Tuesday, August 19, 2014

The importance of humility....................

I like this pic of obama, good pic of him..........

(a guest pastor at the portland apostolic christian church of america this sunday got me thinking on the topic of humility) I've encountered a problem more then once at church (twice maybe three times that I know of) where people will come up to me and say hi to me, and they will be expecting me to acknowledge them GREATELY, like above and beyond how everyone else in the church acknowledges each other. Because they view it in the their minds that if I acknowledge them a slew,
then of course they are right about themselves they are the awesomest ever on the planet!
But who could do that????????????? Like it's easy to acknowledge a king that much........................THAT'S A KING. They did kingly things...........like obama for instance, be easy for me to give some extra acknowledgement to obama, I've seen him make some really really really good descisions lately. He helps the whole world sometimes obama does --------------- he's pretty near a king!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That's a easy person to give some "extra" acknowledgement to.
   But a brother or sister, that I have barely heard speak - and never even heard not even 1 bible verse come from their mouths............coming up to me, expecting me to give them some "king attention" --------------------- I FIND THAT HARD TO DO!
Several years ago at the apostolic christian church of america............................there was one older sister came up to me and THERE WAS A SLEW OF LIGHT IN HER EYEBALLS OK, so you knew that ok this sister has laboured for the lord! Well she expected me to give her the "kings treatment" and I didn't fully, I smiled, I shook her hand, I think I tried to esteem her high, pretty sure?????????????????? (but she was expecting you know "extra" from me)
And then this older sister sat next to me 2nd half of church and started SINGING A HYMN IN ANOTHER LANGUAGE.......(she fully spoke english and well)..........and I got that heebie geebie feeling up my neck that she was CURSING ME BAD, I'm pretty 100% that whatever she cursed me with stuck on me and it's still on me potentially today.
She must've died after that, she was old real old, she never went to church again that I know of post that day  probably cursing me.
But I am leading to something here, the importance of humility...................1 Peter 5:5 "Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all of you be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble."
This "idea" definately could apply to myself as well - to not think about myself more then I "ought" to Romans 12:3 "For I say, through the grace given unto me, to every man that is among you, not to think of himself more highly than he ought to think; but to think soberly, according as God hath dealt to every man the measure of faith." Just happens to be in my mind lately, what paul said, 1 Corinthians 3:7 "So then neither is he that planteth any thing, neither he that watereth; but God that giveth the increase." "any thing" in this verse I am pretty sure means "no big deal" But instead god/jesus is the "big deal"!
 Click button below if brave.............my attempt at singing out of the Zions harp song 186, verses 3 and 4..........................................
please, please, stay humble everyone
and have a great week! 

Thursday, August 14, 2014

We need to show mercy to one another cause it is impossible pretty well to be "positive and uplifting" all the time - people go through stuffs I'm not the only one out there that goes through stuffs!................

We need to show mercy to one another cause it is impossible pretty well to be "positive and uplifting" all the time - people go through stuffs I'm not the only one out there that goes through stuffs! I am surely not the norm on this planet I have decided, most people bottle up what they are going through, so if/when we come across someone looking angry or maybe frowning or whatever I DO RECOGN ESPECIALLY IN THIS BIT HARD ECONOMIC TIME WE LIVE IN THEY ARE GOING THROUGH SOMETHING (that health care is so expensive and that many people out there are stuck in part time jobs..............I count that a challenging economic time, often pastors these days will talk about how the usa is the richest nation in the world, but still many out there are struggling I believe!)
  Titus 3:2-3 "To speak evil of no man, to be no brawlers, but gentle, shewing all meekness unto all men. For we ourselves also were sometimes foolish, disobedient, deceived, serving divers lusts and pleasures, living in malice and envy, hateful, and hating one another."

