Tuesday, November 18, 2014

A Apostolic Christian Church Of America pastor one sunday in portland mentioned "rank" and it was really cute.......but I think at the heart of the body of christ there isn't rank...............

A Apostolic Christian Church Of America pastor one sunday in portland mentioned "rank" and it was really cute.......but I think at the heart of the body of christ there isn't rank...............
He said, "Don't think that cause you blog something that sounds good that your rank in the church will go up" ----------- which was a cute thing to say in retrospect. Surely there was a time I was concerned about "rank" (which rank pretty safe to say doesn't exist, and if it does exist in church IT SHOULDN'T! 1 Corinthians 3:21-23 "Therefore let no man glory in men. For all things are your's; Whether Paul, or Apollos, or Cephas, or the world, or life, or death, or things present, or things to come; all are your's; And ye are Christ's; and Christ is God's.")
  Lately I've been battling a "extreme inferiority complex", the elder of my church (and ACCA of silverton) mentioned to me recently this verse Galatians 3:28 "There is neither Jew nor Greek, there is neither bond nor free, there is neither male nor female: for ye are all one in Christ Jesus." But how many pastors or how many men for that matter really believe that verse, I worry, do they think because they are the ones up there preaching that they are somehow "ranked" above me???????????????? I believe Galatians 3:28 but if the rest of the brothers out there if they didn't believe it........................then it stinks to be me pry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
  I've sang this song most of today.....................I went to the Winter Jam 2014 christian music festival and saw colton like few days ago..............serious I went here I put pic I took at the concert to, had so much fun..................



  It was a time for me to sit and think real hard about how valuable jesus actually is to me, that I really don't want jesus to be some "fling item" to me...............you know where I like have the title of "christian" but don't know jesus really. Everyday I want to deny myself and take up my cross and follow jesus that I decrease and jesus Increases! This verse been on my heart a slew lately 1 Corinthians 15:31 "I protest by your rejoicing which I have in Christ Jesus our Lord, I die daily." Paul didn't just say that in 1 Corinthians 15:31 to all sound "fancy" he really did DIE DAILY!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S MY LONGING TO FOR NOW ON OUT TO DIE DAILY!!!!!!!!! THAT I DECREASE AND JESUS INCREASES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! John 3:30 "He must increase, but I must decrease."
 My latest painting (it's loosely sitting in the frame just finished it what 2 hours ago - so haven't yet added glacier points in the back etc.)....................................
I've always liked the funess of andy warhol paintings. 
Have a great week earth! 
LOVE

Tuesday, November 11, 2014

I will fully admit, there have been times I have UNKNOWINGLY "persecuted the church" Philippians 3:6 "Concerning zeal, persecuting the church; touching the righteousness which is in the law, blameless."......................

