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Thursday, July 30, 2015

I'm so thankful that promotion comes from the lord (encouraged recently to stay humble, keep moving forward to jesus)................

(my latest painting : ) 
I'm so thankful that promotion comes from the lord (encouraged recently to stay humble, keep moving forward to jesus)................Psalm 75:5-7 "Lift not up your horn on high: speak not with a stiff neck. For promotion cometh neither from the east, nor from the west, nor from the south. But God is the judge: he putteth down one, and setteth up another."
  Since a few weeks ago when the elder of the apostolic christian church of america suggested I was a terrible friend, and not that great of a christian etc. etc. ------------ I had really got it in my head (that and being called pretty well spam twice --------- among other things YIKES) basically I was ganged up on so much, I got it in my head that ok now I'm demoted to wazuu.
but it ain't the case.........................
I just gotta stay humble
put one foot in front the other like I told god in prayer last night
 If I am humble and putting one foot in front of the other......................................THINGS IS ABOUT TO WORK OUT!!!!!!!!!!!! Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."
  And also ------------------ being um "setteth up" for many out there, that might just mean that you have some fellowship. I'm pretty 100% that being "setteth up" by god doesn't necessarily mean and probably for most of us doesn't mean that you know we have a top 10 book on amazon or something. 
   But if you have been demoted by god............I want to be encouraging to you as well. You can still be "setteth up" by god, it's not to late for you, are you breathing THERE IS GREAT HOPE FOR YOU THEN!
  Those are my thoughts for today. Hope everyone's week is going good! 

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

When I'm in pain, talking about it usually = some kind of healing so here I go to counseling again.........(I believe there are a great people out there hurting that need someone to talk to, and maybe they are afraid to talk - I recommend talking!!!!!!!!!!!)......

When I'm in pain, talking about it usually = some kind of healing so here I go to counseling again.........(I believe there are a great people out there hurting that need someone to talk to, and maybe they are afraid to talk - I recommend talking!!!!!!!!!!! Though I find there is a never ending amount of people that will probably misunderstand you, and hate you, and judge you..............which is long as you have it good in your heart for others and um and not be in pain like I am right now - pain I don't think is a good thing to carry around --------- seems like I'm expected to just BAMN not be in pain all the sudden but that isn't how my getting to the point I'm not in pain no more works out) There's a bible verse talking about in heaven our tears will be dried so I'm far from not the only one currently in some extreme pain Isaiah 25:8 "He will swallow up death in victory; and the Lord God will wipe away tears from off all faces; and the rebuke of his people shall he take away from off all the earth: for the Lord hath spoken it."
  I've proposed to my husband and john which I hope he accepts cause if he isn't willing to talk - that's not good James 3:17 "But the wisdom that is from above is first pure, then peaceable, gentle, and easy to be intreated, full of mercy and good fruits, without partiality, and without hypocrisy." "easy to be intreated" means easy to get a conversation going with said person. 
   Snippets of the chain of e-mails recently sent to john and his wife jane and my husband...........
I NEED JOHN TO TELL THE ABOVE VERY CHRISTIAN GUY (counselor but I don't want to say who because he might be indunuated with phone calls then), that I am a horrible friend like you suggested the day you verbally beat me down so bad I was actively in the bathroom, considering how I could run into the kitchen and slit my wrist,
I need you to tell this guy how horrible I am john,
so I can then talk about that,
  God gave me this verse recently.....................Galatians 6:2-4 "Bear ye one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ. For if a man think himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceiveth himself. But let every man prove his own work, and then shall he have rejoicing in himself alone, and not in another."
Some churches think they are "something" and some people out there think they are "something"
not that I'm not saying
offices in the body of christ - and varies um I don't know um types of servers in the body of christ, and also offices in the body of christ exist they do
the problem is is when any of us think we are "something"
.................................jesus said
"whoever is without sin cast the 1st stone"
are you without sin john????????????????????????
then why did you cast all those stones at me??????????????
course this what I want to say to your face in counseling,
and cry,
I want to cry,
a lot,
in counseling,
and have john do most the talking for me - while I cry,
cause I want to fit it
I wanted to fit in so bad at the apostolic christian church of america not really "on board" from the jump with the bangs, and no wedding ring thing..............I went a span of time albeit a small span of time without bangs or a wedding ring.................
tried so hard to fit in
to belong
to have a church that I knew ok they love me

