? What wickedness that is???????????????? But that's what it says there sure enough "and KNOW the wickedness of folly" to KNOW it. I have cards up my hand to god Ecclesiastes 2:13 "Then I saw that wisdom excelleth folly, as far as light excelleth darkness." Ya I chucked that bible verse up my sleeve several days ago ; )

1 Peter 1:17 "And if ye call on the Father, who without respect of persons judgeth according to every man's work, pass the time of your sojourning here in fear:" Man I fear god more then ever.............I some these blog posts, like I really had that stuffs in me NO, god's been using me, and His usage of me has instilled a deep fear of Him in me -------- or it's instilling a deep fear of God in me I should say. I used to not fear god like this.

I'm finding it's true light does excelleth the darkness Ecclesiastes 2:13 "...........as far as light excelleth darkness".................

2011-05-14T23:01:00.000-07:00

(so sheri what's the art in this blog post about "pick quick" better burgers aka god's burgers : )

(body of christ valentine ON) I'm finding it's true light does excelleth the darkness Ecclesiastes 2:13 "Then I saw that wisdom excelleth folly, as far as light excelleth darkness." Like Jack White............I've been to the """"top"""" (up being down and down being up)--------- see I'm doubling up churches cause I don't trust myself anymore............well this weekend.........IT WAS A NO GO!!!!! (LIke I couldn't get the "green light pulsing" if ya don't know what that means few blog posts down, duran duran song about god always watching us) I've went into the light so much, that the darkness is now el gonno!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't open up no NO portals right now. Darkness is el gonno right now, el el el el el el el gonno.
I even like watched like daystar christian tv at the hotel last night and this morning, actually enjoyed it. In the light might as well be's watching the christian tv I recogn...........dark is el gonno right now. Gotta stay away from satan and I know it, I know it, I know that route will lead me to hell ----------- 2 churches for then. Gotta love living hope, they super want me to play my electric guitar in front of church - or the kids at my serious coffee bible study do : ) I was made for the electric guitar. Anything to try and get me to be saved they's all about : )
And at my aunt's church I've also been extremely EXTREMELY entertained recently ------- but uh, ya I bestest keep that hahahahahahahah to myself..............god's watching. Toning the comedy athon down yep towning it down, well geez that's a doozy item there.
So uh, if ya in the dark, if ya demon possessed, get to cracka lackin, go to church, read yer bible, the light does excell the darkness...........but ya gotta keep on keeping on in the word of god or the darkness could very well just creep back on ya that's what I recogn! And that really goes for all christians you really all need to be continually in the word of god cause we war not against flesh and blood...........Ephesians 6:12
"For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places."

bible says to beware of the wolves in sheeps clothing...........bMatthew 10:16 Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves...............

2011-05-12T04:12:00.000-07:00

This life is a wolf rodeo, with a dash of sheep thrown in..........

listen to this song, towards end she talks about praying for angels to be over her

bible says to beware of the wolves in sheeps clothing...........be mindful that they are out there that's what I need to do I've decided...............Matthew 10:16 "Behold, I send you forth as sheep in the midst of wolves: be ye therefore wise as serpents, and harmless as doves." More then any time in my life I'm feeling like I am very much a "sheep in the midst of wolves" potentially and most definately whole entire churches of wolves out there I've decided.

Matthew 7:15-16 "Beware of false prophets, which come to you in sheep's clothing, but inwardly they are ravening wolves. Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles?" BEWARE of these "false prophets" they come in sheeps clothing but BUT "ye shall know them by their fruits"
Is it bad I'm just going to take a pretend "smoke break" at my bible study tonight...........cause I don't like being devoured like this Galatians 5:15 "But if ye bite and devour one another, take heed that ye be not consumed one of another." it's just not good for me.............I'm to weak I am the sort to be "consumed" take it all to heart. (jesus daily facebook page didn't help either yesterday so unchristian of them to boot me from their facebook page, when more then anything I needed to be loved, showed mercy)
I know they are all pry wolves and I'm easy prey................all having been a satan worshipper once and all.
Somedays I just want to go in a cave and hide, and that is definately today. But this is why we all need jesus so much, cause we are "sheep in the midst of wolves:" that is if your a sheep! If your a wolf which chances are you is..............uh go pray. Psalm 103:8 "The LORD is merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and plenteous in mercy."
Psalm 22 "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me? why art thou so far from helping me, and from the words of my roaring?.......................But I am a worm, and no man; a reproach of men, and despised of the people.............Many bulls have compassed me: strong bulls of Bashan have beset me round..........I am poured out like water, and all my bones are out of joint: my heart is like wax; it is melted in the midst of my bowels..................For dogs have compassed me: the assembly of the wicked have inclosed me: they pierced my hands and my feet."