I will fully admit, there have been times I have UNKNOWINGLY "persecuted the church" Philippians 3:6 "Concerning zeal, persecuting the church; touching the righteousness which is in the law, blameless." But I think we all have that same type of weakness of from time to time getting "over zealous" cause you know Philippians 3:6 "Concerning zeal, persecuting the church" paul got over zealous I believe.
   I've always been a very "ambitious" person. Somedays for the mere fact that I wake up in the morning and I much want to live this life more abundantly jesus came to give me...........
a rich a full life
one where I am no longer a debtor (slave) to the flesh no more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
   The church is worried about my bodybuilding, they are weary of it, but I assure you all YET AGAIN, that I got my personal trainer certificate ok.............so if I decide to go a "professional route" with bodybuilding it'll be as a personal trainer and not a """""""""""competing bodybuillder"""""""""""
 I swear I am not getting the muscles for vain reasons fact oftentimes women look a bit worse having muscles. It's for """"""""HEALTH""""""""" reasons. 
  Yes I am about to become exceedingly muscular (for career "personal trainer" reasons, and health reasons) it is fun for me : ) I do enjoy it : )
  And elder of my church made sure I don't look down to people that don't look like me...........I completely don't. Everyone out there that is struggling with their weight, there are underlying issues, stress, health issues that make it hard to work out much, depression, anxiety. Very few people out there are actually like............ahhhhhhhhhhhh I'm going to eat all the food I want and just gain 400 lbs this year! - even the morbid obese, lot them say they wish that hadn't of happened to them THAT WASN'T THEIR PLAN FOR THEIR LIFE!!!!!!!!!! 
  Don't give up out there, not on your soul you salvation, not on your health DON'T GIVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!! Every walk, every good diet choice, every day you read your bible and pray helps!!!!!! 
  I verred off my topic at hand some. I wish to not be viewed as a "persecuter" of the church no more, I may slip up from time to time a bit???????????????? That is accidental if/when that does happen. (to much zeal I sometime's have gotten)
  I hear lots of talk these days about false prophets and how they are all over the christian tv stations I even heard some real "off" stuffs that billy graham said (bible says to like judge nothing um.........1 Corinthians 4:5 "Therefore judge nothing before the time, until the Lord come, who both will bring to light the hidden things of darkness, and will make manifest the counsels of the hearts: and then shall every man have praise of God." I HOPE billy graham just had a few really off days??????????..........I would surely wish billy graham to be saved then not saved, if he believe's for reals something that isn't in keeping with the word of god it is my prayer that god will point that out to him) We all make mistakes.....................Ephesians 4:32 "And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ's sake hath forgiven you." As much as I am here giving advice to the planet with ephesians 4:32 I am also taking my own advice, this is something I need to work to do much, much, much more and I want to.
   Now I am about to add a picture of how my biceps are doing today : ) for funsies : ).......................hahahahhahaha PS............nowdays I only wear blush and foundation, cause god appears to prefer I wear less makeup.................I am a redhead though us redheads we actually don't need makeup really..........................

Have a great week earth!
LOVE

  
  

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Why I am a prepper Matthew 24:29-31 (though the apostolic christian church of america THEY THINK I DONE LOST MY MIND, they ain't into preppin none).......................

Why I am a prepper Matthew 24:29-31 (though the apostolic christian church of america THEY THINK I DONE LOST MY MIND, they ain't into preppin none).......................I pretty sure they don't think prepping for the last days is like holy...............your not supposed to like worry about the future they confuse being "prepared" with worrying. And I think being "prepared" isn't the same thing as worrying or having unbelief or anything like that......................

video

Matthew 24:29-31 "Immediately after the tribulation of those days shall the sun be darkened, and the moon shall not give her light, and the stars shall fall from heaven, and the powers of the heavens shall be shaken: And then shall appear the sign of the Son of man in heaven: and then shall all the tribes of the earth mourn, and they shall see the Son of man coming in the clouds of heaven with power and great glory. And he shall send his angels with a great sound of a trumpet, and they shall gather together his elect from the four winds, from one end of heaven to the other."
 Website I was talking about in above video.....................I just picked a website randomnly that deals with Matthew 24:29-31 hahahahha................
http://www.apostasynow.com/topics/trib/pretrib04.html
And also if your preparing you aren't worrying then cause your like prepared, if like you didn't prepare..............and you knew Matthew 24:29-31 and like believe the word of god to be true, uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh like I think not prepping is like worse then cause like then your all worrying probably or you SHOULD BE IN THAT EVENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CAUSE GOD'S WORD IS TRUE IT'S ALL GONNA HAPPEN LIKE ALL OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
 My next "prep"................
  At this point at least my husband no longer tells me he thinks I'm crazy! I KNOW HE WAS THINKIN I WAS CRAZY WHEN I STARTED PREPPING! He thinks none this will happen til 50 years from now.............he also doesn't believe the anti-christ will step on the scene til like 50 full 50 years from now...............................basically everything concerning the last days my husband doesn't believe will happen for 50 years. 
  Me --------------------- I see turbulent weather, 3 blood moons 3rd one might not of happened yet I don't know????????? CAOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Have a great day earth! And remember nomadder how bad it get's on this earth -------------- jesus is coming again soon! IT'S ABOUT TO BE AWESOME! 
LOVE

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Why I am a King James bible user solely, and why I believe it is important to have a good name, and to me I guess more important then most.............................