and if you tell me john, cause I bashed your church so you had a right then to bash's your churches view that I "bashed" it appears to be your churches view that I am a hateful bashing "insert common derogatory word here"
hence I need counseling Ephesians 5:11 "And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them."
I was coming from (something like Ephesians 5:11 - I wouldn't say fully that verse but in the "zone" of that verse..............not a "bash" place in my mind at all I'm saying though I'm evidently viewed as a church bashing "insert common derogatory word here")  in my own mind on my blog the entire time --------------- I did get out of hand once with the filming of the inside of the church but I deleted that blog post.

bible it says to put away childish things
now that don't mean I don't crack a joke on my blog
that means - not retaliate, etc
and I have mostly done that,
I happen to of ended up fervently anti-the commandments of men
also anti traditions, rules, ------- whatever you want to call them, anything that isn't the bible
anything a church has tacked onto them that isn't in the bible
that isn't the bible
I am billions pro the 10 commandments these days, I feel everything the bible says for godliness in in the bible, there is no need for added on rules, or traditions or commandments of men, here I have the verse..............

2 Timothy 3:15-17 "And that from a child thou hast known the holy scriptures, which are able to make thee wise unto salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus. All scripture is given by inspiration of God, and is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness: That the man of God may be perfect, thoroughly furnished unto all good works."
perfect and entire in my mind, no need for no additions
people instead of loving me............ often are holding against me this list of things either they view I'm doing wrong, or that I'm not doing "right enough" for their liking
I'm not the perfect perfect perfect segment of the body of christ................1 Corinthians 4:10 "We are fools for Christ's sake, but ye are wise in Christ; we are weak, but ye are strong; ye are honourable, but we are despised."
It's unfair that so many people out there exclude me, and don't like me so much cause I don't fit their perfect perfect robot perfect idea of how a perfect little jesus robot of perfect should look like!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 Some of the things I am currently being hated for I think are some my strong points.............
that I have some fervent disdain for any "additions" to the word of god - I'd say that's pretty solid thing to have (don't be of the club - "whoo hoo add to god's word ya")
That I think about things.........................and then blog about them, but that I'm a thinker, that's good
(think about tv and the devils "agenda" behind some those tv shows for example - it's good to be a thinker)
  That I blog and do confess my faults, not many christians that I know of confess their faults like that???????????? If it's going on I just ain't hearing about it - is what I'm saying..............I never ever hear christians confessing their faults online, or to me............James 5:16 "Confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much."
even my struggles I'd view as a positive cause they cause me to have much need to pray to be in god's word Ephesians 5:20 "Giving thanks always for all things unto God and the Father in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ;"
I know I am viewed as worthless junk basically,
but my own view of myownself isn't lining up with this "insert common derogatory word here" worthless junk kind of view the apostolic christian church of america seems to have of me these days.
 I absolutely rejoice in my infirmities that the power of christ may rest upon me (think that's how paul worded that???????)
people don't get me though
most are "perfect"
not like me
they "perfect"

but me sheri live this blog post perfection is supposed to be something people "move" toward" and instead lot of people like to at least think to themselves whether consciously or unconsciously that "BAMN THEY IS PERFECT NOW" 
  When that most often is not the case!!!!!!! 99% of the time or some high percentage that probably isn't the case. Hebrews 6:1 "Therefore leaving the principles of the doctrine of Christ, let us go on unto perfection; not laying again the foundation of repentance from dead works, and of faith toward God," Are we supposed to move onto "let us go on unto perfection" yes....................but that probably for a lot of us is a real long walk down the street!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
If all I do at counseling is cry..........if that's all the "resolution" that can take place, a good cry it'll pry be good for me. 
(kelly clarkson has a few very very nice songs this is one of them - 
we should be there for each other for sure)

Saturday, July 18, 2015

It's good to dress modest, and yes even not have bangs so as to not be "conformed to the world" BUT DON'T HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOUR FLESH WHEN YOU DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.................