Don't condemn me and god won't condemn you living hope church...............

2011-05-11T16:55:00.000-07:00

tired of being condemned are you sheri oooooooooooo to bad (funky town, funky funky funkdefied)

sorry for the last blog post apparently it was a bunch of gibberish that's what a member of Living Hope church is telling me.................so today I paid 9 dollars for prayer.............I did get a kick out one the questions asked "do you believe this prayer will be answered" NO
God wanted me to pray today, so I prayed, I told god what? What you want from me? I told you to come the fuck on did I not? I can only imagine god is like everybody else, waiting waiting for me to get rid of whatever sin is bothering Him so much ---------- well I told him that is hardly fair to penalize me for a sin I do not even know about! Job 10:2 "I will say unto God, Do not condemn me; shew me wherefore thou contendest with me."
Psalm 109:31 "For he shall stand at the right hand of the poor, to save him from those that condemn his soul." Let me remind you of your job GOD!
Christians love to judge me and condemn me a slew, and then randomnly one'll walk up to me every now and then and say Romans 8:1 "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit." But it's hard for me not to walk around feeling like a criminal being treated like a criminal by christians by everybody all the time!
What is criminal about me?????????????? I said clearly I have battled having feelings for satan, and that I am currently not praying to him and working to not pray to him anymore. And I currently am praying off the demons ---------- and doing all I can do to be in god's word and be in the light ------------ yet still many you want to condemn me ------------ is that english enough????????????? Was I clear???????????? Any confusion out there?????????????

Some bible verses I find a battle to heed..............you all might laugh at me............I don't know if I should talk much.......................

2011-05-10T09:23:00.000-07:00

What kind of pirate am I if I let some youthful lusts bog me down, no the youthful lusts I shall flee from Romans 8:37 "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us."
Some bible verses I find a battle to heed..............you all might laugh at me............I don't know if I should talk much.......................2 Timothy 2:22 "Flee also youthful lusts: but follow righteousness, faith, charity, peace, with them that call on the Lord out of a pure heart." I know I have gone off the deep end, ooooooooooooo I have, I have a pic of a certain band on my google main page with their dreamy bedroom eye's looking back at me ------- I know I need to whack myself upside the head already what the hell? Fleeing this stuffs is a good idea, I agree with whoever wrote 2 timothy 2:22. Man though that's a tuffy bible verse to heed for me. I love my google banner do dad magijjer. What could be a better banner on my google homepage, flowers nah, rainbows nah, unicorns nah, waterfalls nah, the grand canyon nah, cuddly koala bears nah, cute puppies nah, a hot band with bedroom eyes staring back at me BING! ------------ obviously I need prayer oh not so much no more hahahahhaah this pirates BACK! Colossians 2:20 "Wherefore if ye be dead with Christ from the rudiments of the world, why, as though living in the world, are ye subject to ordinances," DEAD WITH CHRIST AHOY MATTEYS!!!!!!!!!! AHOY!!!!!!!!!!!!! Set the sails!
Anyways back to stoking the earth to feed the hungry and myself Isaiah 58:7-11 "Is it not to deal thy bread to the hungry, and that thou bring the poor that are cast out to thy house? when thou seest the naked, that thou cover him; and that thou hide not thyself from thine own flesh?Then shall thy light break forth as the morning, and thine health shall spring forth speedily: and thy righteousness shall go before thee; the glory of the LORD shall be thy reward. Then shalt thou call, and the LORD shall answer; thou shalt cry, and he shall say, Here I am. If thou take away from the midst of thee the yoke, the putting forth of the finger, and speaking vanity; And if thou draw out thy soul to the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted soul; then shall thy light rise in obscurity, and thy darkness be as the noon day:And the LORD shall guide thee continually, and satisfy thy soul in drought, and make fat thy bones: and thou shalt be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water, whose waters fail not."sounds good to me sign me up for that : ) And it's official I'm working at the food bank by me soon : ) speaks to me these verses that not only will your "light rise in obscurity" if you "draw out thy soul to the hungry, and satisfy the afflicted soul" but also then the LORD SHALL GUIDE THEE CONTINUALLY, and satisfy they soul in drought, and make fat thy bones.....................you sick ya reach out to the poor........................."and thine health shall spring forth speedily" ahhhhhhhhhhhhh ya, I'm not ill but uh awesome verse : ) though some you really really ill out there it may just increase you health a bit you know what I'm saying............worth trying though reaching out to the hungry see if that ups yer health! Definately such stuffs makes god happy and I think it's bestest to kiss his butt (sheri sheri sheri who talks like this? uhhhhh me hahahahahahahahaahahahaha) Blowing kisses to ya god - I'm a kiss up, teachers pet sure thing : ) ROCK ON!
"and thy righteousness shall go before thee; the glory of the LORD shall be thy reward"
Rock n Roll! It's on god, like donkey kong! coooooooooommmmmmmmmmmpany car god ; ) have a great day earth : )