  I hope to stoke people up to show mercy to one another to love one another much more! Phil Collins was right, sometimes this world is short on love and this world desperately needs love..............we desperately need to show bowels of mercy to one another and love one another...................
  I saw a cool sign in my town that said............
do what you can, with what you have, with where you are
 Fat - skinny IT SHOULDN'T MATTER LIKE IT'S MATTERING OUT THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Though ya I'm still chubby, so going to defend the fellow chubbians : ) It's hard to turn down a nice slice of cake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's hard to just stop cold turkey all nacho's, all french fries, etc. and just walk to the carrots and salads. I AIN'T A RABBIT!
 And I believe women though make less money then men, and my parents think that all the sisters of the apostolic christian church of america are thought of as 2nd class citizens. I think women even today can be this bible verse (and I realize many sisters have to work, they have to for reals). But for those of us that can afford to stay at home and sew : )..........................Proverbs 31:10-25 "Who can find a virtuous woman? for her price is far above rubies. The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil. She will do him good and not evil all the days of her life. She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands. She is like the merchants' ships; she bringeth her food from afar. She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth meat to her household, and a portion to her maidens. She considereth a field, and buyeth it: with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard. She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms. She perceiveth that her merchandise is good: her candle goeth not out by night. She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff. She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy. She is not afraid of the snow for her household: for all her household are clothed with scarlet. She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple. Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land. She maketh fine linen, and selleth it; and delivereth girdles unto the merchant. Strength and honour are her clothing; and she shall rejoice in time to come."
  The latest stuffs I sewed for my family............this isn't all I sewed for my family recently but the items I'm showing off online : ).......
 turned a pair of my husbands pants into cargo shorts : )

this skort was to short for my youngest so I added a cute ruffle to the bottom : )
Have a great day earth please love me, and love each other! 

Monday, August 4, 2014

Video vlog post: Whether I am exalted or abased is it not god that did that to me???????????????.........................

(my parents think I look sad in this video, I'm not sad, what I am at the moment is bit hot, bit tired out - that's all...................full of hope, and love, and hope for this here earth - bowels of mercies to ya lots them - cause I show mercy then people show me mercy so this is good! God wants us to love one another be fruitful have bowels of mercies towards one another.........Colossians 3:12 "Put on therefore, as the elect of God, holy and beloved, bowels of mercies, kindness, humbleness of mind, meekness, longsuffering;")
Things I noted yesterday at church................
I noted at one point one the pastors, Mike was talking about how the humble would be exalted and the proud would be abased this verse Luke 18:14 "I tell you, this man went down to his house justified rather than the other: for every one that exalteth himself shall be abased; and he that humbleth himself shall be exalted." The guest pastor appear to be leaning low and starring at me with
that look that said "common fool, you know you've been up to stuffs to wazuu" (as if I had tried on purpose to exalt myself -- which I have in the past, but lot the time I'm not trying to exalt myself at all..............Hebrews 13:16 "But to do good and to communicate forget not: for with such sacrifices God is well pleased.")
the mindset I'm mostly of these days concerning my status whether that be I'm abased or exalted or both at the same time (both at the same time I fully recogn).........................
who am I to exalt myself
or who am I to abase myself
whether exalted or abased is it not god that did that to me? 
Philippians 4:12 "I know both how to be abased, and I know how to abound: every where and in all things I am instructed both to be full and to be hungry, both to abound and to suffer need."
   If I abounded fantastically..............it was because god enabled me to. If I were abased, that's because god wants me there to, his will, will be done perfectly in my life nomadder what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm fully trusting in god either way, nomadder what, not even worried about it really. 
  Way I see it the thing for me to work to do has always been the same and always will be the same......................1 Peter 5:5-6 "Likewise, ye younger, submit yourselves unto the elder. Yea, all of you be subject one to another, and be clothed with humility: for God resisteth the proud, and giveth grace to the humble. Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time:" Long as I humble myself under the mighty hand of god keep doin that, if I am not exalted by god yet ------------- I will be eventually I know this to be the case!
  And the grace of god being with the humble, so surely humility is the thing, which if I'm lowly to wazuu I THANK GOD FOR THAT! 
  I am weak, I am weak like paul is weak who knew how to both abound and "suffer need"
Also noted today, a brother looked at me in some kind of agony the 2nd half of the service - which I like that..................not the agony part the worry the care that brother appeared to have for me.
  A pastor from portland retired, only 1 pastor now at portland, it's weirded me out. Many the churches I went to as a kid, pastors didn't retire, they preached til they died, and then their sons took over, and then their sons took over when they died etc. Also I'm a fan of billy graham, and I clean saw him pretty well near giving a sermon while laying in bed sick, he's clean 95 (I don't know if he's giving sermons no more but I imagine billy graham hasn't fully "retired" cause he's still like alive basically)
  I don't get to retire!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1 Peter 5:8 "Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:" It's rons choice and he made it and I know that and I'm going to have to accept this he's good and "retired"!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  Clean 3 pastors have retired while I've been attending the apostolic christian church of america, at the portland church. I guess billy graham has pry retired pastors do retire, 3 though is just a lot pry, it's a lot and I'm not used to that immense of a pastor turn over in a church.