( family did flee the apostolic christian church of america - I have a friend that thinks we didn't leave, I think about them a lot, hard not to, went there 5-6 years) We flee'd the Apostolic christian church of america, we didn't just leave - literally we booked it out of that church. The elder verbally attacked me so much that was so bad.
  I have a new you tube video on how to wear tichels (which all I wear nowdays is tichels : ) I like em : ) it's a nice classy look : ) I don't look like I have any confidence in this video, I look in my estimation beat down ---- even if you know someone isn't right aka that you are worthless piece of garbage basically it still effects a person if they are verbally attacked that badly. PLEASE BE NICE TO PEOPLE ON YOU TUBE REMEMBER THEY ARE REAL PEOPLE GOD LOVES! (I think people forget that they are real people and think they can just bash them all they want............they are still real people)
It's good to dress modest, and yes even not have bangs so as to not be "conformed to the world" BUT DON'T HAVE CONFIDENCE IN YOUR FLESH WHEN YOU DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.................
 I fear that the apostolic christian church of america, that there are members (maybe not all of them) but that there are some members in that church that trust in "who they are" as metallica sings here...........

  (don't do anything in this metallica video, this is me giving a example of everything a perrson shouldn't do with a music video)
That have the bun in their hair, and a doily on their heads, and/or for the guys dress shirts and nice khaki's during the week as they do many them (my husband dresses that way as well - which is fine...........look nice sure do that) I fear that they may think to themselves that because they dress that way, that "that's it I'm saved"
Philippians 3:3 "For we are the circumcision, which worship God in the spirit, and rejoice in Christ Jesus, and have no confidence in the flesh." Like tonight or tommorow, I'm likely going to sew some under shirt thingies often called "dickies" to try and dress more modest (often I'll buy shirts not even noticing the necklines on them just thinking they are cute, then I'll get home and realize "oh snap this neckline is plunging a lot" ------------- I've figured out that sewing dickies isn't hard to do, and they don't add a "hot factor" to my outfit............pry god is going to be more pleased with me dressing more modest and I like that I want to live a life as much pleasing to god as I possibly can ---------- do I have confidence in my flesh though HECK NO!!!!!!!!!!!!! I NEED TO PRAY EVERY SINGLE DAY AND USUALLY A FEW TIMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
 These are my thoughts for today. I hope everyone's week is going good. (ps........if I get good enough at sewing "dickies" I likely will sell a few at my etsy shop : )
  Other verses mentioned in this post.................
1 Timothy 2:9 "In like manner also, that women adorn themselves in modestapparel, with shamefacedness and sobriety; not with broided hair, or gold, or pearls, or costly array;"
Romans 12:2 "And be not conformed to this world: but be yetransformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God."

Monday, July 13, 2015

A pastor said something recently that really made sense he said "god is love" that we to also need to be "love" and love EVERYONE 1 John 4:7 "Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God."...............................