the stubborn tree the refused to bear jesus fruit................

2011-05-05T07:43:00.000-07:00

tuelly god's word is the gas station for our souls, but it doesn't cost nearly $4 a gallon

God lays stuff on me lately in the morning lately, this morning it was about the stubborn tree that refused to bear jesus fruit. It's interesting bulk of mathew 21 is jesus talking about fruit but anyways this is the verse god laid on me this morning due to the character He is Matthew 21:19-20 "And when he saw a fig tree in the way, he came to it, and found nothing thereon, but leaves only, and said unto it, Let no fruit grow on thee henceforward for ever. And presently the fig tree withered away. And when the disciples saw it, they marvelled, saying, How soon is the fig tree withered away!"
   To be having fruit right, YA NEED TO BE IN THE WORD OF GOD that's what god laid on me this morning. It do none us no good to be a stubborn not willing to go to church tree, with no fruit for jesus!
Mathew 21:43 "Therefore say I unto you, The kingdom of God shall be taken from you, and given to a nation bringing forth the fruits thereof." Bear fruit equals = go to heaven happy god, happy jesus. Stubborn fruitless tree ------------------------------------------------------------ haaaaaaaaaaaackkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
   Luke 13:9 "And if it bear fruit, well: and if not, then after that thou shalt cut it down." CHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP (yes I have a good time following jesus these days hahahaahhaahahahahahahahahahahahahah)
This is the verse proving god's word brings the fruit, (this just something I know myself for a facto mondo) Matthew 13:23 "But he that received seed into the good ground is he that heareth the word, and understandeth it; which also beareth fruit, and bringeth forth, some an hundredfold, some sixty, some thirty." So earholes open go to church ok............be not the stubborn tree jesus was talking about in Matthew 21:19-20 GO TO CHURCH (god gave me this message somebody I'm supposed to get going to church) go to church listen be listening get as much understanding as you can, heck ask questions I annoy the living #@%$@#%$@#% out of pastor mike nearly every day : ) hahahahahahahahahahahaahahahahah ROCK N ROLL hahahahahahahahahahahahahah
   Um anyways I'm certain, being at church, really paying attention at church, pestering your pastor til he wants to be taken up to heaven hahahahahahahahahahahah for like "understanding" right, uh like this'll make for good fruit I'm sure of it...........it's the stubborn tree refusing to go to church, or maybe going to church but not paying attention that the tree in trouble. Oh and the good ground also might be from mathew 13:23 a willingness to heed god's word...................the bearing fruit, that happens when you put to action loving your neighbor, caring for the orphans, and the widows, and the homeless so this blog post really ties in with the previous one quite a bit.
So kids the lesson today is less stubborn ok, bear fruit, bear that good gooey love each other fruit ok : )

ACTION we need ACTION as christians, it's not enough to just kinda like god, kinda ey you know be cool with jesus...................

2011-05-03T20:05:00.000-07:00

Help the hungry please!