Friday, July 25, 2014

It's important really important to rightly divide the word of truth 2 Timothy 2:15........................

Happens to be I'm a member of the reubenstein family "real good"  (when I pray to god, it's not what I'd call the "gentile experience") The world might smack me good, for what I'm about to say.................a person can be "undecided" and I think on the wedding ring issue I'm a touch still "undecided".
 It is important to "rightly divide" the word of god 2 Timothy 2:15 "Study to shew thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth."
  If you do not "rightly divide" the word of truth, you INDEED could make it to heaven, for sure a person could make it to heaven wearing a simple wedding band...................but would you end up "ashamed" when you got to heaven and found out that god didn't really want you wearing any sort of jewelry???????????????????????????????????????
Do you want to be ashamed when you get to heaven???????
I DON'T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
 Hated anyways so I can't even win either way now can I??????????????
wear a wedding ring == hated
don't wear a weddidng ======= oop to bad for you boo still hated
this article stood out to me..............
1 Peter 3 "Whose adorning let it not be that outward adorning of plaiting the hair, and of wearing of gold, or of putting on of apparel" this is the verse, this is the verse to haunt me in my sleep at night. The argument by every body against wearing wedding rings is on this verse............once nobody weared wedding rings hardly as I said few blog posts ago, it was considered worldly, pagan, and complete friendship with the world. But then wedding rings became popular somehow and tons of churches cracked ---------------------------- except the apostolic christian church of america, and a few more churches as well.
   The jews didn't wear jewelry waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back in the day. God gave them jewelry and then............Ezekiel 16:17 "Thou hast also taken thy fair jewels of my gold and of my silver, which I had given thee, and madest to thyself images of men, and didst commit whoredom with them," But there was a time, when the jews did not wear jewelry waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay back in the day.
 For me it's down to like how much of a christian jew am I.......I know I'm not a gentile, I pretend to be woo hoo about wedding rings.........................................
I can't even handle 1 tattoo,
if someone was to kidnap me and stick a tattoo on me I'd directly FREAK OUT.......if that were to happen I'd have to do all I could to get that tattoo removed. (I don't count henna as a "tattoo" that's worldly, but not a "tattoo" in my estimation)
sweating it....................................
give up myself you ain't a gentile you are a christian jew full out GIVE UP!

  Can't see in this pic all the holes that are plugged, there another one that is plugged but the leaves have browned in that hole..............but the mason bee's are filling up these holes, maybe with food, bee babies????????? And systematically plugging up holes one by one...........it's fun to watch....................

(Stinks to be me so bad somedays)
Better add this verse............Romans 2:29 "But he is a Jew, which is one inwardly; and circumcision is that of the heart, in the spirit, and not in the letter; whose praise is not of men, but of God." But that inward circumcision of your/mine our hearts, should indeed show up in our visual appearance!
pinterest craft I did today....it was fun.......http://www.pinterest.com/pin/546131892286433323/

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Just got off the phone to my husband, who basically told me, "good things are worth fighting for"...............

Just got off the phone to my husband, who basically told me, "good things are worth fighting for"...............even one the pastors of my church what yesterday told me "well you agree with most of what we believe right?" AND I DO A LOT! A lot.
  I have frustration at the moment,  people trying to challenge a churches 100's of years old "don't wear wedding rings" tradition as my husband told me, they are going to find themselves maybe "ganged up upon" (or maybe just even feeling that way) going to pry hit a bit of "friction" anyways. But my husband says that doesn't mean that standing up for what you believe is right, isn't worth it.
  Right now a few people at the apostolic christian church of america are telling me, either don't wear a wedding ring, or leave the church cause you are doomed. My husband reminded me the elder of the church said the wedding ring thing "wasn't" a issue. My husband believes that right now the church is "weary" of "splits" there have been large splits in the apostolic christian church of america few of them. That the elders of the church some them if not all of them are viewing their church as a "fish tank", my husband says that if you add lots of new fresh water into a fish tank the fish will die of shock, that instead the elders of the church are likely going to "choose" to allow a few wedding ring wearers in as memberrs of the church, one by one, slow like, so that even the people that would of otherwise "adamantly" disagree'd and broke off and made their own church will instead stick around.......................................................

