SURELY goodness and mercy shall follow me (pursue after me) all the days of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Psalm 23:1-6...............

Update 9/19/2023 I'm done with asthma, I'm sending it into remission you can do that if you excersize a ton and/or loose a ton of weight oftentimes. (there are some people maybe doomed with asthma). But last night I worked out 1 hour on the treadclimber, and only the 1st 20 minutes was I having to inhale my salt inhaler the rest of the time I didn't even need to use my inhaler 😁 I just got done working out for another hour...............whilst watched 1 1/2 arnold schwarzenegger documentaries 👍👍👍👍👍👍

that's 482 calories burnt and the day has only begun!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my legs are about to get to buff, ignore garage floor it's a real garage. My calves are so buff I got some bonus "freak muscles" like right above my ankles.............I'm way more buff then this picture this photo is NOT accurately portraiting the "situation" 

But I'm done with asthma!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can't handle asthma, I tried frisbee golfing yesterday, my chest was tight the whole time, having to sit down again and again and again to regain my breath. THE HORROR. 

In the future if all I could do to keep asthma in remission was lift weights I DOIN THAT

I DONE WITH ASTHMA

I been walking in the "valley of the shadow of death" for sometime now, not cause I want to, nobody "wants" to walk through the "valley of the shadow of death" I don't think (maybe a few do though............few people out there done lost their minds I suspect greately) Sometimes person can be in that "valley of the shadow of death" FOR YEARS, AND YEARS AND YEARS..............................

Psalm 23:1-6 "The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name's sake.Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever."

  I'm actually trapped, I'm actually stuck right in the "valley of the shadow of death"!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRAPPED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  Psalms 23:1-6 such a comfort for me today cause it's so true! I'm in such a bad place right now but still I can see "goodness and mercy" following after me PURSUEING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

 I like that psalmist I desire to "dwell in the house of the Lord FOR EVER" forever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Cause when the lord is your shepherd............jesus does lead me to lie down in green pastures ---------------------- and even if I am walking in the valley of the SHADOW OF DEATH

"GOODNESS AND MERCY ARE FOLLOWING AFTER ME" PURSUEING ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 "Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over" AMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  I'm so stoked ON FIRE WITH MUCH ZEAL to follow jesus daily deny myself take up my cross and follow jesus daily...................I can't even adequately word my zeal right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

  Have a great day earth!

LOVE

(AND IF SOMEDAY I AM A MARTYR FOR JESUS'S SAKE, I BELIEVE THAT TO IS SOME ACT OF "GOODNESS" FROM GOD - SURELY THAT IS TO SPARE ME FROM SOME EVIL THAT IS ABOUT TO TAKE OVER THE EARTH! - hopefully not for many many many years prefer never, prefer everyone get saved)

MY NEW FAVE CHARITY................

https://www.donorschoose.org/

If you also donate to help out Mrs. Berry's classroom today your donation will likely be MATCHED - that's awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

According to my Donors Choose account Mrs. Berry's classroom is fully funded, but there are many more classrooms with many more needs at Donors Choose..................

my face has few extra wrinkle I ain't but ate breakfast at this point

and worked out 1 hour

bout to go take a shower

drink a coffee

and "beautify"

I think we all have "needs", the need for other christians, or people if your not christian to "care for your state" Philippians 2:20,21 "For I have no man like minded who will naturally care for your state. For all seek their own, not the things which are Jesus Christ's"...............

  Update 9/18/2023 in attempt to breath better, I have this Artic Air, air conditioner pointed right at me, and it's full of frankincense water. Hopefully this works, if this works, I'm just going to wear probably sweaters this winter like a lot..................(I theorize this is more effective then air diffusers - I COULD BE WRONG - but I could be right.........cause it just blasts frankincense air at me, whereas diffusers are a bit slow going in my estimation - they are great..........I have many diffusers, diffusing eucalyptus, peppermint, frankincense, lavender)................

 

I think we all have "needs", the need for other christians or people if your not christian to "care for your state", paul he said at the end of this group of verses here "and he ministered to my wants"...................
Philippians 2:20-26 "For I have no man like minded, who will naturally care for your state. For all seek their own, not the things which are Jesus Christ's. But ye know the proof of him, that, as a son with the father, he hath served with me in the gospel. Him therefore I hope to send presently, so soon as I shall see how it will go with me. But I trust in the Lord that I also myself shall come shortly. Yet I supposed it necessary to send to you Epaphroditus, my brother, and companion in labour, and fellowsoldier, but your messenger, and he that ministered to my wants. For he longed after you all, and was full of heaviness, because that ye had heard that he had been sick."

  So this week I am going to write a sister or two at church, make some effort to supply some needs out there! My blog surely isn't enough, it could be a part of the puzzle I think, but I need to do more then just blog much more, though if I sit and think about it all the "good" I need to do in a week.........seems like I'm setting out to climb a mountain every week. (seems like a lot!)

