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Saturday, February 4, 2017

God's Store.....

(when I think of god I think of the clouds in the sky, because He's up there - and because in the bible in the old testiment times he followed my ancestors in a cloud Exodus 14:19 "And the angel of God, which went before the camp of Israel, removed and went behind them; and the pillar of the cloud went from before their face, and stood behind them:")
I was told by my bosses that the owner of the store I work at, is primarily god........well then I got thinking, well what place of buisiness isn't god's in some way?
 In a way god makes everything His buisiness don't He????????????? 2 Chronicles 16:9 "For the eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth, to shew himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him. Herein thou hast done foolishly: therefore from henceforth thou shalt have wars." God searches His eye's "run to and fro throughout the whole earth" He looks all over the place...........
to me
to you
"to shew himself strong in the behalf of them whose heart is perfect toward him."
Psalm 68:32-25 "Sing unto God, ye kingdoms of the earth; O sing praises unto the Lord; Selah: To him that rideth upon the heavens of heavens, which were of old; lo, he doth send out his voice, and that a mighty voice. Ascribe ye strength unto God: his excellency is over Israel, and his strength is in the clouds. O God, thou art terrible out of thy holy places: the God of Israel is he that giveth strength and power unto his people. Blessed be God."
 AMEN!
         I sat there yesterday at my works "office meeting" moment they said the store is ultimately god's store, for reals I felt like I was at church for a second (you know that feeling when you like "oh god's right here watching me"). But He's always watching us.........but catch it, He doesn't desire to punish us for being "bad" though he will do that if need be!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Revelation 3:19 "As many as I love, I rebuke and chasten: be zealous therefore, and repent."
  God really desires that our hearts be perfect towards Him, so that he could "shew himself strong" for us I believe. He wants to help! 
  But anyways for all the rest of the buisinesses on this planet, I'm pretty sure god is the real boss of your buisiness Exodus 19:4-5 "Ye have seen what I did unto the Egyptians, and how I bare you on eagles' wings, and brought you unto myself. Now therefore, if ye will obey my voice indeed, and keep my covenant, then ye shall be a peculiar treasure unto me above all people: for all the earth is mine:"
  "for all the earth is mine" -------------------- you think you own your buisiness, epp nope god does I'm sure of it!!!!!!!!!! I'm sure of it apple computers!!!!!!!!!!! Ya you've made a lot of money apple computers, that must be fab : ) 
  I'm sure of this. So though my store might be more then the "normal" employee's experience "god's store" cause for reals I felt god's presence yesterday.......................I was like ooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo this is god store!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Which is fine! That's the store to work at God's store!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  In reality we are all I believe working at "god's store" --------- be faithful that's my advice! Matthew 25:23 "His lord said unto him, Well done, good and faithful servant; thou hast been faithful over a few things, I will make thee ruler over many things: enter thou into the joy of thy lord."
Have a great week!
LOVE

Friday, January 6, 2017

FACT: You have a flesh it is waging a war against your spirit. IT'S IN THE BIBLE PEOPLE! Everybody be's acting like we ain't in no war -------- WE IN A WAR......................