The pastor today tried to preach not to vaunt yourself up high, but the bible says to have a good name is something really to be desired. I think I am the type that if I'm going to try and have a good name I going to make sure my name is as good as I can get it. Proverbs 22:1 "A good name is more desirable than great riches; to be esteemed is better than silver or gold."
  1 Peter 2:12 "Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us." even that verse points out................DO A LOT OF GOOD OPENLY SO PEOPLE CAN SEE THAT!!!!!!!!!!! Even if said "good lives" lived is in your like conversation predominately cause none us is like do good machines 24/7.
  And I done decided, that I am mostly just another member of the body of christ, I ain't always full boar in my "vocation" I can't say why for sure???????????? I mentioned this verse recently and thought on it how it could apply even to myself.................
1 Corinthians 4:7 "For who maketh thee to differ from another? and what hast thou that thou didst not receive? now if thou didst receive it, why dost thou glory, as if thou hadst not received it?"

  We all are the same, "one" yes some have different vocations they are called to and different types of ministries. One. 
  But anyways, ya so here's why I am just a kings james bible user......................
  And also I got a deeper understanding of this bible verse recently..............John 13:35 "By this shall all men know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another." My experience with John 13:35 goes wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy beyond just the apostolic christian church of america. I sat and I thought to myself how good that is, that I love my fellow christians. We should love everybody as well.
  People often take John 13:35 to mean that one church will be just oozing the love for each other and then that's it, everyone will know they are the real deal...............but I now consider John 13:35 in a much bigger way......................the body of christ the entire thing is large. Not all christians out there are saved of course, not all that say "lord lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven" Matthew 7:21
"Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven; but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in heaven." What makes up the actual full entire body of christ could be a huge large pretty good sized group of people I HOPE SO......and I find myself loving them! And I'm glad about this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
  This song is hard to belt out...........I tried A for effort.................
I am admitedly a touch discouraged at the moment, but I refer back to my bodybuilding "ethic" It isn't how bad or how good I am doing on the narrow way at the moment, that is going to impact my destiny.............it is instead how I believe................
if I get in the mindset that "I'll never make it"
"I'm going to crack and buy something sooner or later that I shouldn't"
that defeatest I'm not going to win mindset then I likely will give up. 
Thank god I'm not of that mindset though, though all to often things looks mega dire for me. (ok I might be a touch dramatical.......probably : ) 
Hebrews 10:39 "But we are not of them who draw back unto perdition; but of them that believe to the saving of the soul."
how my lats are doing this week : )
Have a great week earth!
(bodybuilding really does encourage me to press on following jesus - which may be the oddest stuffs ever??????????????) you might look at this pic of my lats and think to yourself that I don't look that much buffer since the last pic of my lats............even tiny increments HELP. And even if I have a setback for a week or two.......................it's perserverance.......that will get me to my goals NOT GIVING UP, NOT DRAWING BACK, BELIEVING!!!!!!!!
LOVE
  My friends aunt needs teeth..............http://www.gofundme.com/gmqwgc
  

Friday, October 24, 2014

Most the time I walk by faith and not by sight, but sometimes what my eyeballs be's seeing THROWS ME A LOOP............THANK GOD FOR THE WORD OF GOD CAUSE WITHOUT GODS WORD I WOULDN'T BE A HOPEFUL PERSON..............


Most the time I walk by faith and not by sight, but sometimes what my eyeballs be's seeing THROWS ME A LOOP............THANK GOD FOR THE WORD OF GOD CAUSE WITHOUT GODS WORD I WOULDN'T BE A HOPEFUL PERSON..............somedays things just look that bad for me, that fantastically bad. Here I've been meeting with the elder of the church pretty well once a month for clean a year now - still not a member..............I don't even think I am even close to being a member who knows if I stand a chance to become a member of the apostolic christian church of america during this lifetime???????????????????
  And somedays I get real weary that people's is potentially judging me out there...................after all the effort I have put in, to heed god's word. 2 Corinthians 5:7 (For we walk by faith, not by sight:) All the stuffs going on in my life, that has so often discouraged me like fantastically............these things can eventually change, but even if they don't change.................Gods word is sure!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 2 Samuel 22:31 "As for God, his way is perfect; the word of the Lord is tried: he is a buckler to all them that trust in him."
  And what does god's word say.........................it says someday jesus will separate the sheep from the wolves John 15:2 "Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit."