(extra xoxoxoxoxo apostolic christian church of america xoxoxoxoxoxo I've been pestering one my aunts apostolic christian church of america pastor's much and no doubt they are praying for me ROCK N ROLL) Matthew 25:44-46 "Then shall they also answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, or athirst, or a stranger, or naked, or sick, or in prison, and did not minister unto thee? Then shall he answer them, saying, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye did it not to one of the least of these, ye did it not to me.And these shall go away into everlasting punishment: but the righteous into life eternal."
Jesus said, whatever you do not do for .........................you did not do for me..................ACTION we need ACTION as christians, it's not enough to just kinda like god, kinda eh you know be cool with jesus. There's homeless there's poor there's widows we supposed to help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! James 1:27 "Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world." NOT sit on my butt and do nothing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Jesus going to say to that bunch "what you did not do for the least of these you did not do unto me bye bye let the door smack yer butt on the way to hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

So uh, dang, I'm going to sign up to help out at the food pantry. Which I've done this kind of work before, I'm good at it, I don't have to do it a lot, maybe once a month, some doing of some good right, not just sitting on my butt!

I think it's a fine line between sheep or goat, saved or unsaved. Jesus really wants us to be buisy like doing good to people! It really speaks to me that in Matthew 25:45 this was a LAZY bunch. Matthew 7:22
"Many will say to me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name? and in thy name have cast out devils? and in thy name done many wonderful works?" AHHHHHHHHHH DID YOU FEED THE HUNGRY, DID YOU CARE FOR THE ORPHANS I'm convinced just having a pretty ministry isn't enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It isn't ENOUGH to "cast out devils" NO, or in jesus name "done many wonderful works" NO! YOU NEED TO REACH OUT TO THE HUNGRY AND THE HURTING! And it just hits me how important it is to be doing buisiness for the poor, be buisy, be reaching out to the orphans and the widows and the poor, be buisy doing this stuffs like all the freakin time or like continually ---------- steadfastly 1 Corinthians 15:58 "Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord." God wants profit and to be a profitable servant of god you gotta be buisy in the work of the lord, in feeding the poor and careing for the widows and the orphans if you know some I'm gripped of this like never before! Life changing what god laid on me today.

I don't want to be no lazy goat, flung to hell NO! It's simple things we need to be faithful in god isn't asking to much of us, it's a simple thing to help out at the food pantry it's not torturous labour under the hot sun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! profit, profitable, profitable for god Matthew 25:30 "And cast ye the unprofitable servant into outer darkness: there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth." The profit isn't so much in the preaching of god's word non stop blaring in the earths ears, no the profit god desires from me most is to get out there and help! Talk I don't think is enough! Ya my ministry is some of my talents that I am not buring in the dirt, but some more of my talents that I need not to bury is my food pantry skills! Not be no lazy goat!

This is what I'm gripped for earth, bestest we all get to it, maybe some you that is just giving some money to the poor WELL DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!

God's car is the best it really is.........................I want His car the most thank god cause I've been headin in a bad direction for to long..........................

2011-05-01T18:39:00.000-07:00

God's car is the best it really is.........................I want His car the most thank god cause I've been headin in a bad direction for to long. Today at church this verse stood out to me............Ephesians 6:11 "Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil." It was like god was taking a mega phone to my dork earholes, and saying "HEY SHERI MY WORD YOU NEED MORE OF MY WORD" be in it love it, live it, eat it, sleep it, breath it IT'LL SAVE YOU.
And I got loud and clear I can't make no more fool deals with god, that god isn't in the wink wink buisiness..................but I did successfuly scooted 1 deal across the table to god : ) He loved me so much He was going to take that deal, if He didn't take that deal I was going to keep on doing some real real real real real real real real real real real real real real real real real real few more reals infinity BAD STUFF! That would of not only lead me to hell, quickly would've lead me to hell and I knew it.............I knew I wasn't on no good road!
I'm done god, done trying to make chump......................deals with you ----------- you got me. I want the company car WAIT YOU HEARING ME GOD I WANT THE COMPANY CAR? Let's disco god - IT'S ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And be ye edified earth! For reals! And have a great day earth!

I've gotten to sick it's a crisis already.....................