(I'm painting bob ross pieces nowdays this is my interpretation of "Evening at Sunset" season 13 Episode 4 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LqTyy5lRBms)
FACT: You have a flesh it is waging a war against your spirit. IT'S IN THE BIBLE PEOPLE! Everybody be's acting like we ain't in no war -------- WE IN A WAR......................
people be's all walking around calm like
you have a flesh it isn't fully your friend!
(husband and wife schenangians is plenty good) But other then that right...........your flesh not your friend.
 Hey I knoooooooooooooooooooooow ok.....................you purchase some good mac makeup. I haven't done such a thing don't look at me (I buy the cheap makeup 0 : ) hahahahah bad joke my bad...........................I'm saying you purchase some good mac makeup, your flesh might very well feel like it's your friend IT AIN'T!
  Only verse that fits what I want to say right now is this one 1 Peter 2:11 "Dearly beloved, I beseech you as strangers and pilgrims, abstain from fleshly lusts, which war against the soul;"
 Romans 8:13 "For if ye live after the flesh, ye shall die: but if ye through the Spirit do mortify the deeds of the body, ye shall live."
 I think my whole life people have thought I have walked after the flesh (look you still buy things, recently I bought a new wedding rings set - actually 2 because the 1st one I bought ------ talking $3 dollar cheap sets from china people ---------- 1st one had like big prongs on it and I wasn't thinking about it looking at the picture and they are rubbing against my fingers and not so comfy) 2 Corinthians 10:2-3 "But I beseech you, that I may not be bold when I am present with that confidence, wherewith I think to be bold against some, which think of us as if we walked according to the flesh. For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh:"
   Fact if your a bodybuilder, probably your either going to have to have your wedding rings polished professionaly or go on ebay like I do. (I try and buy american, most the time I do) We always all will need stuffs. 
  I gonna break down here 2 Corinthians 10:2-3 see "though we walk in the flesh, we do not war after the flesh" because they are in the word of god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The word of god is MIGHTY! aka next verse.............
2 Corinthians 10:4 "(For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to the pulling down of strong holds;)"
   But that flesh right it never leaves I don't think long as we are on this earth. It's there maybe dormant...............there.............................................so is the mac makeup (I don't have any mac makeup just whatever reasons it's my example for today) looking so nice.....................
so nice....................ok I don't have mac makeup improvising here with a photo..................
(my husband got me the above for christmas he isn't clever price tag right on the thing, less then $5 ------- which is fine I need lip gloss facts lips get chapped!)
I add a pic for effect................................cause it looks like I walk after the flesh it really does, but the truth is. I make a point every day to read my bible, or watch christian tv, to pray a lot, usually 2 times a day at least.
  It's definately not about how you look (aka Corinthians 10:2-3) it's about how you live...........the bible is mighty to pull down strongholds it truely is. We don't have to "war after the flesh" no more............but it's good to be mindful I believe that the flesh exists.........it's there. It's real!!!!!!!!!!! Jesus christ our lord himself.................Hebrews 4:15 "For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin."
(backstory on this photo, I'm a marilyn monroe look alike.......and a artist with a Bachelors of Science in art from Western Oregon University ---------------- I like the 50's...........obsessed probably..............the wholesomeness of that time frame, even if it was imaginary - well then the imaginary wholesomeness of that time frame) 
Hope you all have a great week!
LOVE

Friday, December 9, 2016

This verse is starting to TRANSFORM my entire life Matthew 25:29 "For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath."........