  Gotta consider my own needs as well, not "over serve". Mostly my needs I think is just to not be a island!!!!!!!!!!!!! Pry signing up to volunteer at the food bank this week, even going to the foodbank and helping out and being around people helps.............I want my island to have people at it : ) everyweek!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

LOVE

If you like support a teacher like I did today your supporting the future of america...........Like Donald Trumps "make america great again" slogan, well if america's going to be great again, I fully believe we all need to work together!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!....................

https://www.donorschoose.org/

According to my Donors Choice account Ms. Sanchez's classroom is now fully funded, but there are many other classrooms at Donors Choice with many needs still.......................

imagine I have a peace sign I'm holding up in this picture I forget to do that today...................

The importance of humility....................

Update 9/17/2023 my main garage sale find today. (I am serious on my blog when I say I am a "valley girl" and a goth) One of my favorite you tubers, who I have derived much "fashion and decore ideas from lately" but I was into the pink, rose decor asthetic before I started watching Gabi...... https://www.youtube.com/@Gabi_DeMartino

  She like gives me "fashion ideas" all the time..................I was glad to buy this sweater from Forever 21 today, it's one them that's soft on the outside and soft inside, and is in keeping with the "ballerina" style...........................it's real good bought it for $1 😁👍👍👍👍👍👍. Church at the methodist church was great today to, pastor was mega fired up this sunday. Talking about how the body of christ has turned the bible into a idol a lot of it has, that abraham didn't have a bible, etc. etc. - it was a good sermon as usual. I ain't saying that the kiss up either, since how I'm "the villian of the earth" 😁👍...............................when people call you satan basically and damn you to hell a ton for Jesus, and you decide to go with it 😁👍.....................

I like this pic of obama, good pic of him..........

(a guest pastor at the portland apostolic christian church of america this sunday got me thinking on the topic of humility) I've encountered a problem more then once at church (twice maybe three times that I know of) where people will come up to me and say hi to me, and they will be expecting me to acknowledge them GREATELY, like above and beyond how everyone else in the church acknowledges each other. Because they view it in the their minds that if I acknowledge them a slew,

that of course they are right about themselves they are the awesomest ever on the planet!

But who could do that????????????? Like it's easy to acknowledge a king that much........................THAT'S A KING. They did kingly things...........like obama for instance, be easy for me to give some extra acknowledgement to obama, I've seen him make some really really really good descisions lately. He helps the whole world sometimes obama does --------------- he's pretty near a king!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's a easy person to give some "extra" acknowledgement to.
   But a brother or sister, that I have barely heard speak - and never even heard not even 1 bible verse come from their mouths............coming up to me, expecting me to give them some "king attention" --------------------- I FIND THAT HARD TO DO!
Several years ago at the apostolic christian church of america............................there was one older sister came up to me and THERE WAS A SLEW OF LIGHT IN HER EYEBALLS OK, so you knew that ok this sister has laboured for the lord! Well she expected me to give her the "kings treatment" and I didn't fully, I smiled, I shook her hand, I think I tried to esteem her high, pretty sure?????????????????? (but she was expecting you know "extra" from me)
And then this older sister sat next to me 2nd half of church and started SINGING A HYMN IN ANOTHER LANGUAGE.......(she fully spoke english and well)..........and I got that heebie geebie feeling up my neck that she was CURSING ME BAD, I'm pretty 100% that whatever she cursed me with stuck on me and it's still on me potentially today.
She must've died after that, she was old real old, she never went to church again that I know of post that day  probably cursing me.
But I am leading to something here, the importance of humility...................1 Peter 5:5 "Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all of you be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble."
This "idea" definately could apply to myself as well - to not think about myself more then I "ought" to Romans 12:3 "For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith." Just happens to be in my mind lately, what paul said, 1 Corinthians 3:7 "So then neither is he that planteth any thing, neither he that watereth; but God that giveth the increase." "any thing" in this verse I am pretty sure means "no big deal" But instead god/jesus is the "big deal"!

 Click button below if brave.............my attempt at singing out of the Zions harp song 186, verses 3 and 4..........................................

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please, please, stay humble everyone

and have a great week! 

LOVE

ps my boobs are real, no plastic surgery here, that is why I have to bodybuild, ya I've gotten to where I enjoy bodybuilding, but bodybuilding though I've been accused of being vain because I bodybuild 

I need to bodybuild always and have a very buff back to maintain this giant boobs God has given me I was yelled at for 15 minutes felt like 30 while crying on the floor at the apostolic christian church of america told I was the worst human ever

I gots to bodybuild always to support these boobs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We need to show mercy to one another cause it is impossible pretty well to be "positive and uplifting" all the time - people go through stuffs I'm not the only one out there that goes through stuffs!................

Update 9/16/2023 am working out on the treadclimber by bowflex, put in 40 minutes last night but had to take a break every 5 minutes due to my chest tightening up (and then I'd inhale enough salt to keep going via my salt inhaler). My birds have lived maybe near 10 years, well I give them wheatgrass............and as you can see in this pic, I often will give them wheatgrass after I've taken 1 cut off the grass to make a smoothie for myself.......................