2011-04-29T13:26:00.000-07:00

Switchfoot is THE band I'm all about them. Last night at bible study, it was demented the joke I made, so sick I've gotten, and worse worse oh ya there's worse we have this daily bible study devotional do dad thingy mabob that's how living hopes serious coffee's work w/workbooks. I'm all writing insane buisiness to god in the thing...............crude at this rate..........not only will I not share any my thoughts, opening up the bible study workbook is aye. man. not so a go, not so a green light there. I used a highlighter and a red pen cause I'm demented like that! Hell I might even go buy some extra s p e c i a l highlighters for the occasion and glitter I feel I need glitter
   I made a mess of me ok, just like this song says..........and there ain't no drug, there ain't no drug. It's jesus or freaking caos for me. Freaking caos.
   I've gotten to good at lieing to myself............
I've told myself it's plenty ok to pray to satan I'm just being his buddy afterall
and if per say you are spiritually struggling a bunch and satan is in you ROCK AND ROLL

But this is messed up, I'm sure of it. This is messed up. Up is Up! Why would any us want satan? Why? I think satan if you going to go that route wouldn't that count as a "work of the flesh:" will that ain't going to lead a person to heaven. Galatians 5:19-20 "Now the works of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies," Listening to http://www.bnapostolicchristian.com/index.php?option=com_wrapper&view=wrapper&Itemid=110
well that link should lead ya to it : ) hahahahah pastor said, to look for a person with a hole.........................so maybe this crisis ok! Gotta have a crisis to have a need to draw near to jesus I think.........course I'm defcon 5........don't worry earth if your crisises are littlier I'm DEFCON 5. I greately suspect the lead singer of switchfoot to of also been at defcon 5 at one point. Defcon 5 apparently makes some good music : )
Have a great week earth : )

I do want to have a clean inside of my cup!....................

2011-04-26T17:59:00.000-07:00

(apostolic christian church of america and living hope church and the rest of the body of christ xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo valentine ON) As you can see on this package it says "feel light and clean inside" ya isn't that what most us want? I want that! Luke 11:39 "And the Lord said unto him, Now do ye Pharisees make clean the outside of the cup and the platter; but your inward part is full of ravening and wickedness." These words been man on me, "full of ravening and wickedness" I told one the leading brother's of my aunts apostolic christian church of america today................I need inside my cup to get clean, it just does no good to be in a huff everytime I don't get my way. And it's just horrible in general the idea of having ones inward part "FULL of ravening and wickedness" --------- I want to "feel light and clean inside" : ) light and clean!
This verse also super spoke to me lately, was just good to hear and on the topic.........John 3:20 "For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved." Thank god I don't hate the light!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank god I'm willing to go to His word, and pray...............confess my sins, which is a long tally - YIKES! speaks to me "least his deeds should be reproved" REPROVE MY DEEDS PLEASE JESUS! I want my cup clean and light!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not full of ravening and wickedness NO MORE!
Love people, pray for people, no more walking off in no huff cause things didn't work out as I planned!!!!!!! I hope that happens no more. I hope I can humble myself. Be like where I need to be to be saved! Not think myself to be something greater then I am no more! For I recogn we all are but DUST! That's what I recogn anyways : ) Isaiah 66:2 "For all those things hath mine hand made, and all those things have been, saith the LORD: but to this man will I look, even to him that is poor and of a contrite spirit, and trembleth at my word." well one thing at a time myself one thing at a time!
   uhhhhhhhhhh, ya um, so like this weekend...............I didn't do my usual mo, I actually sat by a sister, she was glad I could tell glad I sat by her ------------------ I was glad she was glad. I wish the mush fest stopped there..............I gave my aunt a hug after church and a brother gave me one those apostolic christian farewell thingies which I enjoyed : ) and one sister put her arm around me.............all the warm and toasty I was enjoying much this weekend : ) Oh and at living hope a brother also put his hand on my back and blessed me..........the mush fest follows me with both the churches : ) and I enjoy it at both them : )
   ummmm so uh, follow jesus n'stuff cause uh man this ravening and wickedness stuffs aye, it'll like bite a person in the ..........................sooner or later truuuuuuuuuuuuussssssssst me. More warm and toasty, less ravening and wickedness : )
   Have a great week earth : )

John 12:46 "...........that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness" are you in the dark today? Jesus wants us in the light!........................