(I'm painting Bob Ross pieces nowdays this is my interpretation of "Arizona Splendor" season 5 Episode 8 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v8JPvZMX9ks)
This verse is starting to TRANSFORM my entire life Matthew 25:29 "For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath." (we aren't supposed to be conformed to this world but transformed by the word of god - AMEN! Romans 12:2 "And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.")
  OK..........right now we are in perilous times let's just admit it................a time where people all over the place are posting up pics on the facebook and the instagram (I do it to but for reasons other then being self absorbed..............................people got me believing I'll like stop existing pretty much if I don't post some pics up.................and it's a way for me to be "social" for me these days EVERYTHING is now pure, it's your heart in the matter that makes the difference Titus 1:15
"Unto the pure all things are pure: but unto them that are defiled and unbelieving is nothing pure; but even their mind and conscience is defiled." If your putting up all those photo's just to be sociable, it maybe ain't great, maybe not a great example for unbelievers................god looks at our hearts...........it's men that look at the outward appearance 1 Samuel 16:7 "But the Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart.")
 But anyways these are perilous times 2 Timothy 3:1-2 "This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come. For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy," Can I be honest???? Sometimes I don't even see social interaction on the facebook, or the instagram, so that I don't see people replying here on my blog often doesn't surprise me. I'm not trying to judge, I'm just trying to hone in on the peril of the times we live in and the realness of said peril. 
  And why is it peril, I've mentioned this on a previous post, cause if we loose our salt, the bible says how can we regain the saltiness Matthew 5:13 "Ye are the salt of the earth: but if the salt have lost his savour, wherewith shall it be salted? it is thenceforth good for nothing, but to be cast out, and to be trodden under foot of men." That is where true riches is located I believe, in loving people, don't we all know it?????? What do we all say on thanksgiving but that we are thankful for friends and family!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
THESE FACEBOOK/INSTAGRAM PHOTO TIMES ARE PERILOUS INDEED!!!!!!!!!!!
  Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold." I risking yet again getting busted with the baptist's : ) probably not though : ) pretty sure the baptist's love me. Which is AWESOME! But anyways, I look around my current church and I wonder..........is the love growing cold??????? Were they once a much warmer to each other people?????????? I do not know the answers but these things I ponder. But if this has happened, to the baptist's or any church for that matter....................
It's not their fault probably it's going to happen everywhere pry cause the bible says it's going to happen Matthew 24:12 "And because iniquity shall abound, the love of many shall wax cold."
   At every church there is a bit of a high archy I estimate.........................
there is the day care workers
there is the sunday school staff
there is the church secretary
there is the church band members
......................if in the event the people not so active in the church, like got all worked up by how much the church band members were congratulated or something.................their love could grow cold????
  It's gonna happen, iniquity will ABOUND, and the love of many shall wax cold.
And by iniquity the bible means 
those that "have"
and those that "have not"
Those that have will have even more!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And those that "have not" will loose even the things they seemeth to have!!!!!!!!!!!!
   Matthew 25:29 "For unto every one that hath shall be given, and he shall have abundance: but from him that hath not shall be taken away even that which he hath."
  But this is how my life is being completely transformed ROCKED by Matthew 25:29...............AND YOU CAN GO AHEAD CALL ME A COMPLETE BIBLE NERD : ) 
  If you just have some right.
serve a bit right
this last week I taught a painting class at the baptist church I've been going to
More shall be given right to those that "hath"
  You could look at me and think your seeing the most miserable pathetic earth scirge since the beginning of mankind ---------------- and maybe you'd be even right in having that estimation.................but god's about to abundance me GALORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 I mean you know sooner or later if I keep at it..........Galatians 6:9 "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not."
  ps.............I'm being serious, if someone has Joel Osteens e-mail address, could you e-mail this post to joel osteen, because his message is often focusing on the hope there is for good things in the future for us if we just heed god's word.............like my blog is these days. I want Joel Osteen to use the stuff in this post, rip me directly off joel osteen PLEASE.
  Cause we might many of us be in churches were the love seems to be growing cold. Now more then ever I'm saying the body of christ I believe needs to believe in the power of the word of god, in the power of god to save us fully and transform us, and our lives.................in a great way!!!!!!!!!!!!

   Have a great week!
LOVE

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

I want to urge people not to be fearful to have a ministry, that god is plenty able to keep one humble......................

(one of my latest paintings, yes that is a actual street reflector thingy - 
I bought it at a local craft store..........in a hippy town)
I want to urge people not to be fearful to have a ministry, that god is plenty able to keep one humble. I suspect there are a great many people that stay quiet out of fear that they might get prideful. Though I am fully aware, that many if not the bulk of "ministries" are in the form of letters or e-mails to people and/or churches, paul he wrote a great deal of letters in the bible (he also received a great deal of letters). I do not hear of many people even getting such "type" of letters in the mail, but I hope they are happening out there. ((((I myself both write and e-mail them to people))
  For surely we should be speaking to one another in many bible verses 2 Peter 3:10-11 "But the day of the Lord will come as a thief in the night; in the which the heavens shall pass away with a great noise, and the elements shall melt with fervent heat, the earth also and the works that are therein shall be burned up. Seeing then that all these things shall be dissolved, what manner of persons ought ye to be in all holy conversation and godliness,"
  But anyways, back to my idea that god is able to keep us humble 2 Corinthians 12:7 "And lest I should be exalted above measure through the abundance of the revelations, there was given to me a thorn in the flesh, the messenger of Satan to buffetme, lest I should be exalted above measure."
  God isn't in the buisiness of setting us up to fail, god's in the buisiness of setting us up to succeed!!!!!!!
 Though pride is something to think about I believe, both general pride and what the bible calls "the pride of life". Recently reading the bible I came across a verse that really grabbed my attention............
2 Samuel 17:23 "And when Ahithophel saw that his counsel was not followed, he saddled his ass, and arose, and gat him home to his house, to his city, and put his household in order, and hanged himself, and died, and was buried in the sepulchre of his father."
  Ahithophel, for sometime was a leader right and he was used to people doing what he said............whether he had pride or not I can't say. What I can say, is it's good to be prepared for the idea of people NOT listening to you. 
  For sure, I mean ok like if I'm like the lowest of the low right. If I'm like the grime of society right. If I be for sure the bottom of the barrel or close to..................
God can use me! 
God can use all of us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
1 Peter 5:5-7 "Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all of you be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble. Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you."
  I love this song........I ain't sure it fits this post, but it fits my thoughts today. I want heavens light to shine down on me : )
Have a great week!
LOVE 
  

Monday, November 14, 2016

The bible talks about the "foolish virgins" they went and had fun cause they saw jesus christ's return was tarrying (this is my estimation of things) NOW IS THE TIME TO BE AWAKE!...........................