 (I got a lap loom at a garage sale for $2, and it's working out, I don't have the hours in the day to do the giant navajo style rugs like I once did, this lap loom though is working out! Get to make some pretty wall hangings with it : ) 
A pastor said something recently that really made sense he said "god is love" that we to also need to be "love" and love EVERYONE 1 John 4:7 "Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God." Hearing this pastor preach, a few light bulbs went off in my brains and I was like yaaaaaaaaaaaa that's right!!!!!!!!!!!
  When the bible says "you will know them by their fruit" ----------- the bible isn't saying anywhere that I can see that "it's ok to hate these people and curse them, or shun them" (though there is this verse 1 Corinthians 5:11 "But now I have written unto you not to keep company, if any man that is called a brother be a fornicator, or covetous, or an idolator, or a railer, or a drunkard, or an extortioner; with such an one no not to eat."  also Psalm 141:4 "Incline not my heart to any evil thing, to practise wicked works with men that work iniquity: and let me not eat of their dainties.")
  Both 1 Corinthians 5:11 (I'm a detective for reals, both my parents worked many years in I should say "with the law enforcement" neither one them were ever cops, but both them spoke to cops on a regular basis for well my mom just like 2 years..........on their jobs -------- so I think like a detective) and psalm 141:4 both these verses mention don't eath with people, that work iniquity somehow, or are a fornicator, or covetous, or an idolator, or a railer, or a drunkard, or a extortioner.....................................but I note that these verses leave open a bunch of other things one can do with such people! So that we can do good to them and love them I belive! Cause love is of god 1 John 4:7 "Beloved, let us love one another: for love is of God; and every one that loveth is born of God, and knoweth God."
Matthew 5 :43-48 "Ye have heard that it hath been said, Thou shalt love thy neighbour, and hate thine enemy. But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven: for he maketh his sun to rise on the evil and on the good, and sendeth rain on the just and on the unjust. For if ye love them which love you, what reward have ye? do not even the publicans the same? And if ye salute your brethren only, what do ye more than others? do not even the publicans so? Be ye therefore perfect, even as your Father which is in heaven is perfect."
  I'm gonna tell you all right now all 7 billion of you...........I can't hardly do good to all you all. But what I can good to like everyone that has been in my life, or near everyone....................everyone that has been in my life who's address I have or whose e-mail address I my enemies for sure up on that got all the acca addresses right in their nifty address book.......................going to pester my husband that we can hang out with pearl.
  When the bible says always be abounding in the work of the know what a great deal of the "work of the lord is"?
(Which can indeed be done just by praying for one another)
DO THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(I exhorting myself as well in this blog post)
1 Corinthians 15:58 "Therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord."
Have a great week earth!

Saturday, July 4, 2015

I am NOT the victim, I am the victor!!!!!!!!!!!! Romans 8:37 "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us."

I am against this "it's all your fault" mentality out there, if your following jesus the bible says for one - you'll be hated by all men for jesus's name sake so surely bad things are going to happen to you that aren't "all your fault" Matthew 10:22 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall be saved."
 I am NOT the victim, I am the victor!!!!!!!!!!!! Romans 8:37 "Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us."

Are you the victim today?
Or are you the victor in christ jesus?????
The devil wants you to be a victim, I believe, I believe he wants you feeling sorry for yourself..............anything but praising the lord!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Nehemiah 8:10 "Then he said unto them, Go your way, eat the fat, and drink the sweet, and send portions unto them for whom nothing is prepared: for this day is holy unto our Lord: neither be ye sorry; for the joy of the Lord is your strength."
  Paul went through horrible stuffs, and he didn't quit, 
he didn't give up
he didn't go mop in a corner "woe's me"
  I haven't even went through this list in my own life.........................

2 Corinthians 11

21 I speak as concerning reproach, as though we had been weak. Howbeit whereinsoever any is bold, (I speak foolishly,) I am bold also.

22 Are they Hebrews? so am I. Are they Israelites? so am I. Are they the seed of Abraham? so am I.

23 Are they ministers of Christ? (I speak as a fool) I am more; in labours more abundant, in stripes above measure, in prisons more frequent, in deaths oft.

24 Of the Jews five times received I forty stripes save one.

25 Thrice was I beaten with rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have been in the deep;

26 In journeyings often, in perils of waters, in perils of robbers, in perils by mine own countrymen, in perils by the heathen, in perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in the sea, in perils among false brethren;

27 In weariness and painfulness, in watchings often, in hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and nakedness.

28 Beside those things that are without, that which cometh upon me daily, the care of all the churches.
-------------------- me sheri this blog post verse 23 "in deaths oft" man I relate to that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Verse 27 really stands out to me at the moment..................."in fastings often" he surely wasn't just sitting around just letting all that happen to him, he was hard at work fasting and praying. (I do a partial fast 2 meals fruit smoothies w/1 scoop slim fast in the shake...........then real dinner..........................I couldn't actually go days not eating...................I fast weeny american style But that's still fasting! I looked into what counts as a fast, and a fast I learned isn't just about the food you eat in fact it has pry 0 to do with the food you are eating or not eating more to do with your heart....
cut out the tv for days
cut out the you tube for days
"fast" from those things
Go to what can really help me and you, which is not the world - but god/jesus!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Psalm 121:2 "My help cometh from the Lord, which made heaven and earth." I need to get back to fasting direly. 

Tuesday, June 30, 2015

I need to talk about covetedness.......the world says it's a good thing, it's not IT'S BAD...........