bear fruit, love people love love love your enemies bless those that curse you bless and curse not!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
 I'm really stoked on fire with much zeal for the fruit I am bearing and going to continue to bear ---------- which might be less fruit then others or more don't matter way I see it, what is important is that we deny ourselves take up our crosses and follow jesus daily AND BEAR FRUIT....................LOVE PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Matthew 25 

33 And he shall set the sheep on his right hand, but the goats on the left.
34 Then shall the King say unto them on his right hand, Come, ye blessed of my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world:
35 For I was an hungred, and ye gave me meat: I was thirsty, and ye gave me drink: I was a stranger, and ye took me in:
36 Naked, and ye clothed me: I was sick, and ye visited me: I was in prison, and ye came unto me.
37 Then shall the righteous answer him, saying, Lord, when saw we thee an hungred, and fed thee? or thirsty, and gave thee drink?
38 When saw we thee a stranger, and took thee in? or naked, and clothed thee?
39 Or when saw we thee sick, or in prison, and came unto thee?
40 And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me.
41 Then shall he say also unto them on the left hand, Depart from me, ye cursed, into everlasting fire, prepared for the devil and his angels:
  Are you bearing good fruit today are you loving people out there?????? PRAISE GOD! (if you haven't been loving people out there so much.............there is hope for you, follow jesus he is the way the truth and the life, you can bear fruit it's exceedingly possible with jesus in ones life........John 15:4 "Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bearfruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me.")
  With my eyeballs things may not look perfect ---------- definately not. But I am so hopeful it is ridiculous. Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end."
  So um, volunteering at the foodbank near me this next week : ) And having a craft time get together with 2 sisters from portland pry next week as well : ) we making some seashell planters.........here's one I made gotta get a plant for it still................I just got it hanging outside without a plant in it at the moment cause I think it looks spiff pretty much.....................: ) hahahahah..................

HAVE A GREAT WEEK EARTH!
LOVE



Tuesday, October 14, 2014

I need prayer, cause I don't want no more filthy communication coming out of my mouth ever again I repent of that stuffs fully Colossians 3:8 "But now ye also put off all these; anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy communication out of your mouth."..........

(My latest painting, I believe this instrument is a mini chello, 
it was broken like this when I bought it at goodwill)
I need prayer cause I don't want no more filthy communication coming out of my mouth ever again!!!!!!! I repent of that stuffs fully.................Colossians 3:8 "But now ye also put off all these; anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy communication out of your mouth."
   My husbands family their communication has for years not been............sparkly, sparkly pristine. 1 Corinthians 15:33 "Be not deceived: evil communications corrupt good manners." Though they themselves, their communication was I do deem corrupted, due to the buisiness which I won't name the buisiness, I will say most them either are working there right now or have worked there, and I have been to this buisiness, and I have heard the less then sparkly clean communication going on all over the place at this buisiness..........................