The bible talks about the "foolish virgins" they went and had fun cause they saw jesus christ's return was tarrying (this is my estimation of things) NOW IS THE TIME TO BE AWAKE!
Matthew 25:1-9 "Then shall the kingdom of heaven be likened unto ten virgins, which took their lamps, and went forth to meet the bridegroom. And five of them were wise, and five were foolish. They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them: But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps.While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept. And at midnight there was a cry made, Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him. Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps. And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us of your oil; for our lamps are gone out. But the wise answered, saying, Not so; lest there be not enough for us and you: but go ye rather to them that sell, and buy for yourselves."

  I'm not 100% about Matthew 25:5 "While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept." If all of the body of christ sleeps - but I don't think it's the case though many pastors have taught that to me over the years that the whole body of christ would sleep.
  Maybe I am asleep.............maybe most us are all nap nap???????????? Maybe I'm clean in a jesus christ comma right now thinking I'm writing a blog awake while I'm like actually like sleep walking????????????
 god wants us ON FIRE
even if we are all asleep right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  This war against the lusts of our fleshes it don't end maybe til near the point of our deaths.....................it takes zeal and fire to win this war!!!!!!!!! Paul in the bible didn't say he finished the course until he was old...................could take a long time to finish the course???????????????
2 Timothy 4:7 "I have fought a good fight, I have finished my course, I have kept the faith:"
 I'm including a janis joplin song in this post cause I think there are many a slumbering christian (not sure if the whole body of christ ain't asleep, I'm saying some are indeed slumbering to much - not having enough oil for their lamps IT'S IN THE BIBLE!!!!!!!!) My advise to the "too asleep" "Just try a little bit harder"................................
  Lot of soul to some of janis joplins songs, I'm feeling her sometimes, maybe it's just cause she felt??????????? Maybe she was just so alive????????? (if anybody can even grab what I'm trying to say SHE WASN'T ASLEEP)
  My parents one day on a long car drive talked a slew of smack about janis joplin, they estimated that she was like the most wicked woman ever...........................I was a teen at the time.......................that just perked my interest in janis so bad ----------- I was sure she hadn't killed nobody or nothing, how could this lady be that bad. I clean to this day can't see with my eyeballs looking at janis joplin footage all the house of horrors badness about her that my parents said existed.................
I see a 20 something kid bit mislead that's about it. Who maybe like had a ruff childhood and such. I don't see someone that couldn't of been saved, or loved! 
  I see hope really.
   I need to try a little bit harder I believe.......to love more. 
  Sooooooooooooooooooooooooo..........................................................I went ahead and dyed my hair full out blonde. I work (well as a volunteer) at a christian thrift store, that has influenced my decision to go tichel less ------------ this has been a long drawn out decision. 
  I felt like a target, wearing that tichel. Pastor at my church 2 sundays ago gave this huge sermon about how the wall of partition is gone and nobodies better then anybody else. 
I hadn't done nothin I swear I was just sitting there that sunday wearing a tichel only pry christian jew in the building. I suspect a "big deal" was being made about my tichel. Tryin to get the gunfire off myself a bit. 
  I do not believe my hair is my glory my long hair was scraggly it didn't feel glorious for me really (I was enjoying covering it up with the tichel ----------- but annoying everyone around me looks to be) 1 Corinthians 11:15 I'm saying keeping my hair long wasn't a option if I was going to walk around with it in view, all for the sake of not making people uncomfortable. I wasn't digging my long hair at all...........except when it was nicely tucked away in a cute tichel then I was digging it. 
 Not only do I bear a resemblance to marilyn monroe I agree with her when she said.............."It's all make believe isn't it?" I have a hard time believing a great deal going on around me is actually real.............in my estimation there must be at least some level of "pretend" going on. OR I HOPE SO AT ANY RATE! 
 But it don't matter how we look, it does a bit as far as how people perceive you etc. But it's how we love 
and live I'd say (even if we just read our bible, and pray in a day ------------ GOD NOTICES THAT ------------ THAT'S WHAT THE BIBLE IS SAYING WHEN IT SAYS "AWAKE TO RIGHTEOUSNESS" THAT'S A PART OF THAT IDEA THERE!
1 Corinthians 15:34 "Awake to righteousness, and sin not; for some have not the knowledge of God: I speak this to your shame."
  Our lives may not look to different from the worlds somedays in someways (we many have jobs, etc. etc.)...................that effort of reading your bible and praying that is different! 
That ain't what all this world is doing out there! 
Tryin a little bit harder! 
ps...........I realize I look a touch like marilyn monroe and I do enjoy that : ) that is fun in my estimation. I'm a definate marilyn monroe fan..............I think marilyn did look for the good in people like I do. Though I know she tried to declare herself a villian (I don't view her as a villian at all) she needed jesus though..........we all do.
LOVE