My parents are currently mega proud of me for standing up for what I believe is right : ) My husband believe's that the people in the apostolic christian church of america that are telling me, don't wear a wedding ring or give up your doomed, that they are trying to be "helpful" in their minds, past blog post all that stuffs said by people in the churches replies THEY ALL BELIEVED THEY WERE BEING HELPFUL like fully I'm saying in their minds. 
  Telling me don't wear a wedding ring or you are doomed - is actually "helpful" words from members of the apostolic christian church of america to me at this juncture in time. Are those words actually in reality "helping me" no cause I'm frustrated anybody in my shoes would be frustrated...............but in their minds they are actually helping me and coming from a "good place" in their heads and hearts, that is what my husband helped me understand today. 
  I'm like Martin luther king jr. right now (not anywhere near as great as martin luther king jr - martin luther king jr. if I was face to face to him right now, I believe he'd tell me to stand up for what I believe is right). I LOVE MARTIN LUTHER KING JR. AND HAPPEN TO LOOK UP TO HIM A SLEW. 
amen martin luther king jr.
for martin luther when he was speaking he could see the "promised land" he said in above video he wasn't even sure he'd get there BUT HE SO DEEMED FREEDOM WORTH FIGHTING FOR. In this instance concerning the wedding ring issue - the fight is pry for equality. 
 That there never be's segregation at the church of the wedding ring wearers from the non-wedding ring wearers. 
(Martin luthers speech above inspired me a slew)

Sunday, July 20, 2014

My husband is right I am a worry wart..............

My husband is convinced I'll become a member of the church and am a worry wart for 0 reason.............(because the elder told me not to worry about the wedding ring thing, so my husband is completely convinced that I wear a wedding ring is no issue at all)
This was one the verses read at portland's church today 2 Thessalonians 3:6 "Now we command you, brethren, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that ye withdraw yourselves from every brother that walketh disorderly, and not after the tradition which he received of us." In 2 Thessalonians 3:6 it's saying people that don't heed the "tradition which he received of us" are therefore walkething "disorderly" and everyone needs to not speak to that person no more...............not off of actual bible verses but "traditions" that a brother or sister decides not to heed - I guess don't matter if they are "comfortable" or not with that tradition.
  For me I'm so uncomfortable not wearing my wedding ring, the same discomfort level would only be comparable to walking around shirtless, or no clothes at all.
  Traditions though can be bad sometimes.......................
Mark 7:13 "Making the word of God of none effect through your tradition, which ye have delivered: and many such like things do ye."
  If indeed you have to withdraw yourself from me and can't love me then........you own tradition has made "the word of god of none effect", not for me have you made the word of god of none effect but for yourselves, cause you aren't loving me if you withdraw yourself from me. You have made me out a sister that "walketh disorderly" over wearing a wedding ring cause obviously anybody that wears wedding rings are CRAZED LUNATICS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - sarcasm
  But my husband states that that isn't what the church means at all...................that the tradition they are most concerned about me "heeding" isn't the wedding ring tradition at all............but the tradition of meeting with the elder of the church for my husband says potentially every month for up to 5 years to become a member of the church - that tradition. 
  I am still meeting with the elder of the church, this is still going on..............................this tradition I have no reference for in my own experience, I am of the reubenstein family, the only "traditions" I have reference for are mostly jewish (breaking the glass, in jewish weddings for example that makes perfect sense to me, I didn't do that in my wedding my wedding was christian but nonetheless that tradition is in my "realm of reference")
  Incubating chicken eggs for the 1st time ever : ).............................................fun : ).....................

 I can say this much we war not against flesh and blood so no matter what happens to me, let's say I was shunned right, well I'm still not battling against flesh and blood.................Ephesians 6:12 "For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places."
  If I was shunned, if I am shunned, what that means I believe is that the apostolic christian church of america IN THAT EVENT, is completely possessed with demons and devils galore and everybody including myself needs to pray for them then! 
 you know if I'm actually being shunned!!!!!!!!!!!! 
 The fruit of the spirit is love, and it's patience, and it's um wait get the verse...............
Galatians 5:22-23 "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law."
  I do recogn the un-demon possessed all of us, that is not demon possessed maybe a million people on earth (seems that way to me, seems like everyone done possessed by something out there) we should have "love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance" how much we have of these things can indeed vary from time to time, that is the goal nonetheless. 
  Either my husband is right, or the apostolic christian church of america is possessed with demons...........so it's one or the other. They are either possessed with demons bad, or my husband is right. 
  My husband also says sometimes I make things much more harder for myself then they need to be, he says it's like I'm playing a video game and I've decided I enjoy sticking myself in front of a bunch of killers.
  How my mind works for reals..........................until I am a member of the church I could be attacked, I could be attacked, and so I pry need to be on the defense and offense and every position on the entire field for according to my husband maybe 5 years................................................................
 We don't wage a war against flesh and blood, BUT there could be people standing in our way of reaching jesus! Matthew 23:13 "But woe unto you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! for ye shut up the kingdom of heaven against men: for ye neither go in yourselves, neither suffer ye them that are entering to go in." I am likely putting myself all kinds in the line of fire right now, that's what my husband is going to tell me. But until I am a member of the apostolic chrsitian church of america, how I know if I'm being potentially blocked from entering the kingdom of heaven right now??????????????????? (such is how the cranks in my head spin, I am a thinker) 
  I'll find out in 5 years I guess!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
 Have a great week earth! 