2011-04-21T09:07:00.000-07:00

John 12:46 "...........that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness" are you in the dark today? Jesus wants us in the light!........................John 12:44-46 "Jesus cried and said, He that believeth on me, believeth not on me, but on him that sent me. And he that seeth me seeth him that sent me. I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness." Ya probably this verse goes further then just people who struggle with the uhhhhhhh "when the green light starts pulsing" are your thoughts dark? OPEN THE WORD TODAY! Jesus doesn't wish for us to abide in the darkness!
Last night listening to kpdq christian radio, man it was like that brother was talking smack just to me............he said............."your the judge in a black robe saying your guilty, your the jury saying your guilty, your the lawyer saying your guilty.......................and you know who's telling you these things -------- SATAN!" The floor dropped from under me (and my uh kpdq quote definately isn't word for word the basic gist) That's what satan is the accuser of the brethren Revelation 12:10
"And I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, Now is come salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of his Christ: for the accuser of our brethren is cast down, which accused them before our God day and night." That's definately a tool satan uses against us, he likes to keep us feeling defeated............if you have gave or are giving your life to christ your jesus's jesus don't hold that stuffs against you just satan does! (that's what god spoke to me last night anyways)
The floor dropped from under me at my aunts apostolic christian church of america too one sunday..........(holy spirit filled both times, but also just that feeling of the ground dropping from under me) when leading brother said "and that concludes this message from the elders of the apostolic christian church of america" booooooooooommmmmmmm cause I was the fool sitting there oh ya, as I've stated before fool logic doesn't think about hmmmmmmmmmm is this slutty what I'm wearing today? (he was talking about how a special concern of the elder brothers is how the women dress) --------- which now you all are wondering well geez what the heck was I wearing especially if you viewed my epic apostolic christian porn post a few posts ago. I'm not just a fool, I do it up epic style. only god thank god only god knows the extent of it. Don't worry, I'm making a effort to dress better ----------- it's a battle for me ----------- fool logic, fool logic spreads as far as jesus (there's a bible verse about the extent of jesus, like the reach of him or something) I can't just shut the fool logic off - I don't know how to do that? (man I thought my butt looked good in that dress..........ya it's skimpier then all heck and hell - but I look good in that dress ---------- ahhhhhhhhhhhh what you doing with me jesus? Can't a fool just dress slutty already??????????????) ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh there is though some bible verses about all not dressing slutty though hugh? Geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz killing me. (though there are levels of sluttiness, I think I've figured out juuuuuuuuuuuussssssssst where I can push that envelope to juuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuust the point where god'll put up with me : ) I care about how my butt looks in clothes ok ---------- and don't be telling me none you all even the guys that you all aren't all turning around in the dressing rooms and checking how you butt looks! OOOOOOOOOOO you all know you do that common COMMON! Except maybe the ups guys pry don't do that.....................hey I still have eyeballs! Must be a preresiquite of hiring guys for the ups position --------------- man I'd be interested to see how a ups interview goes down....................like hooters is the only body part obsessed job ------------ don't think so!!!!!!!!! I'm very happy with my husband though, I just have eye's still that's all! Butt's everywhere hard to not notice one or two every now and then!
Going to watch tbn today oh ya : ) in the light : )
Have a great day earth!

A plea from a misfit to christianity...................