I need to talk about covetedness.......the world says it's a good thing, it's not IT'S BAD...........
   Got home and my 10 commandments bracelet arrived in the mail (the importance of keeping god's commandments has been recently sticky noted for me in a huge way Revelation 14:12 "Here is the patience of the saints: here are they that keep the commandments of God, and the faith of Jesus.")
.......thing just seems meant to be, fits my wrist perfect.............lightweight, but noisy...................good for me thou to stare at in particular commandment 10 ------------ thou shalt not covet
Exodus 20:17 "Thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's house,thou shalt not covet thy neighbour's wife, nor his manservant, nor his maidservant, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor any thing that is thy neighbour's."
This world is chalked full of people "coveting" and nobody even thinks about it's clean thought of as normal to like say walk in the mall and get all googly eye'd and say "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh look at that dress man I want that"
for instance
and everybody clean thinks that's like alright or whatever
course a dress in a store isn't your neigbhors new car
.................but if you covet enough things maybe then you will be coveting your neighbors new car???????????????? 
it could be a dangerous slippery slope I'm sayin?????????
and any of our neighbors could get nice nice shiny sportscars at any time!
most car stores offer 1% interest for 12 months still!
I think coveting is just bad plan, 
1 Timothy 6:6 "But godliness with contentment is great gain." It's immense gain to just be happy with what we all have, like right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The stuffs you have right now - be happy to have that!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  I feel fire and zeal just copying and pasteing these verses...................
1 John 5:2 "By this we know that we love the children of God, when we love God, and keep his commandments."
1 John 5:3 "For this is the love of God, that we keep his commandments: and his commandments are not grievous."
  You could try and tell me "sheri the 10 commandments is legalism" 
I'm pretty 100% the 10 commandments isn't legalism, 
and I'm well over 100% that we are supposed to keep god's commandments all 10 them. 
"and his commandments are not grievous"
Have a great week earth! 

Sunday, June 28, 2015

Thankful for "a hand up" Ephesians 2:6 "And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:" ................

Today I'm thankful for "a hand up" Ephesians 2:6 "And hath raised us up together, and made us sit together in heavenly places in Christ Jesus:" 

  At church today (living hope church - pastor of living hope has service on tbn television pastor john didn't like use gobs of bible verses.......think he used at least one? But I most definately was "built up" Jude 1:20 "But ye, beloved, building up yourselves on your most holy faith, praying in the Holy Ghost,"
  To gather in was the theme of todays sermon in my estimation, and not scatter LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE each other. 
Matthew 12:30 "He that is not with me is against me; and he that gathereth not with me scattereth abroad." You could gather or scatter, jesus most definately desires us to be gatherers and love one another have bowels of mercies towards one another............
today playing softball.........I thought on how softball relates to the body of christ
--------- some team players bat out
---------- some them bat out often even 
(((((pretty much all the time there is always enough players on their "A" game to compensate for the few having a bad day..........but even if we loose a's never been about loosing or winning in my team but about being a team in my estimation which I've really been enjoying that - I think that's pretty well awesome))))))
 There's so much love for each other on my team and all the teams of all the churches, a lot of unity, that I've been really happy to see. Many churches in my area coming together (have little mini bible lesson before all the games the teams do.....................always such unity, and oneness). Colossians 3:15 "And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to the which also ye are called in one body; and be ye thankful." I'm glad about this, I like all the unity I'm seeing/experiencing. : ) 
  This is one my love filled mush blog posts : ) 
  I love my softball team. 
For sure life is like softball hardly none us is going to bat ever last ball out there, very few of us is hosea conseco, and even the hosea conseco's have bad days I'm 100% about this. 
endure unto the end!!!!!!!!!
Matthew 10:22 "And ye shall be hated of all men for my name's sake: but he that endureth to the end shall besaved." sidenote a lot of my blog is foolishness, and I know it, this is the member of the body of christ that I am. My little putt out in the field........................and then some pastors larger putts out in the field and some more brothers and sisters putts out in the field ---------------- like I think souls could get saved, it be like AWESOME! 
 I have 0 clue if this is a good blog post or not, but gonna hit the publish button anyways : )
Have a great week earth!