Saturday, July 19, 2014

In this world full of people randomnly meeting each other in bars - god really did join me and my husband together!!!!!!!!!!!.................

(claus right at the start of this post I am adding in..........I don't regret talking, cause it is good to talk get your feelings/beliefs out there, could I be wrong there is a 5% chance : ) I don't mean to actually start a war with the church............read the about me section of my blog still meeting with the elder of the church..........this is happens to be a issue that has effected me a slew and that I have strong beliefs over)
I will continue work pursue peace and holiness with the apostolic christian church of america
it is what it is this "nobody can wear wedding rings not even henna's tattoo'd ones and be a member of the church" 
my agony is real you will see that in the comments below!
Hebrews 12:14 "Follow peace with all men, and holiness, without which no man shall see the Lord:"In this world full of people randomnly meeting each other in bars - god really did join me and my husband together!!!!!!!!!!!................Matthew 19:6 "Wherefore they are no more twain, but one flesh. What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder."
  A guy few blog posts before this in the comments section told me to "stop ranting on the internet" and just quiety leave the apostolic christian church of america. (I'd hope I'd blog even without the "ring issue", lot of my posts have nothing to do with the "ring issue" - for those that don't know it very much looks to be a person can not become a member of the apostolic christian church of america if they wear a wedding ring, THE HENNA RING IDEA DIDN'T WORK OUT EITHER)
  I met my husband through a dating site on yahoo, but I was EXTREMELY holy spirit filled reading his profile. GOD ACTUALLY DID JOIN ME AND MY HUSBAND TOGETHER! 
   Maybe I am ranting at the moment..................I didn't make this "ring" rule the apostolic christian church of america did, and maybe the guy that appeared to be very angry with me a few blog posts previous is right, that I need to quietly leave the apostolic christian church of america. Cause it may be impossible for me to become a member of this church.
  Cause I know where my "comfort level" is, I'm extremely uncomfortable not wearing my wedding ring (less I henna in a ring).
  the bible commands us to avoid all appearance of evil well if your married and not wearing a wedding ring to me that connotes.............
you might be a "swinger"
or a "fornicator"
or a "giglio"
or part of the "key club"
or maybe your church all the eons of sisters and few men maybe some "sister wives on the sly" scenario maybe is going on?????????????????
to me a entire church not wearing wedding rings doesn't connote something holy
1 Thessalonians 5:22 "Abstain from all appearance of evil."
  At this point in time in america, a full 80% of married people WEAR WEDDING RINGS. From wikipedia............"In the 21st century 80% of the ceremonies still consist of double-ring ceremonies within the United States." http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wedding_ring
  Yes that 20% that is also married don't wear rings..............they are the minority right now BY FAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
  I'm not comfortable not wearing my wedding ring at all, they are trying to pressure me into something I'm not comfortable with. 
  I don't want to look like a - "fornicator, gigilet, swinger, or key club member" AT ALL!!!!!!!!!! 
I want to look good and married, cause I am!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Happily! 
  But nomadder what happens, I trust god, I trust that god's perfect will will be worked in my life, that no "man-made" rules and regulations are going to be able to get in the way of that!!!!!!!!!!!
Romans 8:28 "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose."
  I don't mean to be a "ranting spaz" on the internet though, this is a real issue that has effected me, I'm still not a member of the apostolic christian church of america, ain't allowed to take communion at church, so that is a real impact by a man made rule that has/is impacting me at the moment! 
  God's will will happen though in my life nomadder what, I have faith in god and his power........I trust god fully! Have a great week earth!