(I realize I need to tidy up their cage, I like to give them lots of things to do)

We need to show mercy to one another cause it is impossible pretty well to be "positive and uplifting" all the time - people go through stuffs I'm not the only one out there that goes through stuffs! I am surely not the norm on this planet I have decided, most people bottle up what they are going through, so if/when we come across someone looking angry or maybe frowning or whatever I DO RECOGN ESPECIALLY IN THIS BIT HARD ECONOMIC TIME WE LIVE IN THEY ARE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING (that health care is so expensive and that many people out there are stuck in part time jobs..............I count that a challenging economic time, often pastors these days will talk about how the usa is the richest nation in the world, but still many out there are struggling I believe!)
  Titus 3:2-3 "To speak evil of no man, to be no brawlers, but gentle, shewing all meekness unto all men. For we ourselves also were sometimes foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving divers lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful, and hating one another."

  I hope to stoke people up to show mercy to one another to love one another much more! Phil Collins was right, sometimes this world is short on love and this world desperately needs love..............we desperately need to show bowels of mercy to one another and love one another...................

  I saw a cool sign in my town that said............

do what you can, with what you have, with where you are

 WE NEED TO LOVE EACH OTHER DESPERATELY!

 Fat - skinny IT SHOULDN'T MATTER LIKE IT'S MATTERING OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Though ya I'm still chubby, so going to defend the fellow chubbians : ) It's hard to turn down a nice slice of cake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's hard to just stop cold turkey all nacho's, all french fries, etc. and just walk to the carrots and salads. I AIN'T A RABBIT!

 And I believe women though make less money then men, and my parents think that all the sisters of the apostolic christian church of america are thought of as 2nd class citizens. I think women even today can be this bible verse (and I realize many sisters have to work, they have to for reals). But for those of us that can afford to stay at home and sew : )..........................Proverbs 31:10-25 "Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies. The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil. She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life. She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands. She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar. She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens. She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard. She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms. She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night. She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff. She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy. She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet. She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple. Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land. She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant. Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come."

  The latest stuffs I sewed for my family............this isn't all I sewed for my family recently but the items I'm showing off online : ).......

 turned a pair of my husbands pants into cargo shorts : )

this skort was to short for my youngest so I added a cute ruffle to the bottom : )

Have a great day earth please love me, and love each other! 

LOVE

Video vlog post: Whether I am exalted or abased is it not god that did that to me???????????????.........................

Update 9/15/2023 the under the window area of our garage is looking extra nice now 😁........................

(my parents think I look sad in this video, I'm not sad, what I am at the moment is bit hot, bit tired out - that's all...................full of hope, and love, and hope for this here earth - bowels of mercies to ya lots them - cause I show mercy then people show me mercy so this is good! God wants us to love one another be fruitful have bowels of mercies towards one another.........Colossians 3:12 "Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering;")

Things I noted yesterday at church................

I noted at one point one the pastors, Mike was talking about how the humble would be exalted and the proud would be abased this verse Luke 18:14 "I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted." The guest pastor appear to be leaning low and starring at me with

that look that said "common fool, you know you've been up to stuffs to wazuu" (as if I had tried on purpose to exalt myself -- which I have in the past, but lot the time I'm not trying to exalt myself at all..............Hebrews 13:16 "But to do good and to communicate forget not: for with such sacrifices God is well pleased.")

the mindset I'm mostly of these days concerning my status whether that be I'm abased or exalted or both at the same time (both at the same time I fully recogn).........................

who am I to exalt myself

or who am I to abase myself

whether exalted or abased is it not god that did that to me? 

Philippians 4:12 "I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need."
   If I abounded fantastically..............it was because god enabled me to. If I were abased, that's because god wants me there to, his will, will be done perfectly in my life nomadder what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm fully trusting in god either way, nomadder what, not even worried about it really. 
  Way I see it the thing for me to work to do has always been the same and always will be the same......................1 Peter 5:5-6 "Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all of you be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble. Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:" Long as I humble myself under the mighty hand of god keep doin that, if I am not exalted by god yet ------------- I will be eventually I know this to be the case!
  And the grace of god being with the humble, so surely humility is the thing, which if I'm lowly to wazuu I THANK GOD FOR THAT! 
  I am weak, I am weak like paul is weak who knew how to both abound and "suffer need"
Also noted today, a brother looked at me in some kind of agony the 2nd half of the service - which I like that..................not the agony part the worry the care that brother appeared to have for me.
  A pastor from portland retired, only 1 pastor now at portland, it's weirded me out. Many the churches I went to as a kid, pastors didn't retire, they preached til they died, and then their sons took over, and then their sons took over when they died etc. Also I'm a fan of billy graham, and I clean saw him pretty well near giving a sermon while laying in bed sick, he's clean 95 (I don't know if he's giving sermons no more but I imagine billy graham hasn't fully "retired" cause he's still like alive basically)
  I don't get to retire!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:" It's rons choice and he made it and I know that and I'm going to have to accept this he's good and "retired"!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Clean 3 pastors have retired while I've been attending the apostolic christian church of america, at the portland church. I guess billy graham has pry retired pastors do retire, 3 though is just a lot pry, it's a lot and I'm not used to that immense of a pastor turn over in a church.

LOVE