2011-04-19T09:36:00.000-07:00

Please please please, let the misfits attend your churches! I get why the smith's friends despise me so, me and timotheus ayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm oh more code myself, ah you've gotten very good at that. They have eyeballs after all, yelena told me "we saw you face to face" ooooooooooooo snap!
Which it's horrible it's horrible that I've struggled so long so much that I've been kicked out of a church (well technically I've been locked out of their church). But my plea to the rest of christianity which will hopefully listen to me is to let the rag tag bunch go to your church ---------- jesus was after us after all! Mark 2:17 "When Jesus heard it, he saith unto them, They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance."
Nobody needs jesus more then me, I'm sick! It's SICK to EVER have up be down and down be up like that! But good news : ) next time "the green light starts pulsing" I'm going against (which is for, up is down down is up) myself and I'm going to drop everything and pray! And I already know when the next time it's going to happen, it's going to be when I get lazy, when I'm not in god's word so much - which I hope to not get that way - heck I'm maybe so weak that'd be a real bad thing! But anyways my point is jesus came to save the MISFITS! You know I choke up when I watch that christmas movie, the one with the misfit toys..............every christmas I watch that movie..................I hid my tears. Thankfully somebody loved the misfit toys - JESUS! Thankfully somebody wanted to rescue us. It's horrible being one the misfit toys nobody wants hardly the misfit toys no, and why would they, no they want the fancy pretty beverely hills barbie - oh but wait jesus wants to save you to beverely hills barbie (I juuuuuuuust needed a example toy, ahhhhhhh work with me here god) So I choke up, and tear up every time I watch that christmas movie, one part of that movie gets me every single time!
Also I'd like to remind god and christianity, that I want jesus more then anything, he's the one I love, he's my hearts desire. He's what I'm working to live for.
I've gotten tired of being so despised, but if I fully give my life to jesus it's extremely hopeful for me (which I'm fully working hard at doing) 1 Corinthians 1:28 "And base things of the world, and things which are despised, hath God chosen, yea, and things which are not, to bring to nought things that are:"
Yelena told me not to treat the church like a hospital and I get what she's saying, not to like not try all week and then like just show up to like be cpr'd...................but some weeks seriously, I'm struggling so much to go to church for some cpr IS MY ONLY OPTION I'm saying sometimes I'm struggling THAT MUCH..........if your sick right...........makes sense to go where you can be healed. I'm sick! Real sick! real real real real sick. And there's only 1 person that can heal me and that is jesus! People should let me go to church!
If that means put out the medic cots then put em out! I'm SICK! Jesus came for me! That's why many churches have people walk up to the front to be prayed for thank god many you do that - the sick we need prayer sometimes! Some cpr some sundays!
I ain't always healthy, I ain't always well, ya I should be always healthy, I should eat sleep and breath god's word..........so I never fall, so I never hit a bad time..........but sometime's bad times happen, people die, you car breaks down I don't know? Your a stupid weak ass prideful fool like me off in stupid idiot fool land........and jump off the fool cliff! IT HAPPENS! Well go get you some CPR then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God I know he see's me he's always watching what I do, I'm never alone, I'm being followed...........

2011-04-18T08:53:00.000-07:00

I looked up to god this sunday, twice at my aunts church.............I'm never alone, I'm being followed, someone's always watching what I do, never alone.................................GOD'S WATCHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
How I relate to this song.................
"As I'm falling
Bloody roaring
Still I'm calling out
I'm calling out"
More lyrics: http://www.lyricsfreak.com/d/duran+duran/#share

See the lead singer of duran duran, he knows god's watching him all the freaking TIME. Still I'm calling out, I'm calling out --------------- he's still praying. Well that's my interpretation of the song, and I think it would likely be accurate, I have spoken in code myself to so! Me and timotheus uh uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh uh..........which by the way is me talking in code..........ya crack out yer bible calculators now if you wish ; )

Well geez, you know jesus has made a utter fool of me, when little kids are on to me now - little kids. But anyways, god's always, always, always, always, watching! Just letting ya all know!
I wish I could blind god really, lovingly blind him, it'd only take a second god, I'd make it as painless for ya as possible. Alas none us I think can blind god, all we can do is do our bestest today I think.
And don't all be thinking with yourselves, we I'm not doing that sort of stuffs ever, I only fib every now and then or lust for a worldly good every now and then ------------ GOD'S WATCHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And AND AND he really is no respector of persons, which means any fool that repents ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh : ) Acts 10:34-35 "Then Peter opened his mouth, and said, Of a truth I perceive that God is no respecter of persons: But in every nation he that feareth him, and worketh righteousness, is accepted with him." CHOP CHOP TIME TO GO AND "WORKETH RIGHTEOUSNESS" AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
((originally I had a little sidenote at the end this post.........aka a few minutes ago............god's got me fearing Him so much right now)) OK god, OK! You win!

Me the executioner, executing me the worm!.....................

2011-04-16T08:14:00.000-07:00

me the executioner: Any last words worm?

me the worm: I love the darkness so much I've clean ran from god and now I see my fool ways, for I hid the truth from myself that's why god told me to tell the apostolic christian church what was said of timotheus........1 Corinthians 16:9-11 "For a great door and effectual is opened unto me, and there are many adversaries. Now if Timotheus come, see that he may be with you without fear: for he worketh the work of the Lord, as I also do. Let no man therefore despise him: but conduct him forth in peace, that he may come unto me: for I look for him with the brethren."

me the executioner: so uh wait there what you and timotheus been up to?

me the worm: fun, I mean micheif!

me the executioner: So that means you plead guilty?