Monday, November 7, 2016

The "rat race" for money, and status etc. it's real and it's a rat race ok...........you all need to with jesus christ's help turn into cats get your cat walk on..................

The "rat race" for money, and status etc. it's real and it's a rat race ok...........you all need to with jesus christ's help turn into cats get your cat walk on..................like jesus and lucifer alright, they both cats.........facts....................
1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:" - the devil himself he ain't runnin around that gerbil wheel tryin to be something big in this world.............naw, "as a roaring lion" 

As a cat!
clever guy he knows what's what
He knows not to be no gerbil running silly on no wheel!
Revelation 5:5 "And one of the elders saith unto me, Weep not: behold, the Lion of the tribe of Judah, the Root of David, hath prevailed to open the book, and to loose the seven seals thereof."
The lord ain't no gerbil either, he a lion RAWR!
THE GERBIL WHEEL BIBLE VERSE.............
1 John 2:16 "For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh, and the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life, is not of the Father, but is of the world."
  If you gonna stay in the "rat race" you gonna keep up doin 1 John 2:16............you gonna keep up lusting in your flesh for GARBAGE YOU DON'T EVEN NEED MOST IT
  And you gonna have all kinds of the "pride of life" cause you bought all this ----------------------
  And then you gonna keep on that gerbil wheel to maintain you pride of life cause you bought all this ---------------------------------------------
  That's just stupid. 
You know what cat's do???????????????
  Man, let me tell you what cat's do. They like go grab a bite to eat real quick......................AND THEN THEY ACTUALLY NAP. 
  Not gerbils ok..............................
they run around and around and around and around and around that wheel
 Hebrews 4:9-11 "There remaineth therefore a rest to the people of God. For he that is entered into his rest, he also hath ceased from his own works, as God did from his. Let us labour therefore to enter into that rest, lest any man fall after the same example of unbelief."
  I'm in like rest mode......feel me???????????????
  I don't even get these gerbils................pertinerre running for nothing.........................if you get the goods the "goods" right...........that are all so "cool" in this world....................few minutes later that stuffs is out of date, and you need the next latest "goods". And you don't even get there, little gerbils..................................you run around silly on that there wheel. The tv show "Keeping up with the Kardashian's" isn't titled ---------------------- go buy some gucci -------------- and bamn your a kardashian..................
no it's titled "Keeping up with the Kardashians" --------- at best you on a silly gerbil wheel runnin yourself silly just trying to KEEP UP with the kardashians. 
Forget that. 
I'd rather be like uncool for jesus - meow. 
(pic of me and my husband)
 Forget the lusts of the flesh, forget that gerbil wheel -------------------------- 
Like god wants us to be like zealous for good works right, so as a cat MEOW, you need to like move a bit. But like like most the day..........ya. 
  Like for reals earth........................I'm tellin you what I can tell you right now ok. Lucifer is called a roaring lion....................he ain't being no gerbil on no wheel for reals. And the lord jesus christ called the "lion of the tribe of juda" lion all kinds. CATS! LIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NOT GERBILS! 
Matthew 6:25 "Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?"
  Don't think about what your going to eat or what you are going to wear, or even don't even think on fitness to much ("nor yet for your body") that's gerbil logic right there. 
MEOW
".............IS NOT THE LIFE MORE THAN MEAT, AND THE BODY THAN RAIMENT?" AMEN 
meow
Have a great week! 
LOVE

Friday, November 4, 2016

I finally visited a synagogue today - still plenty christian - I've felt so distant from god lately I was hoping it would be helpful for me...............