   So their communication I do recogn has been corrupted, because people are not born naturally speaking like drunken pirates. (maybe not as bad as drunken pirates, I'd say like a pirate a few beers later) PEOPLE ARE NOT BORN NATURALLY SPEAKING LIKE THAT! They learn to speak in that way in which is "filthy" via people they are around!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
  And I know Corinthians 15:33 is true ".............evil communications CORRUPT GOOD MANNERS" I really spend a lot of time around my husbands family and after awhile, I have time and time again, got to thinkin to myself "ah all this bad communication this is normal, this is """""""ok"""""""""" NO! 
 Even if the whole world was talking like drunken pirates or in this instance pirates a few beers later................Colossians 3:8 "But now ye also put off all these; anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, filthy communication out of your mouth."
  Out of my mouth!!!!!!!!!!!!! Like completely, not even in personal e-mails not ever!!!!!!!!!!! GONE! That stuffs isn't supposed to remain in my mouth ever........and I completely don't want to have no "anger, wrath, malice, blasphemy, FILTHY COMMUNICATION IN MY MOUTH NO MORE AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
  It's not good never, filthy communication ain't, though there is clearly places on earth where it is apparently societally accepted and the "norm" to have some really filthy communication happening.................if you were at this buisiness ok, and filthy language is all around you like that god's still watching! Matthew 12:36 "But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment." I think we all have "idle words" by idle I mean, these are words that aren't having to do with the bible, like you talking about fixing a car for instance it's better to keep those words clean!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
CLEAN! TO NOT HAVE NO FILTHY COMMUNICATION COMING OUT OF YOUR MOUTH LIKE EVER! Even if you can get away with it, cause your somewhere where people are talking like drunken sailors a few drinks later..............YOU ARE INDEED GOING TO HAVE TO GIVE ACCOUNT SOMEDAY TO GOD FOR THAT "COMMUNICATION"
  I've battled with "evil communication" for sometime now, I've noticed, I'll be around my husbands family and I'll really completely get to thinking, all that evil communication is actually ok, cause in their family it is given a green light and is considered normal, ok and completely acceptible. 
  Going to remind myself and keep reminding myself, that it's not good, not the thing for me to have ever, no "evil communication" I don't want to speak no more evil communication. 
  I need prayer. That I never forget, that I never again get to thinking that a bunch of drunken few beers later conversation is normal and ok. 
  Have a great day earth, be sober, don't be pirates!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
LOVE

Tuesday, October 7, 2014

I find guarding my heart to be harder in these last days Proverbs 4:23 "Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life."...................

(my latest painting, I'm still painting mountains........there was a chinese guy in the middle of the fishes, but I sawed him out and threw him in the garbage cause he might've been a idol - not sure??? my husbands hammering on the gold fish to the canvas right now : ) these are chinese mountains to of course!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
I find guarding my heart to be harder in these last days..........but the answers of course they are in the bible ----------- in bold.................
Proverbs 4:20-27 "My son, attend to my words; incline thine ear unto my sayings. Let them not depart from thine eyes; keep them in the midst of thine heart. For they are life unto those that find them, and health to all their flesh. Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life. Put away from thee a froward mouth, and perverse lips put far from thee. Let thine eyes look right on, and let thine eyelids look straight before thee. Ponder the path of thy feet, and let all thy ways be established. Turn not to the right hand nor to the left: remove thy foot from evil."
  Which I take "remove thy foot from evil" to mean not only don't partake in gossip and evil speaking, but don't do that either...............completely remove my foot from evil. Let my eyelids look straight before me...................ponder the path of me feet
am I serving god
or am I serving mammon 
which one am I clinging to!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
Luke 16:13 "No servant can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serveGod and mammon."
 Often I battle a type of pride, the type of pride, the type of pride where you believe you are a really good person now..................like I was a sinner back in 1980 something but now I am a angel flying in heaven with wings, but this isn't the case I find....................
Romans 7:17-19 "Now then it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. For the good that I would I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do."
  While I make mention of this verse, I'm nearly busted with some my friends.................won't even fully even mean that stuffs I'll say, as the bible says a little bit of leaven leavens the whole lump....................doesn't take much for like 1 thing, one thought or whatever I let into my heart for that moment to spin out of control. And why is that...........................there in sin that dwelleth in me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 
     And I got lazy at keeping a guard of my heart!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "keep thy heart with all diligence, for out of it are the issues of life."
 If any you also flub up from time to time don't draw back don't give up don't quit following jesus for...........Matthew 24:13
"But he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved."
  I recogn just gotta get back up, get to guardin your heart again. 

1 John 1:7-9 "But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." this entire process I recogn it takes awhile..........why else would Matthew 24:13 talk about "he that shall endure unto the end, the same shall be saved" salvation must not be a bippity boppity boo................poof thing to happen to a person you know overnight..............but a process...............
Image result for fairy godmother no kalamazula bippity bulla, bippity boppity boo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOVE
have a great day earth!