Me the worm: RIDICULOUSLY guilty sir.

me the executioner: ok then, pulling the noose release uh thingy mabob

Me the worm the final hours: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lord I love you more then ALL THE DARKNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

See when you work for god, ya satan can come and attack ok but................. Job 42:2 “I know that you can do all things; no purpose of yours can be thwarted.
to quote the beyonce song on the previous post jesus............."your kiss got me hoping you save me right now" Right now lord please. I want you!

you can lock my out of your church like this salem fellowship, www.brunstad.org, smith's friends, I don't have to like be all for it..............

2011-04-12T08:57:00.000-07:00

(brunstad christian church, www.brunstad.org, salem fellowship you want to give me the passwords hit the view my profile button this blog of mine, then click e-mail it's that simple - I ain't flying by night like you all I'm easy to reach)
I love this band, it's a ditty I picked for you salem fellowship/brunstad christian church. See us mother fer's none us have to stay in the land of 666, no I'm getting a new zipcode 777 with or without you. Hope you all are enjoying locking me out of your church - I must be enjoying it, I must think it's absolutely the saintliest delightfulest stuffs ever : ) sarcasm : ) funky town but moving to 777 seriously.

you can lock my out of your church like this salem fellowship, www.brunstad.org, smith's friends, I don't have to like be all for it..............freedom of speech a wonderful thing, to this day you call 1-503-391-2807 they haven't updated their service times since may of last year on that thing!!!!!!!!!!!! So the only people who have access to their service times are people with their secret password protected websites passwords - you gotta have a password for this site http://news.macleaychristianretreat.com/live/ and I don't! They LOCKED ME OUT!
With apostolic christian church of america, man I hope they never abandon me like that, I hope my other church living hope never abandon's me either..............I used to not fear churches abandoning me like this, now it's a real fear I have. If like my aunt's church was to abandon me, like there's only like 1 other church somewhere in portland (I don't even 100% know where I just saw a brother online talking about it) that would fit my extreme narrow way belief system.............I'm not just about suffering in the flesh, and you know um dieing daily, I need to hear the preaching of the "cross of christ" every sunday!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Corinthians 1:23 "But we preach Christ crucified, unto the Jews a stumblingblock, and unto the Greeks foolishness;" and this bible verse you need them both for the big from god 411 HE gave me Philippians 3:18
"For many walk, of whom I have told you often, and now tell you even weeping, that they are the enemies of the cross of Christ:"
This song I am a fool for jesus, jesus got me looking crazy! 1 Corinthians 4:10 "We are fools for Christ's sake, but ye are wise in Christ; we are weak, but ye are strong; ye are honourable, but we are despised." jesus got me looking C R A Z Y but uh I picking up jesus. I going to grab me that! you got me jesus baby you got me you got me you got me!

I've been talking about a dream in my sleep - "we're awakening"...................

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Alright I'm buying some christian music asap, some this buisiness not so bad. I can way relate to this song,, been talking in my sleep, we're awakening!
Know ya know what you are walking away from when you walk away from the flesh! YA DEATH! Romans 8:13 "For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live."
Hebrews 12:4 "Ye have not yet resisted unto blood, striving against sin." No coincidink that I favour the songs about pain and agony. I'm on a death vein these days on my blog, this might even be permanent............our worms must DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Our fleshes the lusts of them must DIE Romans 6:8 "Now if we be dead with Christ, we believe that we shall also live with him:"
What ya going to do? Ya going to keep walking in the lusts of the flesh til ya die??????????????? Is that the plan???????????? Agony on either side of the fence, better bleed jesus's death! Jesus sure a lot better to have in yourself then demons and I do speak from experience!
As I proved in like 4 posts ago, we all going to die one these 2 deaths, going to die anyways! Bestest die the good death in jesus, like while you's on earth, I'm talking about while we are on earth! That we not walk in the flesh no more, but be "dead with christ"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT OUR WORMS DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!