I finally visited a synagogue today - still plenty christian - I've felt so distant from god lately I was hoping it would be helpful for me...............Deuteronomy 6:5 "And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might." Can I not work on that at a jewish synagogue if you ask me I'd say ya! (in addition to christian church on sundays was my thought) It was awkward, I stupidly thought I could walk into a full blown jewish synagogue and say I'm of the rubenstein family and that would be it...................like jewish pixie dust and all the blessings of abraham would just fall upon me instantly (I really did)...............

 It didn't like go baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. Some like pixie dust and the blessings of abraham hit me --- in a extreme full blown law heeding big time synagogue. I pry faired much better then most would...............like I could even show up again if I wanted to!!!!!!!!!!!! And I know I could!!!!!!!!!! 
 Most of the songs in hebrew I was able to sing (god's given me a knack for that language).
I don't like feeling far away from god! If I don't audibly hear from god at least once a week while praying......that bothers me. 
 I was trying to tell my husband earlier today, back in the olden days god spoke to people WELL HE STILL DOES nobody talks about that in the body of christ hardly but I'm pretty sure that's pretty normal or it should be normal. God the bible says is a jealous god, well if He is a jealous god, jealous for us..............wouldn't it make sense that He'd have stuffs to say to us from time to time?
Genesis 21:2 "For Sarah conceived, and bare Abraham a son in his old age, at the set time of which God had spoken to him." I do not believe Abraham and David and all these people in the bible god spoke to are some fluke instances, that this is normal. Deuteronomy 4:24 "For the Lord thy God is a consuming fire, even a jealous God." Though I could be lucky. I could of for most my life been really, really ridiculously lucky to of heard from god as much as I have..................
I long for god, I love to hear from Him
I can't handle not hearing from Him
no worldly item, no idolatry, no nothing of this world is worth getting in the way of my relationship with god/jesus! 3 John 1:2 "Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth."
  Pastors are big on prospering financially and health wise and there is nothing wrong with that but.........................
woe to me if my "soul" doesn't "prosper" 
woe to me in the spiritual desert land in a land of drought!!!!!!!!!!
 Isaiah 43:19-21 "Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it? I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.The beast of the field shall honour me, the dragons and the owls: because I give waters in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert, to give drink to my people, my chosen. This people have I formed for myself; they shall shew forth my praise."
  It could be I'm in some "desert time" so as to gain thirst................that it's all in god's plan. 

Psalm 42King James Version (KJV)

42 As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God.
My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God: when shall I come and appear before God?
My tears have been my meat day and night, while they continually say unto me, Where is thy God?
When I remember these things, I pour out my soul in me: for I had gone with the multitude, I went with them to the house of God, with the voice of joy and praise, with a multitude that kept holyday.
Why art thou cast down, O my soul? and why art thou disquieted in me? hope thou in God: for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance.
(((((((((((I mega dig psalm 42 verse 5 where it says "...................for I shall yet praise him for the help of his countenance")))))))))))) that's right whoever wrote psalms 42!
  I need to talk to god and hear from Him again, angels visiting me, the whole deal!!!!!!!!! Or else I pretty much feel afflicted.
  And I know people might read this and think...........ooooooooooo snap this is a rubenstein family member..................ya I am : ) 
If life was just what we weared and ate..................WHAT A HELL THAT WOULD BE!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Luke 12:22-23 "And he said unto his disciples, Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat; neither for the body, what ye shall put on. The life is more than meat, and the body is more than raiment."
  Sweating it...................I haven't heard from god in so long I am sweating it................I thank god though I'm sweating it, that I am not content!
Revelation 3:17 "Because thou sayest, I am rich, and increased with goods, and have need of nothing; and knowest not that thou art wretched, and miserable, and poor, and blind, and naked:" How many people out there these days are of the mindset "I'm blessed by god" and all content in that?????? Probably a lot of people. 
Are you on fire?????????????
Do you thirst for god??????????????
Psalm 42 "As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God."
ok ok myself
breath don't have some weird rubenstein family meltdown
GOD IS FAITHFUL!
Deuteronomy 7:9 "Know therefore that the Lord thy God, he is God, the faithful God, which keepeth covenant and mercy with them that love him and keep his commandments to a thousand generations;"